Hey Guys,
Yes, I am doing it. I am going out on a limb and publicly announcing that today, Monday, September 21, 2015 is Day One.
I am now on a 15 Week Diet Program to get out of this terrible physical and much more important, mental, condition I have permitted
myself to become.
Oh, listen, thanks to Las Vegas and my short time here on GetBig, I am well aware of the risks in making such an announcement. Credibility
is an important trait on GetBig and now, once I hit that "Post" button, mine is forever on the line. No excuses, no more issues popping up, this
would have to be it. Well, I am going to hit both the "Post" button and the "Time To Man Up, Change Your Life and Put Aside Depression and Other
Excuses" Button.
Everyone loses a parent, a dog and goes through rough times. I let it get the better of me for far too long. It's been years and I'm tired of the fat jokes,
clothes not fitting, the feelings of embarrassment and the inner thoughts of complete and utter failure. Trust me, making money and having "stuff" is nice, but if you feel
like a failure and are embarrassed at your own self, money will not "cure" those feelings. There really are important things in life money just won't buy. Self-esteem
is, at least for me, one of those things.
My weight got as high as 227 lbs. Today, I weighed in at 212.2 lbs. My all-time best condition was at 167 lbs. but I think that might be a bit too light given
my age and diminished muscle since that 167 weigh-in.
Nevertheless, the goal is 167 pounds in 15 weeks!!!! That number will ONLY change if Craig determines I should be heavier at my ultimate condition and I can do that.
Well, I set the alarm for 5:30 am, got the cat fed, got myself ready and just finished my coffee. I will go do my first 1 hour session of cardio and the other 1 hour session
late tonight. Today is a day off from the gym which is good as I have 6 cases and 2 meetings with Prosecutors.
Now, I am prepared for some vicious assaults and I am going to wear some thick skin just for that because many people make such lofty goals and pronounce them as if
someone else should care.
The reason I announced this here, at Craig's reticence, is that I feel very lucky to have been so well received and this is a place where I suppose others, perhaps not crazy
enough to publicly admit it, feel the same as I have felt the past few years and also wish to change how they look. Here is a place to find not sympathy, but rather, empathy,
knowledge, advice and perhaps even support. I am not one of those people who forget those who support me and I wish to thank, in advance, anyone who feels like I do and
is wishing me well. I am looking at this as more of a team effort which gives me a bit more hope and optimism. As I capture this on my documentary (and I will speak of how
the IFBB and the Orleans Hotel tried to fuck up my documentary!!!!) I will be thanking GetBig and no, that will NOT be edited out of the final cut.
Well, "Cardio-Time" and off to begin this brutal but necessary journey of my personal redemption.
Thanks for listening (I guess I should write "reading").
Harley
