After 9 years of benzo usage and months of just 1 pill a day i can say that I'VE BEEN BENZO CLEAN for 4 days and tonight i'll be the 4th night. I feel very tired but i'm willing to leave benzos behind for good. Today i even did a light arm workout. So far i do little naps at night.
I got up to 90mg of Valium a day at one point, I tried cold turkey a few times & it sucked hard!!
The only way I got off successfully, was with a tapering schedule of 5mg per week, & then 2gm a week past 30mg.
It took me x6 months to start feeling right again (from the moment I started to taper down, till zero Valium a day).
I had access to pharma grade ampoules of dia-morphine/cyclizine & morphine/pentazocine, also.Loved that lot for years, & also found all the opiates much easier to come off than Benzo's.
Once you get clean of LONG term Benzo use, you will NEVER go back, that stuff is rancid. It's fine if you just have a 10mg every now & then to relax, but when you are on high doses daily it starts to fucking suck. I have been clean for a LONG time now & would
NEVER habitually use again for all the GOLD in India. Life becomes
REAL shit,
REAL quick, when you have a habit.
I still like a little 50mg Pentazocine IV every now & then as a treat (it's fucking nice when you have clean receptors), but I look on these drugs as some-thing to respected, or some-thing to be left alone. She is a fickle mistress, & will bite your cock/balls off/eat them, if you show the slightest sigh of weakness.
Stay focused on what you are doing, or stay away.
Not for the weak willed.
PT