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Getbig Bodybuilding Boards => Steroids Info & Hardcore => Topic started by: sempron20 on December 29, 2007, 02:59:00 PM
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hey guys im back...got some good gear now...gonna run 750mgs of test enth nd 500mgs of EQ for the next 14+ weeks...im really excited to run this and i cant wait to be back on gear...im gonna start on monday the 31st...my training is standard like usual a 5 day a week split...lots of heavy compound movements...and my diet will consist of lean beef, chicken breasts, eggs, tuna, whey protein, oat meal, beans, corn, potatoes, flax, fruit and vegetables and a lot of bottles of water every day. im leaned down a bit...im around 215 lbs now...due to the fact that i take dexedrine for my ADD and that seems to cut the fat off of me like theres no tomorrow...my strength is about the same as when i had to get off of gear the last time...(b/c of the cellulitis)...so i really havent lost and strength or size and i am happier that i lost about 5-7lbs or so and that i look a little leaner...i will be pilling on the calories which will be great...thats all for now!
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Ya Ya Ya, We know you are gonna train your ass off and try to hook up with some fat chicks... Oh Ya you are gonna eat 2 chicken breasts a cup or green beens and 2 glasses of H20.
LOL I'm just messing with you bro, Good Luck on this cycle.
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hahaha thats the plan...the chick i got on the go now is a complete hippie who doesnt eat any meat what so ever so this should be interesting since my freezer is full of the flesh of dead animals and i just at the wings of 40 different baby chickens tonight at the UFC fights :) ....everything starts monday though...im taking the weekend off from training and starting everything including the shots...fresh on monday morning!
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hahaha thats the plan...the chick i got on the go now is a complete hippie who doesnt eat any meat what so ever so this should be interesting since my freezer is full of the flesh of dead animals and i just at the wings of 40 different baby chickens tonight at the UFC fights :) ....everything starts monday though...im taking the weekend off from training and starting everything including the shots...fresh on monday morning!
WTF ;D
See how long this lasts......... Good luck Mr Carnivore....
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Good to see you back Semp, eat some quality snatch and enjoy your cycle!
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thats the goal...i usually dont go for girls like that...but theres something about her that really really turns me on despite the fact that she is a vegitarian, green peace activist, human rights activist, and probably a memeber of PETA as well...haha...but this weekend i have been doing nothing but filling my body with food and sleeping...its great...i got a bunch of my needles already pre-loaded and cannot wait to stick myself...my training scheduel is like this:
mon-back
tues-chest
wed-legs
thurs-shoulders
fri-arms
sat-off
sun-off
....on the weekend i like to go for a nice long walk around the city...so ill usually get in 1-2 walks during the weekend as my cardio work out
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just did my first pin job...man it feels great to be back...i had a bit of extra test left over in one of my vials...so i filled up 4 needles that already had test in it a little bit more...i got 450mgs in each of these 4 needles...so looks like the first two weeks will be 900mgs then ill be back to 750mgs each week...the EQ is being run at 500mgs per week as well...injecting almost 2 cc's of test in this first shot i was a bit nervous about...but it went in just fine...there was a tiny drop of blood and a tiny drop of liquid that came back out after i pulled out the needle...but both were far too small to make a difference...so im not worried...i left in in probably 15-20 seconds...i guess ill maybe just leave it in more like 30 seconds for the next time...training back today...hopefully the ester will begin to be released in about 3 weeks...can't wait!
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PS- im thinking...if i have enough money...i might go ahead and run some prop for the first few weeks at 100mgs per week...that is if i have enough money...if not ill just stick w/the enth and wait till that kicks in...can't wait to get huge...and hopefully this will really help w/the fact that i am extremely distraught and depressed over this girl...fuck they can do wonders on your head!
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PS- im thinking...if i have enough money...i might go ahead and run some prop for the first few weeks at 100mgs per week...that is if i have enough money...if not ill just stick w/the enth and wait till that kicks in...can't wait to get huge...and hopefully this will really help w/the fact that i am extremely distraught and depressed over this girl...fuck they can do wonders on your head!
It is probably safer and healthier than drinking. :)
Hard to get over a ho if you somehow develop feelings for her. Best to hide your soul from them like I do! hehe
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can you show me how to do that...i really need it...i had complete shit for sleep last night barely got any rest at all...my mind is so clogged with thoughts about this girl that its literally tearing me apart...the injection is fine...no pain today or anything else bad either...guess ill be training earlier in the day than i thought...so ill eat and probably head to the gym in an hr or so after that...ill keep you all posted!
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can you show me how to do that...i really need it...i had complete shit for sleep last night barely got any rest at all...my mind is so clogged with thoughts about this girl that its literally tearing me apart...the injection is fine...no pain today or anything else bad either...guess ill be training earlier in the day than i thought...so ill eat and probably head to the gym in an hr or so after that...ill keep you all posted!
Ha Ha Ha.... There is NO Cure ;D
(And being jacked on testo is going to make you REALLY hornY)
Better look for new if she aint into sex much......
Ive messed up jobs over women when I was young... Lucky most the time it was family Biz...
My Dad would say... "Get the Fuck out'a Here! You cant even think..." ;D
Is she sleeping w/ ya? SOme of them Hippie chicks are cute in a way, but lots of them are major Baggage...
Hey,,, save yourself... the world is too much of a lost cause..
Dont get wrapped up w/ one of these activists....
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well ate my 1st meal...6 eggs, 2 yolks, w/salsa, sour cream and cheddar cheese...and 2 slices of whole wheat toast w/peanut butter...going to the gym now to train back...i heard some where awhile ago...that for the first couple weeks or so...taking a higher dosage of a long acting ester test and then dropping it back down to the range you will be doing the cycle with will help your blood levels reach a higher concentration in a faster time- ie ...a way of front loading i guess...what do you guys think on this?...i will be running 900mgs for the next two weeks...and since i can always get a bit more out of each vial...i can probably put enough in each shot to get 400mgs out of it and run 800mgs of test e. per week...should be fun!
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I didn't notice much from frontloading long esters...prop is a different story.
just continue with what you have planned and have fun.
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o ok...thanks a lot man...ye itll kick in soon enough...just got back from the gym...trained back...not a great work out honestly...due to the extreme lack of sleep i had...but i got it done none the less...having whey protein and orange juice now...then in about 45-60 minutes ill eat some whole wheat pasta and meat sauce...pinning again on thursday...im going to make sure im eating a lot...i want to really put on some size...chest work out tomorrow...hopefully it will be better...happy new year everyone!
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o ok...thanks a lot man...ye itll kick in soon enough...just got back from the gym...trained back...not a great work out honestly...due to the extreme lack of sleep i had...but i got it done none the less...having whey protein and orange juice now...then in about 45-60 minutes ill eat some whole wheat pasta and meat sauce...pinning again on thursday...im going to make sure im eating a lot...i want to really put on some size...chest work out tomorrow...hopefully it will be better...happy new year everyone!
Eat to grow my friend!
Good luck.
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Eat to grow my friend!
Good luck.
