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Title: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on February 27, 2018, 03:59:27 PM
I'll try to make this brief as I'm a little pressed for time at the moment.

Friday at noon was feeling fine then, maybe within a couple hours after started feeling a little loopy and dozed off sitting lengthwise on my couch and caught myself dozing off with my head going back so caught myself and my head Snapback forward, however that didn't quite wake me up in off and it happened again. So when I went to stand up off the couch I noticed my legs and my knees or super freaking sore. Unusually sore like I have been doing a hundred freaking sets of hip thrusts with 315 on my waist or something. Not to mention my neck was super freaking sore from the base of my skull down through my shoulders, which is still super freaking sore for whatever reason and that progressively got worse and moves down throughout my entire spine and that got progressively worse and move throughout my entire body especially my glutes hams and my lower back is specially using voice text here so some s*** doesn't make sense I'm too lazy to go back and fix it at the moment.

Then like I said whole body was sore so I went to pee and sat down like a freaking woman and when I got up I noticed my pee was the color of freaking Folgers coffee so I thought that's strange well maybe I didn't check before I sat down and maybe the toilet didn't flush right last time I went and there was already p in there and it was already dark or something or whatever... I don't know. So the next time I went to pee I sat down like a f****** woman again, got up and seen God damn thing P was the color of folders f****** coffee and I was a little concerned so started to Google and what not and realized holy f*** I likely have rhabdomyolysis. I've been dealing with an infection in my shoulder which about three weeks prior maybe four weeks I really wasn't keeping track, which I had been to the ER already and they did a needle aspiration Andrew out about 10 cc's of pus and gave me a script for 7 days worth of clindamycin at my request after telling them clindamycin usually clear it up infections like that for me in the past period and went on my way...


 Well starting Saturday maybe around 6 or 8 p.m. I started taking pictures of my pee as well as pudding notes next to it on the toilet bowl stating the time and how much water I had guzzle down varying from 1L, up to 3L, up 2 a gallon up to a gallon and a half as of I believe the last picture was at 5 a.m. Sunday morning when the P was gradually getting lighter, however still dark however my body aches were not really improving and everybody urging me to go to the ER so finally Sunday I go to the ER and tell them I likely have Rhabdomyolysis as well as an infection in my shoulder.

*€* keep in mind, I have been off anabolics since I was released from the hospital back in September except for to testerone injections, which both went into my right glute. Everything else that has gone into my biceps and delts has been vitamin B12 shots because, well I won't get into the reason but I had to get rid of the B12( which I'd gotten in Cancun on vacation a while back), and for reasons I won't quite get into here was cleaning house of everything labeled, even empty bottles. Legal or not) so needless to say I had about 50 ccs of B12 water-based mind you, that went into my delts and biceps and only that one delt got and infection for whatever reason.

Anyways, I know I'm jumping around a little bit here, as I'm working on very little sleep still. Some people here know the situation and have been aware of the situation since the whole thing started back maybe around Sunday or Saturday or whenever it was, I just hadn't posted it on the boards here.

So they admitted me, and I was afraid I had the same type of infection in my delt that I had in my glute and they were going to have to slice open my Delta the same way they did my glute. However that was not the case all they did was make a little Maybe 3 mm incision and squeeze out maybe 10 mL of pus and pack it the same way they packed my spider bite on my hip from years ago. No big deal. However yesterday I finally talk to the doctor and who tells me they wanted to keep me for another two or three more days, which I said was not an option because I have obligations to take care of namely Court obligations stemming from my DUI and stuff I have to take care of because of that, especially that particular day yesterday Monday, and it was like pulling freaking teeth to get him to tell me what my CK levels were down to below 10,000 and that my kidneys were now functioning fine, and that when I first came in I was in early stage renal failure, however like I said now they are functioning fine however my BUN levels were still a little high and he said he would check in tomorrow(today, Tuesday) to see how things we're progressing. Wtf? Seeing a Dr once a day? Not acceptable as far as I was concerned.

 No onto the "new" nurse, yesterday Maureen who was getting all pissy because I hadn't filled a urine cup she had left for me which I was not aware of and I kept feeling there giant urine collector thing with a handle not knowing that urine cup was there. So she kept coming into the room every 10 to 15 minutes to give me s*** about not feeling the urine cup she had left and I kept telling her yeah sure I'll fill it you know what the fuc? So finally I feel it and she still continues to give me attitude and s*** complaining that I was eating the food that I had brought with me instead of their f****** absolute garbage breakfast and lunch they had brought me. I did eat the eggs for breakfast, however I couldn't move the bed up or even scoop my self up to a position where I could eat comfortably. I couldn't push my heels into the bed to lift my ass up to scoop myself up because it felt like there was 400 f****** pounds of plates sitting on my hips because of the rhabdo, so eating the eggs had given me a really shity case of indigestion. So I was getting bored as f*** just laying there in bed so it took every f****** ounce of strength in me 2 scoop myself up and get on my feet to go walk around carrying my IV pole like I did last time I was in the hospital. Walked once I got around to walking on my feet I was okay but getting up was the hard part obviously. Now the unit at the hospital this was a different hospital this time as I had an issue at the last hospital I was at I'll get into that at a different time,. And the floor at this particular hospital was extremely small so I decided 2 get in the elevator and go explore a little bityeah, and even go out side, which was never an issue when I was at this particular Hospital a few years back. So I come back to the floor about maybe 30 minutes later or less and the nurse comes to the room to check on me and starts talking to me about some random s*** I forget what it was and mentions if I want to go look around the hospital that's fine but let them know first however if I leave the floor that's considered leaving the hospital and that I would need to come back through the ER entrance again. Even if I were to go down to the cafeteria. Mind you I was fully clothed in street clothes still despite having only the IV pole hooked up to me, which I had done previously when I was at this hospital a couple years prior like I mentioned. I said oh oh oh okay fine
.

