You "think" he's a bit of a dick and presume they might deserve each other. I hope you aren't basing your opinion of him on "its" words because I'm sure that "it" would say what ever it took to make you think that "its" a victim...which is probably why you stayed in the relationship with it even after knowing they were engaged. It used you and is still using the other guy. And I'm going to go out on a limb and guess that "its" probably got another sucker on the side now.
Of course it used me; I let myself be used in a way. My emotional need for love and affection got the better of me. This makes me all the more angry. Actually right now it's in graduate school in Columbia so it doesn't have much time; maybe later it will have a new affair. Sure it's a user; it once told me it loves its husband as a friend...whatever that means. Honestly, though I have some pangs and feelings I know it is better for me to move and get away from the whole sordid affair. I asked Kirsten once if it regretted the whole thing with me, it replied: "No, all in all it was very interesting."
Obviously Mr. Deicide still has feelings for it.
Ebbing, my friend, ebbing...I happen to be an emotional guy, to my consternation. Soon it will be a year since I have seen it and it matters naught, with time all feelings fade. In truth we don't really choose whom we love...
"Interesting"? I thought it loved you? Dude, she totally used you and will most likely use many others if never brought out into the open. It's husband would do well to kick it's ass to the curb...penniless.
Sorry to hear you have had health problems, I hope it hasn't been anything too serious besides the sleep problems. It's probably best to deal with the source of the problem rather than treat the symptoms (surely you've been told this already many times). My health hasn't been great since my return- mental health, that is. Physically I'm fine, just having issues wth stress and readjusting maybe. Mostly panic attacks, which as I'm learning can be quite debilitating. I've also been trying to sort through things the past few months. I thought what happened between us would go away after some time, but it seems it hasn't...You should know the reason I did not go home alone was one based mostly on practicality. I am not in at point in my life where I can overlook the need to be practical and secure. You probably already know this and it may sound ridiculous, but that's what it is. I still think of you often, and I don't know why it hasn't faded more...My feelings are still as they were when we weren't apart. You said you want closure; tell me what I can do to give you that.I miss you too.
Know that I do have regret over much of the way things went, and wish I could have found a way to make the situation different. I'm sorry I made you feel used, I never intended to...And I'm sad that you're cutting off contact, but I'll respect it. When you do decide to contact me, if ever-Love, Kirsten
Oh believe me, I understand your situation.To this day I have failed to rationalize the effect a female can have on a guy. I have seen some of the best men around mindfuccked by women that, when one looked at them from an objective position, had little to offer in the general scheme of things.
Just remember that this seems to be a pattern w/this girl. Maybe you aren't missing anything but a few thrills and a lot of misery. There is probably someone out there for you that is thrilling AND trustworthy!
Samples...Then...Then...it saw me on yahoo messenger and chatted me up and gave me the new line with the regret thing being interesting. Hell, I am glad I am rid of it. Good riddance to bad rubbish...feelings get weaker every day...thankfully...
Hereford, I believe it's like that on both sides. There are a lot of men that have too much power over women as well. People need to stop playing with other peoples hearts.
Relationship thread without me?? hell no.
It will get easier as time passes and you do not maintain any contact with it.btw...it was playing you in those emails as well. I'm not sure what you wanted to hear for closure...but "I miss you too" and "when/if you ever decide to contact me".... isn't it. It's a "i want my cake and eat it too" kind of person.and Hereford, I believe it's like that on both sides. There are a lot of men that have too much power over women as well. People need to stop playing with other peoples hearts.
Ok, I'll conciede that. But see.... nobody really gives a shit about anyone else in society today that's outside of their little clique. Guys seek out random females (and vice versa) because they can play with them and ruin them psychologically and not have any real consequences, emotional or otherwise.There is a SERIOUS shortage of quality people these days that would be feasible in a quality, long term relationship. Especially past age 25 or so...
nor sticking random women like our resident gangsta Quickerblade (just for you G!)....
Thanks Playboy.I love woman, I love the way they make you feel.Ever receive a text message from a chick you just met a few days ago "Hey Hottie, wanna catch up 4 a drink 2nite?"It's a awesome feeling, but what most guys tend to do is make movies in there heads on how the relationship will pan out instead of taking it day by day, and when the movies does not come out as scritpted the guys become bitter.
Sorry Quick, but no woman that's worth keeping around long term is gonna text "Hey Hottie, wanna catch up 4 a drink 2nite" to you.Maybe for a night.... That's a different story....
feelings get weaker every day...thankfully...
Im actually doing well without Getbig advice, but thanks.