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Sound advice, follow this for sure. Can't grow like a horse if you don't eat like one.
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hahaha thats the plan...the chick i got on the go now is a complete hippie who doesnt eat any meat what so ever so this should be interesting since my freezer is full of the flesh of dead animals and i just at the wings of 40 different baby chickens tonight at the UFC fights :) ....everything starts monday though...im taking the weekend off from training and starting everything including the shots...fresh on monday morning!
Lets just hope her bush is shaven and not all hippied out! Dreads down under kinda freak me out!
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im hoping too man....if not...ill tell her to go in the bathroom and get to business w/my gillette phantom turbo razor ahaha...just finished pinning myself...going to grab some chicken and pasta and head to the gym to train...week one of shots is over now...900mgs of test enth and 500mgs of EQ total...just thought of being on seems to be making me feel a little better...i got w/the girl that ive been up and down w/...on new yrs morning...after she spent the night throwing up...but i felt like a total animal plus the fact that she gained about 5lbs over break made me very happy...i trained chest yesterday...good work out...im really into using the hammer strenght machines...they seem to work really well for me...and i have always been a strictly free weight guy...but i seem to get a really good push and stretch out of them and they seem to lead to pretty good development...be back later to report!
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hey guys HOW DO I ADD PICS? anyways...great leg work out...leg presses...front squats...back squats...leg extensions...leg curls...trying to eat a lot and sleep at a decent hour!
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...im really into using the hammer strenght machines...they seem to work really well for me...and i have always been a strictly free weight guy...but i seem to get a really good push and stretch out of them and they seem to lead to pretty good development...be back later to report!
Yeah i really like the decline hammer strength. I detest decline bench, but the decline hammer strength really does the trick for me, perfect angle, i love it more than Darrek Anthony loves cock
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hey guys....decided to take last night off from the gym...i was so tired that i fell asleep around 930pm and got up around 10 am today...however i feel totally rested and recharged. i am going to eat and have my coffee and then head to the gym early this afternoon so i can have the rest of the day to feed my body. i am really trying to block out every distraction right now...girls, going out, the girl im involved with...etc...trying to view myself as a robot...my food as my fuel and everything else just as an un-needed distraction. anyways today my routine will be a ton of over head bb presses...lateral raises...rear delt stuff on the machine...and upright cable rows...today ill be eating a lot of eggs, beans, chicken, beef, pasta, veggies, fruit and whey protein for after my work out....i try and drink around a gallon and half of water too...i have a bunch of little 500ml bottles that i constantly fill up and keep w/me at all times and usually drink about 2 of them every meal.
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oh one question...is smoking cigarettes bad for your gains?
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oh one question...is smoking cigarettes bad for your gains?
It hampers your lung capacity and that's not good for any type of athletics.
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hey guys...just finished cooking up a ton of food for this week...potatoes meat pasta....stuff like that...today was off from the gym...just went for a nice walk outside...back tomorrow after evening...training back...next round of shots as well...another 450mgs of test e and 250 mgs of EQ into my quads...everything is going smoothely...no pain no infections :) and just eating like a pig...well within reason...ahaha...i always make sure that i have enough food!...can't wait till this stuff starts kicking in...just the thought of knowing im "on" makes me feel a little happier about life...and at times takes my mind off of the whole girl mess im in...and ive been listening to a lot of aggressive hard style which is making things a little easier i guess...im hoping to hook up w/this hippie girl this friday...since we are having a party at my house...which i will not go too crazy at and just drink a few beers to be social...and hopefully when i see her in another 6 wks...she will have appreciated the size i have hopefully put on...but time for me to eat again...beef, corn, potatoes, and carrot sticks :)
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i figured it does...but does it have any direct impact on affecting your muscle gains...like marijuana would...im not a heavy smoker...but sometimes i like to smoke some cigars or light cigarettes
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also for some reason...ive always had this major fetish for pregnant women...and being on cycle...just seems to amplify that ten fold...on new yrs day...i thought their might have been a chance that i got the girl ive been sorta seeing pregnat...b/c well you can imagine what happened that morning and instead of freaking out...i totally jumped at the chance that if she were pregnant she would probably blow up to well over 200lbs...b/c she is about 175 now and shes thick and solid...and actually felt really sad when a few days later she told me she had her period...o well...anyways...feeling good...i just finished my last meal of beef, potatoes, corn and carrots...and 2 bottles of water...i had a little desert afterwards too- vanilla ice cream a couple small cookies and a banana...i see it as extra kcals though :) off to bed for me...gonna take a sleeping pill and hopefully be asleep soon...b/c i find that for awhile w/so much on my mind sleep is torture
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also for some reason...ive always had this major fetish for pregnant women...and being on cycle...just seems to amplify that ten fold...on new yrs day...i thought their might have been a chance that i got the girl ive been sorta seeing pregnat...b/c well you can imagine what happened that morning and instead of freaking out...i totally jumped at the chance that if she were pregnant she would probably blow up to well over 200lbs...b/c she is about 175 now and shes thick and solid...and actually felt really sad when a few days later she told me she had her period...o well...anyways...feeling good...i just finished my last meal of beef, potatoes, corn and carrots...and 2 bottles of water...i had a little desert afterwards too- vanilla ice cream a couple small cookies and a banana...i see it as extra kcals though :) off to bed for me...gonna take a sleeping pill and hopefully be asleep soon...b/c i find that for awhile w/so much on my mind sleep is torture
No offense bro, but that post sounds really fucked up!
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Lets just hope her bush is shaven and not all hippied out! Dreads down under kinda freak me out!
hahaha--when I read this thread I was thinking EXACTLY the same thing! Those vegan chicks can have some damn nasty snatch.
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No offense bro, but that post sounds really fucked up!
;D
Actually small thin chicks look good prego till about 3 months +.... IMO it goes downhill FAST after that..
ANd, they are INSANE Horny them 1st 3 months. I mean like jacked on steroids horny. Because they are
making HCG and small amts of nandrolone.
TRy it AJ... ;D
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No offense bro, but that post sounds really fucked up!
You said pretty much what all of us were thinking....wow.
But hey, whatever tickles your pickle ;)
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well there is just something sooo hot in my opinion about a girl who is huge and 9 months pregnant who i looks like she could be milked or whatever...but anyways...my training partner is back in town...so we're going to train in about 1 hr. after i finish this big ass plate of beef, potatoes, corn and carrots...i doubt its the test working yet...but for some reason my sex drive really seems to be up after being on for the 1st week...not sure why but im not complaining!
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is there a reason that my sex drive would be noticeably up after about the first week (i feel horny to the point that i can barely contain myself especially when im aroun girls...like my buddy's sister was over last nite and was wrestling w/me on my bed and after about 10 seconds of her pinching and pulling on me...i gota raging hard on)...i just started my 2nd wk yesterday...but since its long acting ester test i dont think that would be increasing it much...or shouldnt be at least until after the 3rd wk or so...i have been eating like a pig...but still....dont think it could have that much of an effect? just curious
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is there a reason that my sex drive would be noticeably up after about the first week (i feel horny to the point that i can barely contain myself especially when im aroun girls...like my buddy's sister was over last nite and was wrestling w/me on my bed and after about 10 seconds of her pinching and pulling on me...i gota raging hard on)...i just started my 2nd wk yesterday...but since its long acting ester test i dont think that would be increasing it much...or shouldnt be at least until after the 3rd wk or so...i have been eating like a pig...but still....dont think it could have that much of an effect? just curious
Yes the stuff is real. It should do that.
