"Im just lacking in any romance or emotional attatchment and i need that. I dont want someone who puts the gym before me!"
She was clearly not right for you, Bro. But in all fairness, the Hardcore Bodybuilder's life can be a lonely one. It takes a special lady who can understand us and be what we need her to be.
I know it's painful right now, but you'll eventually find Mrs Right - you know, a gal who is into fitness. A fitness lady who will spot you properly at the gym and rack/unrack your weights for you so you can rest between sets. A gal who will properly cook, measure, and pack all your meals ahead of time. A gal who will give you gear injections and do whatever it takes to support your bodybuilding endeavors financially or otherwise if need be. A gal who will know when to pamper you and also when to disappear.
You need to get into the right frame of mind. This will be a very emotional time for you. It's very important to stay focused and not get depressed. You don't want to start missing workouts and meals - the Catabolic Monster is lurking in the shadows, and will destroy much of your hard-earned gains if you're not vigilant.
Time to get on a killer 6 month cycle that would make most pro bbers' jaws drop - 10 grams a week total, minimum. Read "Muscle" by Samuel Wilson Fussell again. Go out and buy a shit load of workout clothing, belts, wraps, straps, supplements (I recommend the above mentioned Animal Pak myself), and double up on the good foods - steak, eggs, milk, etc.
I would also get a huge vat of Viagra and some new dress clothes, and start nailing every decent looking chick in sight until you find that special fitness gal who is willing and able to meet the above mentioned prerequisites. Of course you want to be careful and not get into heavy drinking when clubbing - I personally stick to clubs that will let me bring in my gallon of water and cooler with meals, shakes, etc. Good luck, Bro.
