I meant tired as in body looks tired and beat up. I'm the very first one to say bodybuilers lie... this however doesn't mean everyone is doing 5 grams of test or even 3 grams of just test. You're an extremist so everything you do is to the extreme and sometimes it can work against you. What did gh15 say he took at his peak? It wasn't that much test, and gh was at 15iu.
You're not tired in those videos, you are hyper. Relax, don't stress yourself out, it will show in your physique.
If I were you I'd try to figure out a way to use a moderate dose of tren before shows, maybe figure out a way to take a small dose of orals without puking. I have an anxiety disorder and I can control it with an SNRI (I would take it off drugs too, so I'm not taking it so I can juice per se, but it helps).
Don't volunteer and offer you organs for size, think, "how can I grow without shitting out my liver and pissing out my kidneys".
JMHO, I wish you the best.
I wonder what gh15 would recommend if he was coaching you. gh15, what would you have this guy do as far as drugs and diet?
i love ya , brother lol
yeah ,,, i see where you goin , no denial , i did face many era of self destruction, if they show on my body i got no clue
anyhow , feeling good ,, more important in th mid late 30' , by health awareness i give myself break , and go off n detox
3gr cyp on blood pressure i can handle
last 3 weeks on xanax with tren post contest , against ethic but it work
im representing all th weaker genetic , who struggle for extreme size like me , they are silent but they are th majority
th shawn ray , lee priest story are 1 out of millions
will happy to die at 50 yo with an extremist life , 60 weak n frail mind has well die
i doubt those kay , cutler n branch make it to th 60' anw ,,