Get a couple more of her friends... ;D
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ok well thats good 2 know....im just finishing up another meal then going to train chest in about 45 mins or so...ya im just turing into a complete hornball as i time goes by...its really hard (no pun intended) to control my self...and i start a job as a bouncer this thursday at a really upscale club...so that should be interesting...ya buddy's sister is one hottie...german decent on both sides....thick solid body...blue eyes blonde hair...and a big thick ass and thighs on her...that were hard not to do more than slap around last night...plus shes gota a tongue piercing and really dirty vocabulary...despite the fact that shes really sweet...anyways...gonna down another bottle of water...lie down for about 20 mins...watch some TV...and then hit my chest really hard...flat bench, inclines, hammer strength, and the pec dec...should be a good nite...be back later!
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ok well thats good 2 know....im just finishing up another meal then going to train chest in about 45 mins or so...ya im just turing into a complete hornball as i time goes by...its really hard (no pun intended) to control my self...and i start a job as a bouncer this thursday at a really upscale club...so that should be interesting...ya buddy's sister is one hottie...german decent on both sides....thick solid body...blue eyes blonde hair...and a big thick ass and thighs on her...that were hard not to do more than slap around last night...plus shes gota a tongue piercing and really dirty vocabulary...despite the fact that shes really sweet...anyways...gonna down another bottle of water...lie down for about 20 mins...watch some TV...and then hit my chest really hard...flat bench, inclines, hammer strength, and the pec dec...should be a good nite...be back later!
Glad to hear ya feelin good, sounds fun.. ;D
Maybe you'd like a speed skater chick or a down hill racer... THey got nice powerfull legs (Skaters esp)
Skiers get nice quad sweep. Figure skates not as big but nice... all that jumpin' and spins..
You in Canada, plenty of ice up by U....
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ya those speed skater chicks are hot....can't say i know any here...but there is a cougar at my gym whose a power lifter and 37 yrs old...who im really into...spotted her yesterday and got hard just thinking about what i would do w/her ahah...anyways...just ate a big plate of beef pasta and vegetables...and a liter of water...got legs tonight-leg extensions, leg presses, squats and leg curls...should be a good night...ill be back later to report!
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im noticing that i am sweating more (i already sweat quite a bit to begin with) and my skin is more oily and greasy too....but decent leg work out today...im pretty tired and have too much on my mind so im off to bed soon :(
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im noticing that i am sweating more (i already sweat quite a bit to begin with) and my skin is more oily and greasy too....but decent leg work out today...im pretty tired and have too much on my mind so im off to bed soon :(
The stuff is real........ What and how much you use'n?
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ana tech labs...is what im using....these first 2 wks i used 900mgs...b/c i had some extra liquid left in the vials...for the rest of my cycle im going to be using 750mgs though...im actually switching over and buying some liqua-tech labs gear...i used that stuff last yr...it is the shit! but this stuff ain't bad ahaha...just eating a big plate of 6 eggs (2 yolks), beef, salsa and corn and couple bottles of water...then i got some shit to do and ill be training shoulders tonight!...but ya my skin isnt too bad...not really broken out...just oily...i went to the meeting for my bouncing job yesterday...dammmmmmn those bartender girls im gonna be working with are smoking! i hope they didnt mind...that i was sweating my ass off....the sweat was just pouring off my face lol...
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everything is going fine so far...except for one thing...the right quad i injected earlier this wk....is sorrrreeeeeee as shit...however i do believe its just the oil that hasnt dissipated yet...b/c there is no redness, no swelling, and no heat...it looks the same as the other leg...its just really really sore and tight...and i can feel like a hard lump around the area i pinned it....
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If you haven't done many quad shots in the past, then that's pretty typical. It will get better after a few more weeks of pinning them.
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everything is going fine so far...except for one thing...the right quad i injected earlier this wk....is sorrrreeeeeee as shit...however i do believe its just the oil that hasnt dissipated yet...b/c there is no redness, no swelling, and no heat...it looks the same as the other leg...its just really really sore and tight...and i can feel like a hard lump around the area i pinned it....
Word, I dont pin my shoulders anymore for that reason.....its so obvious and looks fucked up
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well im really beginning to think i could be allergic to something...everything has been completely by the book and sterile...my quad has turned pink as of last night...i took some extra strength advil and some cephalexin that i had left over from the last time this happened...also...my delt is still sore from pinning it the other day...the funny thing is...im only having problems with the test...not the EQ...but im sure the same thing is going to happen to my delt...i have a bunch of new vials coming too....so i guess once they get here...ill try injecting w/one of those....if theres no problems then idk...if there is...that ill be im definetly allergic to something...but question...would they use a different oil to make the test e and the eq out of...or is it the same type of oil? and the BA and BB contents are both exactly the same on each compound...so im guessing it can be that...i just really dont want to have to stop this...3 wks in... :(
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the leg is good....delt is less sore...but keeping an eye on it...im gonna have my buddy shoot my glutes 2morrow...b/c i cant reach them too well....and since his hand is much steadier than mine (my hands shake really bad) ill see if it makes a difference....
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ok so im back now...i took all last week off of injections so i could watch/let my shoulder clear up...im chalking up to a bad shot b/c after about 6-7 days or so it totally cleared up....i know missing injections isnt the smartest thing...but i figured it would matter too much especially at the very beginning of the cycle...but i pinned my self last nite as well...no prob what so ever so im good to go! i figured at this point i might as well run a gram....not a big difference from running 900mg...so now my cycle is 1 g of test e and 500 mgs of eq...eating like a pig...my new favorite meal is beef corn potatoes and then 2 pieces of whole wheat toast...one w/low fat cream cheese and smoked salmon and the other w/peanut butter and jelly....fucking delicious and calorie dense!...trained chest tonight...good work out- hammer strength, lots of heavy inclines, pec dec and then dips to finish off with...all in all a decent work out...going to have a big ass protein shake and then a solid meal in about 40-60 minutes after that!
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Hey that cafeteria sounds good... :P
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well no more probs with the shots...definetly starting to feel this shit kick in...my sex drive is up noticeably and i feel really really aggressive...which i suppose is good since i am a bouncer...i threw one guy out the door last night after he tried to resist me...and i was shaking afterwards from being so angry by the time i got upstairs...plus some broad came up and started talking to me saying that i had the most disgruntled look on my face...lol...still eating a shit load...chicken, eggs, beef, bread, potatoes...etc...lots of good stuff...i decided to up my cycle from 900 mgs to 1 gram....so the new cycle will be 1 gram of test enth. stacked with 500mgs of EQ...i think i will prob. be in the city all summer...very good chance of that...so if i am...i will be running a way longer cycle...prob until sometime next fall...i feel angry a lot tho...my girl probs have sort of shifted from feeling hurt to feeling like i wanna punch the bitch for being not that nice...idk...its better than feeling hurt i suppose
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Chill big guy. Lota girls on the planet....