Oh I should also mention that when I was in the ER speaking with the doctor in the ER they had approved me for some painkillers namely morphine. A whopping 2 million mg dose of morphine which I as well as Percocet. Every 4 hours. And the ER doc happened to be a bodybuilder and was mentioning to me that he had competed back in the day and one show and had bought a bottle of Sustanon and paid like $375 for it and I laugh my ass off at the price and told him what I did and at Sustanon should cost about 60 bucks. Anyways so we had a pretty good rapport and I asked him if he could mention to the doctor I I had a pretty extremely high tolerance to opiates still and mention to him the doses I was taking when I had my surgery back in August and told him that I would gladly" Exchange"  the morphine and Percocet every 4 hours 418 mg dose of dilaudid every 6 hours and he mentioned he said he would mention it to the doctor and the doctor would likely approve it. So when it came time for my morphine dose I asked him if that was the 2 milligram dose, and he said well the vile comes in formula mg, so the other two milligrams wer'e "supposed to throw away... and I know your tolerance is pretty high, so you can take that however you like" ( kind of wink wink), so I'm pretty sure he gave me the full form of mg even though that still did pretty much nothing for me..

Anyways so I mentioned that to the Night Nurse and she said the doctor still hasn't changed anything regarding the Dilaudid yet and gave me a 2 milligram dose of morphine which like I said obviously did absolutely nothing. Fast forward to the new b***** nurse in the morning and I mention the same thing about what what the doctor was going to change about the Dilaudid and she said there's been no change at all so the morphine is what I get and I can get a Percocet if I wanted it so I said no thanks I'm 5 mg Percocet will do absolutely nothing for me.... I know I'm jumping around a little bit so when the doctor actually came in I mention to him while the nurse was actually in the room about the Dilaudid change he said yeah he had approved me for dilaudid in addition to the morphine and I said thanks but the order hadn't gone through or something I guess in the computer system. So the next time the nurse came into the room she brought in packing material to repack my shoulder and I could see the vials of Dilaudid and I told her I'm just going to have to check out because this is taking too long and I have obligations I need to take care of today and she said I thought so I have the paperwork right here. So instead of getting the Dilaudid which I had a feeling she was planning on bribing me with because she already knew I was thinking about checking out AMA... and set the bottle of"Curad packing strip" on the table. And I asked her so what do I do about my shoulder because the hole is packed. Do I come back for that or what. She says I don't care what you do.you can do whatever you want with it. you're checking out AMA so its your problem". LOL what the fuck? Haha whatever I guess I'll just Google it or something I had the same thing with the spider bite on my hip and they told me just to cut off the strips as they pushed out as it healed from the inside out. Or I'll just Google it or something I guess whatever. The dumb b****. I was f****** amazed at how rude she was since I was nothing but f****** polite to all these nurses since they were all extremely nice to me from the start when I first came in. I was surprised since I had been going to the other Hospital for the past few years because that was the hospital where all my wealthy clients went, as well as we're all the famous people went when they were in town including ex-presidents who were visiting or had retired here... but I was surprised at the great service I was receiving at this particular Hospital and was kind of disappointed I hadn't been coming to this hospital all along even though it wasn't as nice, and the food was kind of garbage compared to the other place but that's another story.

Anyways I got s*** to do I'll come back to this later


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Nether Animal on February 27, 2018, 04:03:44 PM
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Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Taffin on February 27, 2018, 04:04:06 PM
Sorry to hear that... noticed you hadn't been around so much - be careful dude!

Taf


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: SF1900 on February 27, 2018, 04:28:25 PM
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Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Go 4 It on February 27, 2018, 04:36:41 PM
Wow, dude how did you get Rhabdo? Overtraining?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Nether Animal on February 27, 2018, 04:40:59 PM
I had high CK levels in Summer 2016, presumably from overtraining and walking in the heat, even though I didn't feel off at all and my urine wasn't dark. I was in the hospital for something else routine and they discovered it. I can't recall the number offhand but it was in the thousands. I noticed after a particularly brutal leg training session about a week beforehand that my calves were extremely sore, so dunno maybe that was connencted.

