My philosophical rant of the day.
Maybe time to get off the drugs with a new doctor's help? What's wrong with lifting and running without drugs then having a few beers on the weekend?
Something is seriously wrong with a person's self image if you are willing to risk health to have drug bloated muscles. Eventually you will have to go off drugs because of financial, health or legal. Then you body will look like crap as it tries to rebound from all the problems you made for your endocrine system and body. Is having heart, kidney, pancreatic, liver, stomach, back and sex problems worth it to look good in the club?
Train with nothing. Instead of being 5'9" 210lbs of drug muscle maybe you will be 5'9" 180lbs of tight ripped real muscle. Drug users think people are impressed by their steroid physique but the steroid secret is out of the bag and they laugh instead. In the end using my imaginary example of 5'9" 180lbs you will look like an athlete and will be healthy enough to be with a woman without popping hard on pills. Have a real physique and not a temporary cosmetic one.
I'm glad insecure young men are getting into MMA type submission wrestling. They soon find out that majority of the best fighters don't look like bodybuilders.