Brother we all face pains in our lives. In truth I'm feeling down these days as well. I've had a failed marriage to someone that was clinically bipolar and dealing with that was extremely difficult. Lived a fairly consecutive life but after my marriage started dating again and was naive, fell in love with someone who ultimately wasn't good for me but still don't know how let them go (as in I still think about them and miss them which saddens me). Dated someone right after who honestly had zero values, over the course of the relationship she slowly admitted her past actions and they were not good. When you have feelings for someone you don't want that lifestyle for them, it's a crushing feeling, and exhausting trying to show them how to be a an adult and life should have meaning not a free-for-all club party. I have now, as of this Sunday, decided that they are toxic and simply will never understand, so broke up with her. How do I cope? I have one good friend that I talk to that makes me feel happy when I'm around (non sexual female friend), I also talk to family. Also been focusing more on my faith. The more I deviated the less happy I was (just my observation). Be wise who you surround yourself with, ppl can help you grow in life or send you down the toilet. I'm fairly young btw. I wish you well.