Stay well.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Go 4 It on February 27, 2018, 04:44:55 PM
I had high CK levels in Summer 2016, presumably from overtraining and walking in the heat, even though I didn't feel off at all and my urine wasn't dark. I was in the hospital for something else routine and they discovered it. I can't recall the number offhand but it was in the thousands. I noticed after a particularly brutal leg training session about a week beforehand that my calves were extremely sore, so dunno maybe that was connencted.

Stay well.
How do you treat Rhabdo? Rest? How the fuck can these Crossfit or MMA fighters not get it? They train 3-4 times a day.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Nether Animal on February 27, 2018, 04:49:30 PM
They just kept me in for a couple of days and it went down... they put me on blood thinners for some reason as well but only while I was in there.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Disgusted on February 27, 2018, 05:08:24 PM
The Bible is shorter than this.  ;D Get well


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: 2ND COMING on February 27, 2018, 06:33:18 PM
It says HARDCORE right on the label, OP. I would avoid operating with such callousness around this badboy in the future.

Worth its weight in gold!

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Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Hypertrophy on February 27, 2018, 06:44:22 PM
How do you treat Rhabdo? Rest? How the fuck can these Crossfit or MMA fighters not get it? They train 3-4 times a day.

Actually Rhabdo is a problem with CrossFit: https://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/3977598


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on February 27, 2018, 06:51:14 PM
Wow, dude how did you get Rhabdo? Overtraining?

Had 2 full body workouts, bout 2hr long.. Nothing crazy and nothing intense. Obviously because they were my first workouts since like September or something. I may be forgetting a couple or a Galaxy or a few more go to head in September or October or whenever it was. But these workouts you wouldn't think would have caused it. Especially being as clean as I've been since I was 16 years old LOL

Certainly not to the point where my CK levels were 15000 and I was in early stage renal failure


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: calfzilla on February 27, 2018, 09:36:12 PM
Be Back should be here any minute  ;D


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Irongrip400 on February 27, 2018, 10:15:51 PM
Did you forget to log out of your "Matt" account before posting this?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on February 27, 2018, 10:21:08 PM
I'll try to make this brief as I'm a little pressed for time at the moment.

Friday at noon was feeling fine then, maybe within a couple hours after started feeling a little loopy and dozed off sitting lengthwise on my couch and caught myself dozing off with my head going back so caught myself and my head Snapback forward, however that didn't quite wake me up in off and it happened again. So when I went to stand up off the couch I noticed my legs and my knees or super freaking sore. Unusually sore like I have been doing a hundred freaking sets of hip thrusts with 315 on my waist or something. Not to mention my neck was super freaking sore from the base of my skull down through my shoulders, which is still super freaking sore for whatever reason and that progressively got worse and moves down throughout my entire spine and that got progressively worse and move throughout my entire body especially my glutes hams and my lower back is specially using voice text here so some s*** doesn't make sense I'm too lazy to go back and fix it at the moment.

Then like I said whole body was sore so I went to pee and sat down like a freaking woman and when I got up I noticed my pee was the color of freaking Folgers coffee so I thought that's strange well maybe I didn't check before I sat down and maybe the toilet didn't flush right last time I went and there was already p in there and it was already dark or something or whatever... I don't know. So the next time I went to pee I sat down like a f****** woman again, got up and seen God damn thing P was the color of folders f****** coffee and I was a little concerned so started to Google and what not and realized holy f*** I likely have rhabdomyolysis. I've been dealing with an infection in my shoulder which about three weeks prior maybe four weeks I really wasn't keeping track, which I had been to the ER already and they did a needle aspiration Andrew out about 10 cc's of pus and gave me a script for 7 days worth of clindamycin at my request after telling them clindamycin usually clear it up infections like that for me in the past period and went on my way...


 Well starting Saturday maybe around 6 or 8 p.m. I started taking pictures of my pee as well as pudding notes next to it on the toilet bowl stating the time and how much water I had guzzle down varying from 1L, up to 3L, up 2 a gallon up to a gallon and a half as of I believe the last picture was at 5 a.m. Sunday morning when the P was gradually getting lighter, however still dark however my body aches were not really improving and everybody urging me to go to the ER so finally Sunday I go to the ER and tell them I likely have Rhabdomyolysis as well as an infection in my shoulder.

*€* keep in mind, I have been off anabolics since I was released from the hospital back in September except for to testerone injections, which both went into my right glute. Everything else that has gone into my biceps and delts has been vitamin B12 shots because, well I won't get into the reason but I had to get rid of the B12( which I'd gotten in Cancun on vacation a while back), and for reasons I won't quite get into here was cleaning house of everything labeled, even empty bottles. Legal or not) so needless to say I had about 50 ccs of B12 water-based mind you, that went into my delts and biceps and only that one delt got and infection for whatever reason.

Anyways, I know I'm jumping around a little bit here, as I'm working on very little sleep still. Some people here know the situation and have been aware of the situation since the whole thing started back maybe around Sunday or Saturday or whenever it was, I just hadn't posted it on the boards here.

