its a passive homosexuality id say, they dont have sex togther it s like a platonic relationship that will never materialize; all friendships are like that btw. It would break everything apart; paco has no interest in doing so, loosing his dominating position in his couple, at the gym, and cockumu is living in his little fantasy world as long as it lasts; it s a "friendship" and morality wont allow it to go too far; he s the one who secretly wishes paco one days sodomizes him but it s not even conscious. Paco is prolly just a father figure he never had and this lack that lasted for decades makes him want another man to fuck him in the ass. The desire to be fucked is proportional to the time spent without a father figure.
It doesnt happen to men who had a father and mother; they didnt lack a father figure, and even if he was a bad father, they still had his presence at least so dont have homosexual tendencies. Homosexual tendencies are a deep desire to fill in a void, the absence of a father, the lack of love that lasted for years and accumulated. It s a way to find a balance, to reequilibrate things , compensate for what they didnt have. We re just animals who are led by tensions, releases etc, everything is energetical forces, counter forces, chemical balances and imbalances. Adaptation and survival are always found in finding a balance between extremes when you re falling for the extremes. Extremes kill. Balance is what keeps you alive.
It will never cease to amaze me how we re only the product of what spawned, raised, conditioned us, what we ve been exposed to. We choose nothing, but to stay alive once we realize we could off ourselves, generally after intense suffering. The only choice we have in life is to kill ourselves or keep playing the game. Everything else if conditioned by things we have no control over.
fun fact: when someone's gay they always find a way to claim it's due to home life no matter the arrangement. single dad: he worshiped his father and seeks to have another. single mom: no male influence, seeking male companionship. both parents: blame it on school or the media. played sports: was around other boys in the locker rooms and the bonds grew too close. didn't play sports: never had a chance to bond with other boys so seeking it now.
so then we get guys with deep-rooted fears of homosexuality who, when confronted with a gay person, desperately seeks to explain it as a product of the environment so they can convince themselves that "there's no way I'M gay, i didn't have that kind of upbringing!!" because they're so pathetically terrified that, if homosexuality is in fact inherent, they might have those feelings in themselves. pure repression manifesting as accusations. it's sad, really.
but no, no. i'm sure the issue here is paco. carry on.