Focused agression = GOOD. Yanking PPL out car window = Bad ;D
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4th week begins today!...going to pin another 500mgs of test into my delt and another 250mgs of EQ into my quad...i didnt sleep too well last night...too much on my mind so my work out is probably going to be not as good today even though i took a nap this afternoon...but thats how shit goes...can't be perfect all the time eh!...just curious about one thing...my buddy said he microwaves the vial for about 10-12 secs before shooting...i dont really need to b/c it does not burn going in...but im just wondering what your thoughts on this might be...he also said it helps to kill any bacteria that could be in the vial? just wondering what you all think...thanks guys! 8)
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For UG shit it's not a terrible idea, some guys throw it in the oven. He's probably heating it to get the oil to inject smoothly, some guys run it under hot water for a minute as well just to make sure it injects smooth.
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doesn't the metal around the stopper on the vial cause problems with the microwave? just put the vial in a warm cup of water and let it warm up a little that way. Whats up Semppy?
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not much my friend...just gulping down a shake now ahaha...despite the fact that i was tired and felt like shit today i had a pretty good work out...strength is up noticeably and im sure the size gains will begin to start within the next few wks too...although i feel like i look a bit thicker in the chest/shoulder area and im up about 5 lbs 215-220....it was a good back work out tonight tho...however...when i was taking a shower tonight...i got the most painful pumps in the area of my forearm that is right to the outside of the crease in the arm...man i couldnt even bend it for a little while it hurt so much...i just put it under hot water and massaged each arm....finally it went away...not sure why that happened tho?
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not much my friend...just gulping down a shake now ahaha...despite the fact that i was tired and felt like shit today i had a pretty good work out...strength is up noticeably and im sure the size gains will begin to start within the next few wks too...although i feel like i look a bit thicker in the chest/shoulder area and im up about 5 lbs 215-220....it was a good back work out tonight tho...however...when i was taking a shower tonight...i got the most painful pumps in the area of my forearm that is right to the outside of the crease in the arm...man i couldnt even bend it for a little while it hurt so much...i just put it under hot water and massaged each arm....finally it went away...not sure why that happened tho?
your forearm was locking up on you in the shower? ;D
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both fore arms i couldnt bend it ahaha...i think it might be a painful pump from the test
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really starting to feel the test now boys...my strength is increasing astronomically from each work out to the next one...also i just got my new shipment of stuff just in time today! my training partner said that even after only 4 wks of being on...im starting to look a bit thicker and more solid in the chest and shoulders...i feel more and more aggressive and confident as the days go by which is great as well...i think even the women are noticing too...i got hit on by a whole bunch of chicks at work today and last nite i went home with this really gorgeous girl...thick curvy body and DD tits...and felt like king of the fucking world...my cold seems to be just about cleared up which is good...i had taken the past 2 days out of the gym to just eat and rest...legs tomorrow...be back soon!
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Sounds like you fell into some good stuff.
Its just amazing how much of a diff it can make.
I wish it were OTC in the States. Productivity would increase.
It should be on the shelf at WallMart.
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ye the stuff is feeling good...honry and agressive as shit...training is going well and im eating a ton...im tired now and will write a long report tomorrow :)
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hey im back...ya this stuff is definetly kicking in...i feel angry, happy, positive, and nice and agressive...i dont really get upset about stuff anymore...and could care less about people eihter way...my training is goind well...i took the last couple of days off b/c i had a bit of a cold but now im pretty much over it...eating a lot...i cooked up a shit load of chicken and brown rice...i like to put pineapple chunks in the rice...it tastes better that way...anyways...back 2morrow...ill be back soon
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hey bro! Been following your cycle and im happy its going great! Tell me bro, how's the chick working out? How bout the bar chicks LOL. I miss the bar chicks! I'm getting married this summer so the bars are a place I don't go anymore. How much weight have you gained so far? How bout fat gain? You staying pretty lean?
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hey good to hear from everyone...and thanks a lot for the support...ye the shit is really starting to kick in...things are bothering me less in general...i feel more focused...im hungrier all the time....my poundage is going up and im starting to thicken up a bit in the shoulders traps and chest and my thighs look a big thicker and harder as well...as for the women...OMFG is all i can say...i cut it off w/the last girl...met this other one at the club i work at...brought her home...nailed her...nailed her a few m ore times...and when she left my house this afternoon her email account was left on my computer...anyways...loo king through it...i realized why this girl...even though she was hot and thick...was so damn easy...she's an escort in her free time...the flights and trips that she said she took that were only 2-3 days long etc...and why she was always back and forth to and from different places all made sense now...after 29 pages of emails...90% being from her clients and then the seperate folders...for different clients and what not all made sense...and if any of u boys are members of adultfriendfinder.com her screen name is "hotlady4112" and shes a good fuck ahhaa...but idk what to think...im completely disgusted and pissed off...and even a bit upset b/c i was beginning to like this girl a little bit...and im still in a state of shock...it just doesnt seem possible that the girl who was over last nite...and watched a movie with me and slept in my bed...is a fucking prostitute...lol...anywa ys...thats about all...ive almost gotten rid of this stupid cough...i took tonight off too b/c i was hacking my lungs off...but im only coughing about 1/4 as much as before...does AAS increase your immune system...i always thought it did the opposite but i could be wrong...also i can get a good deal on deca...i was thinking of running 500mgs of that in w/my EQ and my test e...what do you guys think?
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We are all whores, why would you be surprised that she's one? It's a little sexist to think that just because she gets paid to fuck guys that somehow makes her less of a human being. Shit, I wish I got paid for all the chicks I've fucked.
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i guess im just surprised that shes a professional whore...not to mention the fact that shes a pathelogical liar...i guess what disapoints me the most is that i actually kinda liked the girl...it was really fun hanging out w/her and stuff...and like no way would i now ever consider dating her
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How much could you really like her after one night though? I've met a ton of women I've had a great time with one night, but I didn't fall head over heels for them. My longest relationships (2+ years) took several weeks of hanging out together. Sounds like you just wanted to get your rocks off and wanted a fuck buddy, which that's totally fine, but I can't see how you'd be that upset over it after 1 night.
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i guess im just surprised that shes a professional whore...not to mention the fact that shes a pathelogical liar...i guess what disapoints me the most is that i actually kinda liked the girl...it was really fun hanging out w/her and stuff...and like no way would i now ever consider dating her
Date her? Shit man, you got your own little Sugar Momma in the making!