So they admitted me, and I was afraid I had the same type of infection in my delt that I had in my glute and they were going to have to slice open my Delta the same way they did my glute. However that was not the case all they did was make a little Maybe 3 mm incision and squeeze out maybe 10 mL of pus and pack it the same way they packed my spider bite on my hip from years ago. No big deal. However yesterday I finally talk to the doctor and who tells me they wanted to keep me for another two or three more days, which I said was not an option because I have obligations to take care of namely Court obligations stemming from my DUI and stuff I have to take care of because of that, especially that particular day yesterday Monday, and it was like pulling freaking teeth to get him to tell me what my CK levels were down to below 10,000 and that my kidneys were now functioning fine, and that when I first came in I was in early stage renal failure, however like I said now they are functioning fine however my BUN levels were still a little high and he said he would check in tomorrow(today, Tuesday) to see how things we're progressing. Wtf? Seeing a Dr once a day? Not acceptable as far as I was concerned.

 No onto the "new" nurse, yesterday Maureen who was getting all pissy because I hadn't filled a urine cup she had left for me which I was not aware of and I kept feeling there giant urine collector thing with a handle not knowing that urine cup was there. So she kept coming into the room every 10 to 15 minutes to give me s*** about not feeling the urine cup she had left and I kept telling her yeah sure I'll fill it you know what the fuc? So finally I feel it and she still continues to give me attitude and s*** complaining that I was eating the food that I had brought with me instead of their f****** absolute garbage breakfast and lunch they had brought me. I did eat the eggs for breakfast, however I couldn't move the bed up or even scoop my self up to a position where I could eat comfortably. I couldn't push my heels into the bed to lift my ass up to scoop myself up because it felt like there was 400 f****** pounds of plates sitting on my hips because of the rhabdo, so eating the eggs had given me a really shity case of indigestion. So I was getting bored as f*** just laying there in bed so it took every f****** ounce of strength in me 2 scoop myself up and get on my feet to go walk around carrying my IV pole like I did last time I was in the hospital. Walked once I got around to walking on my feet I was okay but getting up was the hard part obviously. Now the unit at the hospital this was a different hospital this time as I had an issue at the last hospital I was at I'll get into that at a different time,. And the floor at this particular hospital was extremely small so I decided 2 get in the elevator and go explore a little bityeah, and even go out side, which was never an issue when I was at this particular Hospital a few years back. So I come back to the floor about maybe 30 minutes later or less and the nurse comes to the room to check on me and starts talking to me about some random s*** I forget what it was and mentions if I want to go look around the hospital that's fine but let them know first however if I leave the floor that's considered leaving the hospital and that I would need to come back through the ER entrance again. Even if I were to go down to the cafeteria. Mind you I was fully clothed in street clothes still despite having only the IV pole hooked up to me, which I had done previously when I was at this hospital a couple years prior like I mentioned. I said oh oh oh okay fine
.

Oh I should also mention that when I was in the ER speaking with the doctor in the ER they had approved me for some painkillers namely morphine. A whopping 2 million mg dose of morphine which I as well as Percocet. Every 4 hours. And the ER doc happened to be a bodybuilder and was mentioning to me that he had competed back in the day and one show and had bought a bottle of Sustanon and paid like $375 for it and I laugh my ass off at the price and told him what I did and at Sustanon should cost about 60 bucks. Anyways so we had a pretty good rapport and I asked him if he could mention to the doctor I I had a pretty extremely high tolerance to opiates still and mention to him the doses I was taking when I had my surgery back in August and told him that I would gladly" Exchange"  the morphine and Percocet every 4 hours 418 mg dose of dilaudid every 6 hours and he mentioned he said he would mention it to the doctor and the doctor would likely approve it. So when it came time for my morphine dose I asked him if that was the 2 milligram dose, and he said well the vile comes in formula mg, so the other two milligrams wer'e "supposed to throw away... and I know your tolerance is pretty high, so you can take that however you like" ( kind of wink wink), so I'm pretty sure he gave me the full form of mg even though that still did pretty much nothing for me..

Anyways so I mentioned that to the Night Nurse and she said the doctor still hasn't changed anything regarding the Dilaudid yet and gave me a 2 milligram dose of morphine which like I said obviously did absolutely nothing. Fast forward to the new b***** nurse in the morning and I mention the same thing about what what the doctor was going to change about the Dilaudid and she said there's been no change at all so the morphine is what I get and I can get a Percocet if I wanted it so I said no thanks I'm 5 mg Percocet will do absolutely nothing for me.... I know I'm jumping around a little bit so when the doctor actually came in I mention to him while the nurse was actually in the room about the Dilaudid change he said yeah he had approved me for dilaudid in addition to the morphine and I said thanks but the order hadn't gone through or something I guess in the computer system. So the next time the nurse came into the room she brought in packing material to repack my shoulder and I could see the vials of Dilaudid and I told her I'm just going to have to check out because this is taking too long and I have obligations I need to take care of today and she said I thought so I have the paperwork right here. So instead of getting the Dilaudid which I had a feeling she was planning on bribing me with because she already knew I was thinking about checking out AMA... and set the bottle of"Curad packing strip" on the table. And I asked her so what do I do about my shoulder because the hole is packed. Do I come back for that or what. She says I don't care what you do.you can do whatever you want with it. you're checking out AMA so its your problem". LOL what the fuck? Haha whatever I guess I'll just Google it or something I had the same thing with the spider bite on my hip and they told me just to cut off the strips as they pushed out as it healed from the inside out. Or I'll just Google it or something I guess whatever. The dumb b****. I was f****** amazed at how rude she was since I was nothing but f****** polite to all these nurses since they were all extremely nice to me from the start when I first came in. I was surprised since I had been going to the other Hospital for the past few years because that was the hospital where all my wealthy clients went, as well as we're all the famous people went when they were in town including ex-presidents who were visiting or had retired here... but I was surprised at the great service I was receiving at this particular Hospital and was kind of disappointed I hadn't been coming to this hospital all along even though it wasn't as nice, and the food was kind of garbage compared to the other place but that's another story.

