love of your life is something people call each other after being married for 40 years. It looks like you really liked this girl, didn't really get anything going while u were away so you never quite stopped thinking about her. If you visit her and look at her with those puppy dog eyes, who knows what her reaction would be, or if she ever felt the same way, I would be chillaxed about it and if the mood strikes u to make out with her do it, I've been burned a lot by having expectations, my 2 cents. There's always butt rape.