i dont think you are gay but act like a man then, you have good physique. let the weird artificial haircut go and dont go overboard with the tan also.
Never on the hair cut
never on the tan
mind you, I was on my varsity wrestling and baseball team all 4 years of college
as for the gay thing, I rationalize it this way.....they never say ugly guys are gay
for instance, you will NEVER hear this in a conversation
"wow, that guy is fat and ugly...he must be gay"
I work in a VANITY business....looks are everything
...plus, i've had to live in my dad's shadow all my life (he was really good looking- he looked like Marco Ruas when he was my age) so i overcompensate with vanity