Anyways I got s*** to do I'll come back to this later


I got caught drink driving again.....

fixed


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: calfzilla on February 27, 2018, 10:47:28 PM
I'll try to make this brief  ::)


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on February 28, 2018, 12:15:30 AM
looks like the painkiller addict got himself hospitalised again for free drugs

another infection from his shitty bathtub brews......

and the nurses are rude because they are sick of seeing a self harming loser taking up a bed for a genuine case..

What a fucking freeloading bag headed loser......

What's the matter Eric, not getting enough attention on the outside?

Fuck me you are one weak pathetic fucker.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on February 28, 2018, 12:46:39 AM
looks like the painkiller addict got himself hospitalised again for free drugs

What a fucking freeloading bag headed loser......

What's the matter Eric, not getting enough attention on the outside?

Fuck me you are one weak pathetic fucker.

Lookie here, you dumb fuk autistic, the nurse who came in with the jar of packing strips 2 repack the little 2 or 3 mm hole in my delt also brought with her two vials of Dilaudid to get it to me before she repacked the whole, however before she had a chance to giving me the f****** Dilaudid, much less even tell me she had it (I recognize what Dilaudid comes in you dimwit) or even break the seal on the jar of the packing strips, I told her I'm checking out AMA.

And prior to that do you really think the f****** 2 million mg dose of morphine and one f****** Percocet or even going to do jack schitt for me? Hahaha you're a little fantasy version of what you wish daily what my life is like is f****** laughable. Absolutely f****** pathetic that would only make sense to an autistic loser such as yourself.  You're too f****** dumb to realize the full body aches and pains in my joints and muscle wouldn't even qualify for a painkiller dose sufficient enough for me to even "enjoy". Holy fuck you're pathetic. Did you not read the part where I did not plan on Staind in the hospital longer than a day?  And what the f*** makes you think if I wanted actual pain f****** killers I couldn't just buy them on the f****** Street? You dumb mother f*****

I got caught drunk driving again".. Fixed

If that were the case, you f****** dimwit my probation will be revoked and I would be still in jail, you f****** dimwit autistic fuck with the painfully embarrassing obsession with another man on the internet (me). Since my probation will be revoked on the previous charges and I will be looking at like we $170,000 bail.... incense I went to the ER on Sunday, and your little fantasy how about me getting a DUI instead, I wouldn't have even seen the judge until Monday afternoon at the very very earliest, more like Tuesday or even Wednesday if I was lucky, and it would take another day after that before a bail bondsman would come visit me and at the very least accept nothing less than $17,000 in cash, and that's assuming which is unlikely, that the judge would accept a 10% surety bond for a 4th DUI. Ho Lee fuk your stupidity knows no end

... OH! And not to mention I have a nice little ankle monitor that detects alcohol, for the next few more weeks so even if I wanted to drink, I couldn't. You stupid stupid autistic f***.

Oh, and maybe you also miss the part where there are people on this board who have been kept up to date with this entire situation ( complete with pictures) since before I even checked into the ER. You moron.

So make up here dumb little autistic mind. First you claim I got another DUI. Then you change your story... sorry, your fantasy version of My Life, and change it to I went to the hospital for free drugs.

#AutismSpeaks
#AutismAwarenessMonth


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on February 28, 2018, 12:50:38 AM
Lookie here, you dumb fuk autistic, the nurse who came in with the jar of packing strips 2 repack the little 2 or 3 mm hole in my delt also brought with her two vials of Dilaudid to get it to me before she repacked the whole, however before she had a chance to giving me the f****** Dilaudid, much less even tell me she had it (I recognize what Dilaudid comes in you dimwit) or even break the seal on the jar of the packing strips, I told her I'm checking out AMA.

