Rest when you are dead you ain't got enough time left to rest now
Says the man who stands a fair chance of dying before I do. I'm "smelling the roses" as it were. I enjoy my life and my rest times. I gave up being a type A personality long ago and I don't miss it.
Bhanky, you are driven to prove something which nobody but you gives a shit about, (specially not a bunch of yahoos on an internet forum). Hopefully, you find out that your choosing very lonely way to live your life. Your girlfriend may cheer you on for now, but when it comes right down to it, she'd rather you focus your attention on her rather than yourself. -Guess this is not a problem for you because as you've said, you aren't ever getting married again (read make a commitment to someone else). If she gets tired of your self-centered personality and dumps you....well....there is always another fish in the sea. Seems like a kind of sad way to live one's life.