a normal accomplished grown up man has a job, healthy constructive hobbies, sport, friends, kids and sex daily, that stimulate the production of neurotransmitters of hapiness in his brain all week long, what do you have ratard, video games, getbig and porn? Of course such a life gonna be unsatisfying after a while, educated teens at least have studies to add, and a gf, stuff you obviously dont have. Pretty shitty unfulfilling recipe, no wonder you re depressed. Maybe it's time to consider reconstructive surgery to fix your mongoloid face, to get on a diet and seriously lift weights, to find a job, to leave your mom's basement etc