High end escorts make great coin ;D
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thats what im thinking man...she drives a bmw x5...ive seen it...its funny my buddy said the same thing...as for knowing her...i definetly wasnt crazy about her...i just kinda liked her...and ive known her for about 2.5 weeks now...but i just found this out...ahaha...but ye...if i had found that out...after 1 or a couple of nights...i just woulda been like oh gross and never talked to her again...but we've hung out and done stuff now...the best part is...that she doesnt give a shit that im on gear and even kind of likes it...she thinks its pretty funny that i have a giant box of needles sitting in my room lol...o btw...what do u guys think of my idea of adding some deca in?
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thats what im thinking man...she drives a bmw x5...ive seen it...its funny my buddy said the same thing...as for knowing her...i definetly wasnt crazy about her...i just kinda liked her...and ive known her for about 2.5 weeks now...but i just found this out...ahaha...but ye...if i had found that out...after 1 or a couple of nights...i just woulda been like oh gross and never talked to her again...but we've hung out and done stuff now...the best part is...that she doesnt give a shit that im on gear and even kind of likes it...she thinks its pretty funny that i have a giant box of needles sitting in my room lol...o btw...what do u guys think of my idea of adding some deca in?
You get deca dick, kiss your sugar momma good bye! ;)
Deca is always a good idea but if you are already running Eq, no need for it.
On another note, if she truely was trying to keep her escort deal from you, why would she leave the e mail up? She probably wanted you to see it and how you would react. A chick like that never does something like that on accident??
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ye know man...thats what a lota other people would say...b/c she left her facebook logged in ealier too...when she left it wasnt logged in...but her email was...u think it might not have been so accidental? what should i do about this...confront her...and if i do should i do it in person or on msn?
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ye know man...thats what a lota other people would say...b/c she left her facebook logged in ealier too...when she left it wasnt logged in...but her email was...u think it might not have been so accidental? what should i do about this...confront her...and if i do should i do it in person or on msn?
Careful, you still want the poontang?? That is a delicate one...hhhhmmmm....
Drop some hints and she how she reacts.
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ok ill do that...im definetly getting tested...well so is my buddy...b/c we tagged teamed her after work one night...that being the second time i hung out with her ahaha
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If you are just after the booty, there's absolutely no need to bring it up. I'd avoid even dropping hints at it and if by chance she did leave it up on accident then you are fucked for looking through her personal e-mail. Instant goodbye for most women.
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im thinking ill prob just not bring it up....hell maybe i could even make some money off of her ahaha...plus at this point im a raging hornball and if i have a hot piece of ass to pound...no matter how trashy it is...thats a major plus for me...im definetly starting to thicken up and my appetite is increasing...ive decided to just stick w/the EQ...no deca...ill save my money instead and buy more test!
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im thinking ill prob just not bring it up....hell maybe i could even make some money off of her ahaha...plus at this point im a raging hornball and if i have a hot piece of ass to pound...no matter how trashy it is...thats a major plus for me...im definetly starting to thicken up and my appetite is increasing...ive decided to just stick w/the EQ...no deca...ill save my money instead and buy more test!
Probably the best move if you still want to hit it!
Just keep working it until you get all kinds of goodies that good sugar momma's buy you, like more gear ;D
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Come on Sempy! Ypu tag teamed her with your buddy the second night you knew her and this is an issue? I think you are just a little shocked still. Just hang with her wrap it up when you knock the bottom out of it and have fun. She is obviously a fun person to hang with. Your young and single. Have fun bro!
As for the deca save it for next go around. Im getting ready to have a go around with some legal human grade deca in about a couple of day's! yeeeeee haaaaw. Cant wait!
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As for the deca save it for next go around. Im getting ready to have a go around with some legal human grade deca in about a couple of day's! yeeeeee haaaaw. Cant wait!
Be careful with that stuff, it's fucking potent.
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Be careful with that stuff, it's fucking potent.
What dose do you suggest to run with the HG deca?
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How much deca have you run in the past? I've done 4 cycles with it and at 600mgs UG stuff along with 800mgs of test and had no problems. When I tried the HG deca I logically assumed 400mg would be fine, but that shit shut my dick down faster than Rosie O'Donnal at a swimsuit competition. I stopped taking it all together and will give it a go in 6 months or so.
I'd start out low and see how it works out, 200mgs per week is probably good as long as you are doing a good amount more of test with it. I might even suggest doing 100mgs a week to start out, depending on how much deca you've used in the past.
The thing with deca dick though is that some guys shut down, some guys don't. I never had an issue with it before but this stuff is much more potent than anything I've dealt with in the past so it threw me off pretty good.
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Were you running weekly HCG with this?
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Yup, following Visions protocol.
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Ahhh good to go! You were still really shut down even with the HCG huh?
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Yea, 400mgs shut me down pretty bad. That's close to 1gram of UG though =)
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ye im gonna just stick with the EQ...heres a question...im running a gram of test e. its ana-tech...a UGL...but it seems to be good quality...im definetly making gains...and my buddys who run it get good results as well...the packing, labeling, crimping etc. is flawless....and im sure u guys know liqua-tech...its the sister company of that...so its made right in ontario canada too...anyways...do guys think im actually getting a full gram...im always a bit skeptical w/UGL's even if they seem to be decent quality...just wondering what u guys think :)
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ye im gonna just stick with the EQ...heres a question...im running a gram of test e. its ana-tech...a UGL...but it seems to be good quality...im definetly making gains...and my buddys who run it get good results as well...the packing, labeling, crimping etc. is flawless....and im sure u guys know liqua-tech...its the sister company of that...so its made right in ontario canada too...anyways...do guys think im actually getting a full gram...im always a bit skeptical w/UGL's even if they seem to be decent quality...just wondering what u guys think :)
It's very hit or miss...i had good luck with a few UGL's but i try to get human grade if i can.
As long as it's working for you is all that counts...
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ye i wish to god i could man...i have a bunch of contacts here...so getting crank itself isnt hard...but getting human grade...i have no idea how to get it...and im guessing its pretty difficult now especially after raw deal :( blahhh
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hey guys...so 8 weeks in...im eating a lot...my strenght is good...i took the past 4 days off...b/c i could not get rid of this cold/sinus thing i had gotten from that girl...but its finally better...so i will be back tomrorow...i figure its better to take a few days off and heal then push through and get really sick...so anyways...my strenght is up quite a lot and so is my sex drive...and i look a little thicker...but i havent put on any noticeable size...i hope i do soon...what do u guys think...also i will be on this cycle all summer ...so the cycle will be well over 20 weeks
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how much weight have you put on total bro??? you dont think you have put that much size on??? that may be a good thing, i hate water weight and estro build up from cycles. i try to stay lean with every cycle and make slow but steady lean muscle gains and not so much fat and water. is that what your doing too? has your waist line increased at all???
