Dave, How did you tear it?
Looks like a bad/very complete tear.
Good that its healed.
At least you don't have delusions of grandeur like "Hankenstein".
Most people just try to be the best "You" or "You vs. You" and not fighting the board about how great they look (And better than Zane, etc).
38 is basically still like being a kid IMO. When you get to this age (57) you'll realize that...
Best of luck on your training and "bulk". Start shoveling (the food).