And prior to that do you really think the f****** 2 million mg dose of morphine and one f****** Percocet or even going to do jack schitt for me? Hahaha you're a little fantasy version of what you wish daily what my life is like is f****** laughable. Absolutely f****** pathetic that would only make sense to an autistic loser such as yourself.  You're too f****** dumb to realize the full body aches and pains in my joints and muscle wouldn't even qualify for a painkiller dose sufficient enough for me to even "enjoy". Holy fuck you're pathetic. Did you not read the part where I did not plan on Staind in the hospital longer than a day?  And what the f*** makes you think if I wanted actual pain f****** killers I couldn't just buy them on the f****** Street? You dumb mother f*****

If that were the case, you f****** dimwit my probation will be revoked and I would be still in jail, you f****** dimwit autistic fuck with the painfully embarrassing obsession with another man on the internet (me). Since my probation will be revoked on the previous charges and I will be looking at like we $170,000 bail.... incense I went to the ER on Sunday, and your little fantasy how about me getting a DUI instead, I wouldn't have even seen the judge until Monday afternoon at the very very earliest, more like Tuesday or even Wednesday if I was lucky, and it would take another day after that before a bail bondsman would come visit me and at the very least accept nothing less than $17,000 in cash, and that's assuming which is unlikely, that the judge would accept a 10% surety bond for a 4th DUI. Ho Lee fuk your stupidity knows no end

... OH! And not to mention I have a nice little ankle monitor that detects alcohol, for the next few more weeks so even if I wanted to drink, I couldn't. You stupid stupid autistic f***.

Oh, and maybe you also miss the part where there are people on this board who have been kept up to date with this entire situation since before I even checked into the ER. You moron

I love how to take pride in being a low life piece of shit.

Most people would be embarrassed to admit all the shit you spout on here yet somehow you believe it puts you in a good light...

and why did they give you 2 million mgs of morphine isn't that 2 kilos of morphine, I sense that's a bit too much even for you


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on February 28, 2018, 12:53:56 AM
I love how to take pride in being a low life piece of shit.

Most people would be embarrassed to admit all the shit you spout on here yet somehow you believe it puts you in a good light...

I love how you make up my mind for me and decide that everything I post I do so 2 paint myself in a positive light.

It's pathetic how you believe this s*** your little Boney Fingers spew about me


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on February 28, 2018, 01:03:28 AM
I love how you make up my mind for me and decide that everything I post I do so 2 paint myself in a positive light.

It's pathetic how you believe this s*** your little Boney Fingers spew about me

nothing you have ever posted has painted you in a positive light, you are either drink driving, stealing from people or freeloading in hospital.

What have you ever contributed to society?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on February 28, 2018, 01:48:34 AM
nothing you have ever posted has painted you in a positive light, you are either drink driving, stealing from people or freeloading in hospital.

What have you ever contributed to society?


Once again with your claims of me stealing from people. Same as always I tell you to post the quotes where I'm stealing from people yet you never do, for that matter none of your buddies do either. It's been going on for years where you make such claims and I tell you 2 show me the posts... f*** that show everybody the posts, yet you never do. Nobody ever does none of your little troll buddies included. It's f****** pathetic.

And freeloading at the hospital? LoL... you seem to base that on the month I was hospitalized following to massive hip surgeries after which I had a gaping hole in my hip with a wound vac attached. I guess if it were you you would have gone home (how? I'm not sure since the hospital doesn't send anybody home with that type of wound VAC still attached with a wound the size of a football still open and susceptible to bacteria and greater infection. Not to mention you being an anorexic autistic you would have declined your meals and instead donated them 2 the homeless. So I guess f****** for taken advantage of the excellent dietary options that hospital provided and making use of the nearly $300 a month I had been pain for the past three or four years prior without using it aside from stitching up a gash on my forearm down to my palm once back I believe in about 2014. Not to mention the surgeon office mistakenly sent me the bill instead of the insurance company and I was surprised to see the entire surgery was only $3,500.

So you, living in your little socialist country and a socialist yourself, being a complete Dunst when it comes to business and finance and anything regarding a "bill".

Let me break it down for you autistic little brain. Let's see from 2012 to 2017 that's 60 months. Multiply that by $300 no let's give you the benefit of the doubt let's drop that down to maybe $270 hours per month( and I'll use round numbers so it doesn't confuse you because I know you autistics are easily confused by numbers)... That's $16,000.

Minus the $3500 for the surgeries.. again I know you are autistics have trouble with numbers so let's call that 4000. So that leaves $12,000. So, you're claiming life reloaded over A month's time $12,000 in free food, and housekeeping who rarely needed to change the sheets sense I believe the entire month Iowa's in that hospital I probably laid in that bed a total of 30 minutes per day, and that was Lane sideways on two or three of these plastic absorbable "Matt things". As I would go entire days, usually 3 or 4 at a time with maybe 30 minutes of actual sleep, total, usually with me sitting up at the edge of the bed (which was always covered in those "Matt things", and never actually using any of the blankets. Thus having no need to change the sheets since I was up and walking around a good 23 or 23 and a half hours every day, unlike 99 percent of the other patients on that floor who were getting pain medication recovering from surgeries who would just lay in bed sweating, sleeping, and watching TV without hardly ever touching their meals. I knew this because number one the nurses wood tell me everybody else slept all day after receiving their pain med dose, and I would see there meals untouched on the meal trays outside their room every f****** day.

So I guess I'm a freeloader 4 and actually ordering food and eating it after 5 years of hardly ever actually using my health insurance.. Interesting and convenient way thore somebody like you 2 attempt to bolster their claim. Speaking about something they know absolutely nothing about. (Something you have vast experience in.)


