There is no snapping out of chronic depression. Or any other so called "disease" of the brain...Just like a person can't snap out of cancer or liver disease or heart disease. If a person has been dealing with depression for an extended period of time, it's not like you will wake up one day and it will be gone.
Yeah, environment (what people say think and do) shapes your biology, the biology of your brain, it transforms it physically. Your brain can change the world but the world changes your brain too. I'm only alive because of my house, land I own, wife , kid, cause i'm good looking, in shape and get my loved ones to do the same, and because of hopes I will sublimate myself thru various activities I m good at and enjoy developing. That's my daily natural anti depressant that's how I feel like I'm "winning at life" even if i lost my fair share of times and even if I know i have many more challenges that i maybe wont be able to overcome ahead of me.
But I'm also realistic about everything else i failed and that are definitively behind me. I focus on what i still can do with the best i still have. But it took time to fully realize the extent of what was damaged, worthless, and what can still be productive. Last week I went to the doc for my knee that was hurting for a while; he told me (while laughing , seriously ) I had precocious osteoarthritis/ generative joint disease. Just like my..mother. And my father started having knees problems in his 30s. I realized i d be better working behind a desk for the rest of my life cause my skelleton is genetically programmed to be weaker and wear sooner than people who dont have that condition. Man 2013 is quite the shitiest year of my life lmao.
Anyway, Im glad i was always smart enough to not overdo it with weight lifting and sports, or i could have damaged my skeleton structure even more sooner. Actually moderate and regular weight lifting with average weights is good for people with osteoarthitis as it develops muscles which in return compensate for the weakened skeleton. Looks like i ve been doing something right at least.
Now obviously i intend to capitalize on my brains instead of my body to insure my and my loved ones survival.
I canceled the apointment i had with that doctor for the surgery -they have to remove a meniscus bone that s loose in my knee- cause i thought he was an asshole. Dude is probably a millionaire, despise most of his "clients", treat them like shit, as meat, so i thought what if this guy wants to make my life even more miserable, my health is in his hands... i went online and looked at coments by other patients on him, and dude was literaly despised in 9 comments out of ten. But because there are not many of them they can do what they want they know they re so in demand.