Matt Canning (mattcanning) wrote,
@ 2006-02-26 18:48:00
Debt.
I put in my two weeks notice yesterday. I might ride this out for the rest of my scheduled shifts just for the heck of it, because it seems like the decent thing to do. While most people look at debt as money that belongs to them, it's flawed to look at it like that and all that I see is that I'm swimming in debt, regardless of how much has been paid (e.g., no student debt, no car debt, not much house debt given that I've only been there for eight months). Whenever I have a task in front of me I just want to finish it as quickly and efficiently as possible not matter how overwhelming or arduous it may be. I wanted to be debt free in two years, and planted this idea in my mom's head who was encouraging me with it. I just remember the story of the grasshopper and the ant when I was a kid and always wanting to be the ant.
Social atmosphere is a lame excuse to work since Ian and Brian are home all the time. That $10-20K a year I can make working is tempting, if I did want to be debt free in two years that is. But enough is enough. This is how I look at it: I have 20 years to hold debt if I want to (which is WAY too easy to carry these days), or for the rest of my life if need be, but I'll only have my youth for a more limited period of time. I can never really be envious of an adult because no matter how great their lives may be, the chances of going out and partying and being / feeling young are no longer there (unless of course you are Albert Beckles). Translated: most men 10 years older than me aren't in the same position as I am and there is a reason for that, because they spent their youth as the grasshopper and knew full well they would have a whole life ahead of them to undertake adult responsibilities. I don't know why I work so much. It is a problem and it ends here. I bought a stopwatch, and I'll be spending no more than five hours a day working at a relaxed pace, and doing what I want in the meantime.
I always thought it would be silly to see old people slave for their whole lives just to put on a big wedding for their kids and drive a convertible in the years before they die. If I hadn't sat down and realized I was on that road, that would have been my reality.
I always thought it was so silly when I saw these old people who slaved their whole lives just to put on an expensive wedding for their kids and drive a convertible in the years before they die. And that would have been me if I didn't stop and think about it.
Taxes = done.