My wife prefers the way I look in clothes when I'm slightly bulkier over being really lean, which I was when we met. Everyone will have different tastes, but there is one thing you haven't learned yet Halo.
When you post pics here, for the most part, we know what we are looking at... You have a small back, slightly holding water, small calves etc etc (not you just mean anyone). When women see muscles, they can't tell the difference between you and some other guy who is 4% higher body fat with smaller arms and bigger legs. I mean you need to stand next to Ronnie Coleman for the average chick / douche bag in a bar to know the difference.
If you have no aspirations to compete, you are killing yourself with drugs for no reason, in other words.
You could never use again, and everyone would still think your huge etc. Except here of course.
100% truth.