Possibly. Then again, people on Getbig have suggested that I slowly ween myself off of alcohol as well.
So I have people telling me: "Do it cold turkey forever. Pussy." Then others saying: "Cold turkey is the worst thing you can do!"
We will find out soon enough. If I make it a full week, then progress has been made.
You are not that bad that you need to be weaned off booze.
I knew a guy that was bedridden - he'd call the security guards in the condo to get a bottle of Vodka each AM and it was gone by lunchtime. He was bedridden through alcohol, yet could not stop. He was waaaaaaaaay further gone that you and most likely cutting cold turkey would have killed him. In the end, he died of liver failure.
You have nothing to find out. You do not understand the subtle nature of addiction. Addiction is not withdrawal - that is one of the side effects. Addiction is that little monkey on your back telling you that you really can be a social drinker and so it's OK to get a bottle of Vodka on the way home.
How many of your friends, family and colleagues do you think got a bottle of Vodka on the way home? How many of them spent time even thinking about their drinking and justifying it to themselves? How many people that you know drove home with a bottle of Vodka on the seat rationalizing that they were not an alcoholic but an out of control social drinker?
And how many of them just drove home without the subject of alcohol popping into their heads at all? How many of them drove home thinking about dinner, bedtime story with the kids, the movie they were going to watch?
Alcohol is a major part of your life and something that is on your mind because of that monkey on your back. Addiction is NOT lying in a gutter for most people. Addiction is like a mild itch. It can be ignored for ages, it could be ignored forever but it's just easier to give it a little scratch.