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on February 28, 2018, 01:51:22 AM
nothing you have ever posted has painted you in a positive light, you are either drink driving, stealing from people or freeloading in hospital.

What have you ever contributed to society?

Hahaha

Another lame attempt to bait me into something where you can respond right away with claims that I am "boasting and bragging".

Pathetic old autistic man is too dumb to realize people realize how pathetic he is


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on February 28, 2018, 01:53:23 AM

Once again with your claims of me stealing from people. Same as always I tell you to post the quotes where I'm stealing from people yet you never do, for that matter none of your buddies do either. It's been going on for years where you make such claims and I tell you 2 show me the posts... f*** that show everybody the posts, yet you never do. Nobody ever does none of your little troll buddies included. It's f****** pathetic.

And freeloading at the hospital? LoL... you seem to base that on the month I was hospitalized following to massive hip surgeries after which I had a gaping hole in my hip with a wound vac attached. I guess if it were you you would have gone home (how? I'm not sure since the hospital doesn't send anybody home with that type of wound VAC still attached with a wound the size of a football still open and susceptible to bacteria and greater infection. Not to mention you being an anorexic autistic you would have declined your meals and instead donated them 2 the homeless. So I guess f****** for taken advantage of the excellent dietary options that hospital provided and making use of the nearly $300 a month I had been pain for the past three or four years prior without using it aside from stitching up a gash on my forearm down to my palm once back I believe in about 2014. Not to mention the surgeon office mistakenly sent me the bill instead of the insurance company and I was surprised to see the entire surgery was only $3,500.

So you, living in your little socialist country and a socialist yourself, being a complete Dunst when it comes to business and finance and anything regarding a "bill".

Let me break it down for you autistic little brain. Let's see from 2012 to 2017 that's 60 months. Multiply that by $300 no let's give you the benefit of the doubt let's drop that down to maybe $270 hours per month( and I'll use round numbers so it doesn't confuse you because I know you autistics are easily confused by numbers)... That's $16,000.

Minus the $3500 for the surgeries.. again I know you are autistics have trouble with numbers so let's call that 4000. So that leaves $12,000. So, you're claiming life reloaded over A month's time $12,000 in free food, and housekeeping who rarely needed to change the sheets sense I believe the entire month Iowa's in that hospital I probably laid in that bed a total of 30 minutes per day, and that was Lane sideways on two or three of these plastic absorbable "Matt things". As I would go entire days, usually 3 or 4 at a time with maybe 30 minutes of actual sleep, total, usually with me sitting up at the edge of the bed (which was always covered in those "Matt things", and never actually using any of the blankets. Thus having no need to change the sheets since I was up and walking around a good 23 or 23 and a half hours every day, unlike 99 percent of the other patients on that floor who were getting pain medication recovering from surgeries who would just lay in bed sweating, sleeping, and watching TV without hardly ever touching their meals. I knew this because number one the nurses wood tell me everybody else slept all day after receiving their pain med dose, and I would see there meals untouched on the meal trays outside their room every f****** day.

So I guess I'm a freeloader 4 and actually ordering food and eating it after 5 years of hardly ever actually using my health insurance.. Interesting and convenient way thore somebody like you 2 attempt to bolster their claim. Speaking about something they know absolutely nothing about. (Something you have vast experience in.)

You stole money from people charging them $40 for a $10 blood test they could have done themselves, you didn't tell them they could do it themselves so you mislead and stole from them

You stole from the staff in the call centre by not informing them of their correct commission payments, that's if we actually believe you story of you actually being in a position of trust within the company as opposed to a call centre employee lacky.

You can try and justify all the health care you like, in reality you are a self harming attention seeker.
You are a fucking drain on society, no one will mourn your passing....

Hope this helps


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on February 28, 2018, 01:55:40 AM
Hahaha

Another lame attempt to bait me into something where you can respond right away with claims that I am "boasting and bragging".

Pathetic old autistic man is too dumb to realize people realize how pathetic he is

No, I was just asking a question I knew you wouldn't be able to answer... ;)


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on February 28, 2018, 03:45:36 AM
You stole money from people charging them $40 for a $10 blood test they could have done themselves, you didn't tell them they could do it themselves so you mislead and stole from them

You stole from the staff in the call centre by not informing them of their correct commission payments, that's if we actually believe you story of you actually being in a position of trust within the company as opposed to a call centre employee lacky.

You can try and justify all the health care you like, in reality you are a self harming attention seeker.
You are a fucking drain on society, no one will mourn your passing....

Hope this helps

Haha haha..... you're claiming I stole money from clients for charging that way premium for a service I provided. Your dumbass autistic socialist brain was never run a business, much less owned and operated a business confuses the very f****** term BUSINESS with CHARITY. Lol... as if the proprietor of a pet food store who sells a bag of cat food for $12 is STEALING from his customers for not telling his customers that they can go online and buy the very same f****** cat food for $4 on Amazon.

You f****** dimwit. But maybe you do grasp the concept, however it doesn't fit the narrative you so desperately desperately desperately trying to paint me as some sort of thief.

