I worked 24/7 for over 35 years.
My mind finally said "enough is enough" and shut my body down 3 times.
Not a nice feeling. Would not wish this on my worst enemy.
I kept getting up, brushing myself off and going back to work. Extremely stressful job with over 3000 employees that I managed.
My adrenaline was always flowing. Full-blown "workaholic" for whatever reason, it's in my nature. OCD to the extreme. I was great at what I did, but when age set in... another story.
I've always worked out. Always been clean.
At this point my blood pressure was near 200/100 ~ very, very dangerous. Doc looked at me with my six-pack abs... like WTF?
After I told him about my work history, he prescribed 2 mg 3 x daily of Xanax. I have studied every drug out there from head to toe.
Xanax... well, it's a life-saver. It can get you back on your feet, but you have to pace yourself. I don't get high on it, I just get "normal' on it.
I will more than likely be on it for the rest of my life.
When my adrenaline gets going, it doesn't know when to stop. Xanax stops it.
Perfect example of an animal that can turn it on and off like a light switch: A cat.
A cat can go into a deep sleep and in milliseconds be on full alert, only to fall right back asleep again... and purring.
Xanax will allow you to live again, but you can't abuse it. You can't snort it. You only take what you are supposed to (or less)
You really can't come off it very easy. Statistics show that 1 in 3 get the seizures and even "tapering" or "titration" can take years. Many, many doctors (GP's) don't know this when they prescribe it, but the doctors that work in the Emergency wards in hospitals know ALL ABOUT IT!
It is a miracle drug. If you use it correctly, you don't need more and more and more. Using it incorrectly can even give you seizures.
If it wasn't for Xanax, I would be non-functional.
I can go a day without it from time to time, but I usually have to start taking it sometime in the morning.
Outlook on life MUST change also. You can't stress about things. You learn that ALL THE WORRY IN THE WORLD CHANGES NOTHING!!!!
One day at a time. Chill. What happens, happens and you deal with it. Some good days, some bad.
I never had this in my youth. I was 47 when my first mental breakdown or "episode" occurred.
Kids! Listen up. We never listen when we are young and those that do, need be commended. When you get older:THINGS CHANGE!
Whatever you did yesterday, you will pay for tomorrow. Trust me. It's 100% truth.
Young, dumb and full of cum, thinking you are in total control.
Older, wiser and cherish your days.
Wait and see. Live wisely. Learn from OTHER people's mistakes, not your own. You might thank me one day... but I'll prob be dead by then.