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thanks for the imput man...i know ive gained roughly 8-10lbs...i started the cycle around 215 and im about 223-225 now...its hard to tell b/c the scale is at the gym..so i have to try and subtract the weight of my sweatpants and sweatshirt that i work out in...but id say thats a rough but fairly good estimate...my waist seems to be the same...b/c my pants are not fitting any tighter...my legs look a bit thicker and so do my shoulders...i guess im just expecting to blow up one of these days...and look really jacked...lol...stupid sounding i know...but like my buddy whose a competitive bbuilder...said...i dont have that genetic make up...i have a pretty soft endomorphic build to start with...but at least my strength is going up pretty constantly...also...i guess one isnt going to get really huge in 8 weeks...since i only started this at the beginning of january...8 weeks isnt that long of a time really...but i will be on for quite a while so maybe by 16 weeks or so i will look different...
here is a sample of my diet just in case you guys are wondering...its not exactly like this meal for meal...but pretty much the same:
meal 1: protein shake (half a serving of wt. gainer and 1 scoop of whey, skim milk, oats, strawberries, and a couple scoops of vanilla yogurt)
meal 2: ground beef, corn, potatoes, whole wheat toast, and some carrot sticks
meal 3: 1 cup of brown rice (measured dry) chilli w/extra ground beef
meal 4: 3 chicken thighs, either brown rice w/pineapple chunks or potatoes, some salsa or tomato sauce on the chicken for flavour
meal 5: post work out shake...same as before except instead of milk i put 8 oz of orange juice, and a scoop of vanilla ice cream
meal 6: a whole wheat pita w/hummus and beef, 1 cup of brown rice w/pineapple chunks
i also have a 750ml water bottle and i make sure i drink at least 1-1 1/2 of those w/every meal and always drink it during the day
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how much. Protein/carbs/ fat do you think you consume per day? It looks like you may need more protein! Try mapping out your daily intake of those and how many calories you think you take in per day! 8-10 pounds isn't bad if your not bloated at all! I prefer to produce lean fans and stay away from the bloat and extra fat which isn't needed! I like to stay lean but other may differ! Some will say to truly pit size on, you need to gain some fat but I thnx you can do it either way! I feel better this way and I dont have to look/feel like a water balloon! My sodium is low due to high blood pressure in family so I watch my diet pretty rigorously! But I do wanna be in the game for the long run!
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thanks for the advice man...ye i try to stay fairly lean...although it honestly isnt my main concern...ahah more protein though? ill try ahaha...that is a good idea to map things out though...im buying some a-drol tomorrow and will be starting that on monday...prob start w/50 mgs then bump it up to 100 for the next month or so after that...my training is going well and people are saying i am starting to look thicker...i feel pretty aggressive and confident...which is a nice feeling...i am excited to start the a-drol...im getting a pretty good deal on it and i have never used orals before and would like to try a-drol...especially for the strenght gains...i know i will probably balloon up...but then again...im not ripped and lean to begin with...not fat by any means...but not like 10-12% prob more around 14 % id say...and personally i would rather just be big and strong...although still have some shape...but mass is my primary goal...b/c i dont plan on competing or anything...but im finally over this stupid cold...ill be back...more to report on tomorrow im sure! 8)
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Cool bro! Adrol will beef you up! I would get liver aid with it like milk thistle or so
thing of that nature. That shit is powerful and strong! You'll have no problem with strength using that stuff. Try seeing how many carbs your intaking per day. Maybe you could use more carbs! Right now I'm using 150test prop a wk, just switched from oral winny which I ran for 6 wks, 50mg/day, to tren at 50-75mg eod, and slin 5ius post workout! So I'm only using slin 5 days a wk. I have never used it and I start it tomorrow! I'm very excited to see the amount of size I will put on! Check your nutrition and see what your actually taking in a d adjust as needed! Sounds like your doing good but maybe you could do better! You def wanna get the most out of your cycles but still stay healthy obviously! Thats the most important
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hey thanks a lot man :) ye i think im picking up my a drol tonight...when i go to the gym...ill try and start counting my intakes as exact as i can...thats a good idea...i can see that i have already thickened up a bit from the test...and gained about 10 lbs or...im weighing right around 230 lbs which makes me pretty happy...however i know there is one area i need to improve on and that is sleep...i got to bed way too late like 3 am and i sleep about 7 hrs per night...its not terrible but not great....i would probably feel a lot more energetic and less tired during the day if i went to be earlier and had 1 or 2 more hours of sleep...i do try and nap for about 1 hr. or so every day and that helps...theres just so much going on right now...and i cant seem to clear my head of a lot of things...i do fairly often have a bit of trouble falling asleep...i think part of it could be mental...but some nights i just lay there tossing and turning and can't seem to relax or get comfortable :(
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sleep is very important. I can't say that I'm the best at alot of sleep either ;) I have a fiancée in japan right now and the time differences are totally opposite, 15 hour difference so I cut my sleep short so I can email her and be able to talk to her, its worth it for me but sometimes I get 5 hours a night, and some I ca get 7 or 8 but she will be back in may so not too mch longer!
Be sure you protect your liver ok? That stuff can be potent and very harsh on liver and I wouldn't recommend drinking either while using it or any orals. I hope it all works for ya but 10 pounds of muscle is great bro! Especially if you have cycles before, its not like the first cycle where you put on 20 or so pounds ya know?now its all about steady, consistent muscle gains, quality over quantity brotha! What type of stuff is on your head thats holding you back?
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hey man just wanna say 1st off...thanks so much for the support....i forgot to mention i do have liver support compounds...its 1000mg of milk thistle plus a whole bunch of other herbal stuff...as for stuff on my head...ill explain in the next post...because i have to leave for work at the club i bounce at!
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Its hard to get the right support no days so I'm happy to help bro! This board can be very good most times! :) I'm glad to here your using liver meds, just better safe than sorry. Def let me know what going on bro, hopefully its not going to hinder your gains! But I have gone through my own shit too and its not fun when you wanna dedicate yourself to training and eating, you almost wanna forget about it when shit really bothers ya.
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well i guess whats on my head is this...i was seeing this girl for a long time...it was pretty up and down b/c she had a lota shit fucked in her head...like sometimes she would be all about us and other time she would be a complete bitch...so anyways...about one month ago we started having a lot of problems...really after my bday in mid january...b/c she has a lot of commitment issues and she was just like i dont we can do this anymore...and she was like...im sorry 4 hurting u etc...and then i got pretty pissed at her 2 wks later for going on a date w/another guy...anyways...to make a long story short...we had a huge fight and dont speak anymore...so going on gear and feeling bad ass and tearing her a new one after she hurt me so much...for going out w/another guy...felt great...but now...i just cant stop thinking of her and missing her and what we had...i have never felt the way about a girl like i have felt about her...and its really distracting...my training and eating isnt affected but at the same time....mentally its killing me and it is affecting my sleep though...btw...started my adrol today...and its my rest day so im just gonna sit around and eat and relax and what not....but thats about it
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well i guess whats on my head is this...i was seeing this girl for a long time...it was pretty up and down b/c she had a lota shit fucked in her head...like sometimes she would be all about us and other time she would be a complete bitch...so anyways...about one month ago we started having a lot of problems...really after my bday in mid january...b/c she has a lot of commitment issues and she was just like i dont we can do this anymore...and she was like...im sorry 4 hurting u etc...and then i got pretty pissed at her 2 wks later for going on a date w/another guy...anyways...to make a long story short...we had a huge fight and dont speak anymore...so going on gear and feeling bad ass and tearing her a new one after she hurt me so much...for going out w/another guy...felt great...but now...i just cant stop thinking of her and missing her and what we had...i have never felt the way about a girl like i have felt about her...and its really distracting...my training and eating isnt affected but at the same time....mentally its killing me and it is affecting my sleep though...btw...started my adrol today...and its my rest day so im just gonna sit around and eat and relax and what not....but thats about it
Dude, I really hope you are not talking about the Escort chick :-\
Chicks will always fuck with your head, training will help ease the pain. ;)
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hell no...the escort girl i told off and never talked to again...i could care less about that...this one ive known since last september...PS - cant wait till the adrol starts to kick in...its good quality stuff...gota buddy who is running it and has put on 5 lbs in a week so far...so it seems pretty legit...we'll see!
