how did people survive in the past when there werent drugs? easy, family, human support. Oh it was all about being dominated or dominating, it will never change. But people s natural anti depressant was ... other people. Still people killed themselves, so called mental ilness -when your brain dont calculate how to kill others but instead focuses on killing yourself- always existed. It s when people are too weak to deal with psychological warfare. It can have biological origins, it can be genetics; you can be genetically weak to sustain daily psychological fights. Some people have physical illnesseses, can be genetic too, that's just the way it is. Others are strong, better prepared. You can be destroyed psychologically too, by many things. Fact is we have no control over anyhting , we re just struggling to survive with what we were spwaned with. That's what all animals do. And the weak die, one way or another, you can last longer if you find something to do that allows you to dominate others and feel some pleasure in life as a result.
My father did drugs before conceivin me, getting my mom pregnant. My mom SMOKED while being pregnant of me while they were both constantly fighting each others and hesitating to break, until when i was 6 y o they finally broke up. Then i was exposed to a shity step father who didnt like me and a feminist single mother who focused on her career. Bigger bro kept ties with father while father completely ignored me.
You know what is funny? even if now i understand everything that happened, i m still not happier. Cause im still hurt, wounded, weaker, less prespared than many other men and women, and nobody gives a fuck anyways, cause it s a giant free for all. If you die, more ressources for survivors.
This is the true nature of life. Absurd cruelty and only the one that adapts whatever the way he, she adapts, survives -until one day he she dies anyways, leaving or not leaving an offspring behind. An offspring who will have the exact same automatically assignated goal in life the moment his fetus develops; adapt to survive.
I am soooo sick of that shit. So sick. I feel like i ve always been lied to. Noone , nothing can reassure me anymore, only someone who would have a personal interest -dominating me- in helping me would want to help me. And i know it. When you leave a dependecy, it s always for another dependency cause in life it s binary, life, death, wiinning, losing, dominating, or being dominated. Old people know this, they live dmany decades, killed lots of people, psychologically, physically, the strongest, luckiest survived, and they all only care about their next meal and hobbies, and watching tv, that s what keeps them alive, addictions.
Humans will disapear because they re just another mistake of life , a branch of the tree that s going nowhere. Whatever path mankind chooses, it will fail and disapear anyway. Because we are our own enemy, life itself is its own enemy and life can only destroys itself at some point.
You might be well conditionned prepared during youth by caregivers to be "strong" kill instead of being killed, dominate, you can cruise thru life with all these strenghts steping on other weaker , "dumber" people 's heads , you can do your best to raise animals who will be stronger than you -offspring- , at the end of the day and of your life, you re just an animal whose only pleasure is found in dominating the time he has to spent of this stupid rock called earth.
In the past there were shamans, the ancestors of religious people. These people survived giving advises to others about how to stay balanced etc, nowadays we have psys and pills, and we can still use religions, philosophies and so on, all of this are tools to take care of the brain, the mind. These people were fed, kept alive, because of what they brought to others in return, nothing is ever free. This is the real truth. For one shaman there were many other men who died, and they might have slowly killed one way or another. Noone is innocent.
