I’ve been on this forum on and off for the last few years, I started cycling at 18, and was on and off throughout the years till about 22 years old. I was cruising for a year so 21-22 I was cruising on test then would do a regular 500 weekly cycle. I stopped taking test and working out for about a year or 2 because I got busy with life, and a lot of changes were happening so I literally stopped lifting for about 2 years. Fast forward to right when Covid hit, I was 24 years old, and I noticed every day I was depressed, lacked motivation and energy to do anything and everything I was dragging my feet. I had been off test for about 2 years. I go see a psychiatrist because I couldn’t even get myself to workout every other day after I started trying to lift again, and she puts me on anti depressants which made things 200x worse, I was more depressed than anything and so I stopped seeing her and threw away the meds, decided one day I wanted to start test again, and maybe 48 hours after my first pin in 2-3 years, I felt completely normal again, no mood swings, was happy, no depression, it vanished overnight . My question is am I screwed and have to stay on trt for life at this point?