Amy please, for your own sake, stop writing stuff like that. No one here is really interested in your private life except from guys who want to make fun of you and use it to stalk you on the internet forever. Remember that there are many low-class failures around here sitting in their dark, filthy rooms who are waiting for you to write too much. They masturbate to the very thought of you revealing too much.
You sound very hurt and I understand that you want to share your story to make you feel better. That is typical behaviour of extrovert person. But this is not group therapy, this is internet forum full of trolls. Think twice before writing anything, this is moving to very wrong direction and trust me, you do not want to understand what I am talking about.