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Sorry to hear about that bro! Girls can make things a damn difficult sometimes but we cat live without them! LOL. I'm sure you'll put on some good weight with the adrol. That shit will blow you up! Eat alot and take lots of protein and keep your head cleared as much as possible! Lifes to short to be hung on a chick that blew you off ya know? Obvioulsy you aren't having problems with the ladies so have fun and I'm sure one will come along that will take your mind off that other one! Stay postiive and grow dude!
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ye girls can certainly make life seem even unbearable at times...i think i am beginning to feel this adrol kicking in...this is the 3rd day on it and my arms have felt pumped all day...i have been making sure that i am eating a lot and drinking tons of water too...my arms already seem a bit larger as well...thats really about all...going to try and go 2 bed at a decent hour tonight...i tried last nite and couldnt fall sleep until about 4 am...i just lay there tossing and turning...idk why i cant sleep but it sucks...any remedies for sleeping that you guys would recommend?
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I take 3 caps of ZMA before bed, always helps me get a good nights rest.
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thats a good idea i might pick some up...i know its pretty cheap...today i had a good leg work out though...i know the a drol is working since 9 plates felt lighter than usual...plus i get headaches through out the days...not long painful ones...but headaches nonetheless...which i know is from the drol b/c i never get headaches...speaking of headaches...im going to try and get some sleep now...b/c i have a pretty bad one right now...
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any over the counter sleeping pills u guys know of...ive used the ones at the drug store which work to some extent but i find my body gets used to them pretty quickly...any suggestions? thanks guys!
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seems like the adrol hit me hard today..ive felt sleepy and tired all day long...im not training tonight...going to take it off and just sit at home and eat and hopefully feel better tomorrow...on the plus side tho...my traps especially are noticeably larger as well as the rest of my body seems thicker too...from the test as well im sure...my neck is getting even thicker which i love...and my face is a bit puffy but i dont really care about that...my strength has seemed to increase somewhat in not even a week...and everything feels pumped all day...which is pretty sweet...the sides suck...but it seems to be worth it...what do u guys recommend for dealing w/the lethargy...energy drinks...caffeine pills...ephedra?
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seems like the adrol hit me hard today..ive felt sleepy and tired all day long...im not training tonight...going to take it off and just sit at home and eat and hopefully feel better tomorrow...on the plus side tho...my traps especially are noticeably larger as well as the rest of my body seems thicker too...from the test as well im sure...my neck is getting even thicker which i love...and my face is a bit puffy but i dont really care about that...my strength has seemed to increase somewhat in not even a week...and everything feels pumped all day...which is pretty sweet...the sides suck...but it seems to be worth it...what do u guys recommend for dealing w/the lethargy...energy drinks...caffeine pills...ephedra?
Drol always made me feel lethargic and like complete shit. BUT once you get in the gym and get your blood flowing you should feel like a barbell wrecking machine.
try ZMA and L-Tryptophan. mix the L-Tryp with a small glass of 100% apple juice 1 hour before bed, but be ready for some intense dreams.
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I second the ZMA. It really helps me personally to get a solid nighs rest after a heavy night in the gym. I work out late at night so it takes a while for me to wind down and my nervous system is still in full blown mode. ZMA helps me sleep really well and I always wake up refreshed the next day.
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so this sleep thing is really getting to me...mentally probably more than physically...ive been lying in bed for over 3 hrs...cant fucking sleep...my eyes hurt...my gums and teeth hurt...and i feel tired...but i cannot sleep...i took this week off of training and just rested and ate...my sex drive has gone from dynamite to mediocre in a matter of a little over a week...i really believe b/c of the fucked up sleeping...i am eating the same amount...and good food...and constant w/my injections...frankly i dont even feel like "in the mood" that much anyways...over the past week i felt less aggressive than before...and often just wanna curl up and melt into the ground...i think i will go 2 the doc. this week and ask for some prescription sleep aid or something...i need to sleep and sleep at a normal time like 12-1 not 4-5...but i really do not know what has happened to me...i feel like i am totally coming undone...and for awhile it felt like i had everything under control...and now it is basically back to what it was b4 i went on crank...maybe its the a-drol keeping me up...idk...but i feel a lot of it is b/c my mind is so full and when ever i try and sleep my head just seems to cloud with everything...some times i even feel like just jumping out a window (not that i actually would) lol...but it is tempting none the less...id hate to see how much more of a wreck id be w/out crank...
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Benadryl works great for a good nights sleep. 5-6 bucks at wal mart for generic brand allergy medication, but its the exact same chem as benadryl.
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so this sleep thing is really getting to me...mentally probably more than physically...ive been lying in bed for over 3 hrs...cant fucking sleep...my eyes hurt...my gums and teeth hurt...and i feel tired...but i cannot sleep...i took this week off of training and just rested and ate...my sex drive has gone from dynamite to mediocre in a matter of a little over a week...i really believe b/c of the fucked up sleeping...i am eating the same amount...and good food...and constant w/my injections...frankly i dont even feel like "in the mood" that much anyways...over the past week i felt less aggressive than before...and often just wanna curl up and melt into the ground...i think i will go 2 the doc. this week and ask for some prescription sleep aid or something...i need to sleep and sleep at a normal time like 12-1 not 4-5...but i really do not know what has happened to me...i feel like i am totally coming undone...and for awhile it felt like i had everything under control...and now it is basically back to what it was b4 i went on crank...maybe its the a-drol keeping me up...idk...but i feel a lot of it is b/c my mind is so full and when ever i try and sleep my head just seems to cloud with everything...some times i even feel like just jumping out a window (not that i actually would) lol...but it is tempting none the less...id hate to see how much more of a wreck id be w/out crank...
Quit taking the anadrol dude...
i've been telling people for years to stay away from that shit, it can make you an emotional wreck.
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im getting off the anadrol for the next couple of days at least...the strength gains are good...i dont even mind dealing with the lower back pumps and the headaches...what i cant deal with is the sleep and the even more of a mental head case this is turning me into...for pretty much the past week my sleep has been shit...i dont fall asleep until far too late...and the quality of sleep i get sux...i always feel tired when i want to sleep but restless and unable to sleep at the same time...last night did it for me though...i didnt sleep at all...i lay there for over 6 hrs and could not sleep...as a result i am not training tonight and i am going to push it to about 8-9pm and make sure i eat a lot today...then i will take 4 Rx oxycontin and hopefully sleep my ass off until 7-8 or so the next morning...i think i will feel better...much better after that...b/c of my lack of sleep i dont have the raging sex drvie like i did a little over a week ago and i certainly dont feel as aggressive...my training sux and i dont really even feel like eating or cookin....i just feel lazy and sluggish and want to lie in bed and watch dexter all day (great show btw) ...im sure some of it is in my head...girl problems...dealing w/school and all the other shit i have to deal with...im a very nervous and worrisome person to begin with...and i know the adrol is making it worse...so the next 3 days ill take a break from it...get back on a more normal sleep cycle and hopefully get everything back on track...if this persists...and i guess even if it doesnt im going to the doc to the doc to get some ambien or lunesta...or some good Rx sleeping aid...
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so this sleep thing is really getting to me...mentally probably more than physically...ive been lying in bed for over 3 hrs...cant fucking sleep...my eyes hurt...my gums and teeth hurt...and i feel tired...but i cannot sleep...i took this week off of training and just rested and ate...my sex drive has gone from dynamite to mediocre in a matter of a little over a week...i really believe b/c of the fucked up sleeping...i am eating the same amount...and good food...and constant w/my injections...frankly i dont even feel like "in the mood" that much anyways...over the past week i felt less aggressive than before...and often just wanna curl up and melt into the ground...i think i will go 2 the doc. this week and ask for some prescription sleep aid or something...i need to sleep and sleep at a normal time like 12-1 not 4-5...but i really do not know what has happened to me...i feel like i am totally coming undone...and for awhile it felt like i had everything under control...and now it is basically back to what it was b4 i went on crank...maybe its the a-drol keeping me up...idk...but i feel a lot of it is b/c my mind is so full and when ever i try and sleep my head just seems to cloud with everything...some times i even feel like just jumping out a window (not that i actually would) lol...but it is tempting none the less...id hate to see how much more of a wreck id be w/out crank...
Funny reading your posts just make me realize why exactly not to go back on juice.
Thanks, actually!
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im getting off the anadrol for the next couple of days at least...the strength gains are good...i dont even mind dealing with the lower back pumps and the headaches...what i cant deal with is the sleep and the even more of a mental head case this is turning me into...for pretty much the past week my sleep has been shit...i dont fall asleep until far too late...and the quality of sleep i get sux...i always feel tired when i want to sleep but restless and unable to sleep at the same time...last night did it for me though...i didnt sleep at all...i lay there for over 6 hrs and could not sleep...as a result i am not training tonight and i am going to push it to about 8-9pm and make sure i eat a lot today...then i will take 4 Rx oxycontin and hopefully sleep my ass off until 7-8 or so the next morning...i think i will feel better...much better after that...b/c of my lack of sleep i dont have the raging sex drvie like i did a little over a week ago and i certainly dont feel as aggressive...my training sux and i dont really even feel like eating or cookin....i just feel lazy and sluggish and want to lie in bed and watch dexter all day (great show btw) ...im sure some of it is in my head...girl problems...dealing w/school and all the other shit i have to deal with...im a very nervous and worrisome person to begin with...and i know the adrol is making it worse...so the next 3 days ill take a break from it...get back on a more normal sleep cycle and hopefully get everything back on track...if this persists...and i guess even if it doesnt im going to the doc to the doc to get some ambien or lunesta...or some good Rx sleeping aid...
Honestly, just as Xfactor just said, this is part of the reason i don't use AAS anymore. most guys on here are too macho to admit that problems like this CAN happen from using steroids. i don't think everyone gets these problems, but i can say that i have in the past. i've done many cycles that i felt fantastic on and i've done other cycles that sent me on an emotional rollercoaster, using the same compounds. stress from life will play the biggest roll in this of course, as i have seen that typical daily stress can be multiplied 100 fold when on a heavy cycle. for your own good, throw those oxycotin in the trash and just end your cycle. run a good long pct and train natural until you get your head on straight. i've always been a level headed guy and sometimes gear made me feel insane and i don't like that. in the end you must think of YOURSELF and YOUR FUTURE. you seem like a good guy and i hate to see people dealing with bullshit like this. stay away from antidepressants and sleeping pills. come off the shit and get your life back on track. reread this entire thread and see how happy you have been in the past. find yourself again and then worry about using steroids.
Good luck with whatever you choose. i've been clean for a long time and sure i'm not as big and strong as i was, but i feel like a million bucks every day.
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Honestly, just as Xfactor just said, this is part of the reason i don't use AAS anymore. most guys on here are too macho to admit that problems like this CAN happen from using steroids. i don't think everyone gets these problems, but i can say that i have in the past. i've done many cycles that i felt fantastic on and i've done other cycles that sent me on an emotional rollercoaster, using the same compounds. stress from life will play the biggest roll in this of course, as i have seen that typical daily stress can be multiplied 100 fold when on a heavy cycle. for your own good, throw those oxycotin in the trash and just end your cycle. run a good long pct and train natural until you get your head on straight. i've always been a level headed guy and sometimes gear made me feel insane and i don't like that. in the end you must think of YOURSELF and YOUR FUTURE. you seem like a good guy and i hate to see people dealing with bullshit like this. stay away from antidepressants and sleeping pills. come off the shit and get your life back on track. reread this entire thread and see how happy you have been in the past. find yourself again and then worry about using steroids.
Good luck with whatever you choose. i've been clean for a long time and sure i'm not as big and strong as i was, but i feel like a million bucks every day.
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Agreed, Sem doesn't seem to have the mindset right now to be on AAS.
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sweet name 8)
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well the only thing is that....im more of a mess when im off gear...last semester when i wasnt on...life was so miserable i cant even describe it...at least being on crank makes it tolerable...right now...the other reason things are fucked up w/my scheduel is b/c im up writing a huge paper...but it will be back 2 normal tomorrow...im going grocery shopping...and ill be back to my training and everything within one day
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hey guys...i know ive been gone for awhile...but things are much better...the anadrol after 2 wks made me an emotional train wreck and unable to sleep...i got off of it and after a few days i felt much better and more normal...im just sticking w/my gram of test and 500mgs of eq...and i feel really good again...my training is solid and im lifting more than ever...ive put on about 16 lbs since i started and it is really beginning to show...especially in my shoulders/traps/chest/neck...all much thicker...i was even out the other nite and my buddy who didnt even know im on crank was like " ahaha lay of the juice man...ur getting too big" ahaha...so that was a nice little ego booster...i even felt so much better that last wknd...i hooked up w/the biggest girl ive ever been with...she had to be at least 230lbs and i couldnt move an inch when she was on top...hell even the bed sagged on her side..it was quite the adventure!
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230 wow you like em big :o
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ye the girl weighed about as much as i did...ahaha she was nice tho...and ate like half of my donair ahaha...but she was way older too haha