For fucks sake... but by all means, keep it up and keep embarrassing yourself with these theories of yours and desperate attempts.


And once again with the fundraising office? I don't cut the f****** checks you dumb f***. And if the owners of the business actually paid the employees for a commissions collected 100%.  which, by the way, I had absolutely no fucking way of knowing what the actual commissions brought in were, and what was actually due to them. AND if the employees where paid HIGHER commissions, THST would reflect on my commission checks as well. You stupid stupid fucking imbecile.

So using your dumbass, ignorant autistic logic, I therefore wood have also been stealing from MYSELF.

Not to mention, the difference between what was paid to the employees via Commission and what they were didn't go into my f****** pocket you dumb mother f*****. I've repeated that to you countless times however your autistic little pea brain fails to grasp that concept. Have you never had to manage or operate a business or calculate payroll. Certainly not calculating payroll for a company with 20 + employees on commission, Plus another 4 to 6 employees still on probationary salaries not yet receiving Commission, in addition to a back office staff of 8-15 non-sales/non-commissioned employees.

You stupid stupid old man who knows absolutely nothing about running a business, and knows only about talking out of your ass I'm about s*** you know nothing about just so you can preserve your own little narrative and fantasy scenario about how my life is... and you fail can't even that.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on February 28, 2018, 03:48:07 AM
Haha haha..... you're claiming I stole money from clients for charging that way premium for a service I provided. Your dumbass autistic socialist brain was never run a business, much less owned and operated a business confuses the very f****** term BUSINESS with CHARITY. Lol... as if the proprietor of a pet food store who sells a bag of cat food for $12 is STEALING from his customers for not telling his customers that they can go online and buy the very same f****** cat food for $4 on Amazon.

You f****** dimwit. But maybe you do grasp the concept, however it doesn't fit the narrative you so desperately desperately desperately trying to paint me as some sort of thief.

For fucks sake... but by all means, keep it up and keep embarrassing yourself with these theories of yours and desperate attempts.


And once again with the fundraising office? I don't cut the f****** checks you dumb f***. And if the owners of the business actually paid the employees for a commissions collected 100%.  which, by the way, I had absolutely no fucking way of knowing what the actual commissions brought in were, and what was actually due to them. AND if the employees where paid HIGHER commissions, THST would reflect on my commission checks as well. You stupid stupid fucking imbecile.

So using your dumbass, ignorant autistic logic, I therefore wood have also been stealing from MYSELF.

Not to mention, the difference between what was paid to the employees via Commission and what they were didn't go into my f****** pocket you dumb mother f*****. I've repeated that to you countless times however your autistic little pea brain fails to grasp that concept. Have you never had to manage or operate a business or calculate payroll. Certainly not calculating payroll for a company with 20 + employees on commission, Plus another 4 to 6 employees still on probationary salaries not yet receiving Commission, in addition to a back office staff of 8-15 non-sales/non-commissioned employees.

You stupid stupid old man who knows absolutely nothing about running a business, and knows only about talking out of your ass I'm about s*** you know nothing about just so you can preserve your own little narrative and fantasy scenario about how my life is... and you fail can't even that.

you seem to have forgotten that you pretended you did cut the checks and were a big player in the company by persistently using the word "we" when you were really talking about the company.

Thanks for finally admitting you were just a call centre lacky.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: B R on February 28, 2018, 05:12:04 AM
Your BS Levels > Your CK Levels.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: spiro on February 28, 2018, 07:13:25 AM
Why are you getting so many infections? I've been using ten plus years never one infection. I get sore but never infection. Something isn't right man.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on February 28, 2018, 07:30:34 AM
Why are you getting so many infections? I've been using ten plus years never one infection. I get sore but never infection. Something isn't right man.

He has no self respect, hes dirty, unkempt, uses filthy homemade bathtub steroids, hes an alcoholic, a opiate abuser.

Fuck me read some of his posts mate...


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: mphgrove on February 28, 2018, 07:49:20 AM
ES, do you have an emotional support animal?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: NelsonMuntz on February 28, 2018, 08:59:33 AM
In summer 2014 I went into renal(kidney) failure

the weeks before first I pissed blood for a couple hours, looked it up on Google and it said passing a stone. Ognored it. It was high BP and over 4-6 weeks(cant remember) I lost like 40lbs. Stared pissing blood again, went to the hospital and BP was 260/160. I was down to 159lbs and just short of dying. Looking back it is scary how fast the weight dropped that fast without dieting.

Just since christmas have I been able to train hard without losing energy en masse. Literally took 3 and a half years to fully recover.

Lesson. watch your BP guys, reason they call it silent killer it creeps up, kinda like revving a car until the engine blows.

ES was not BP related from he said, but renal failure is not a fun thing. I am ok today but I still see a nephrologist(sic) twice a year. Even the blood vessels behind my eyes exploded(from the BP0

pay attention if you use any drugs that are preworkouts, ephedrine, clen, high bodyweight, or rec drugs that raise bp like coke products or speed. alcohol, high sodium processed foods(high salt is not bad but processed is there is a difference)


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on February 28, 2018, 11:58:49 AM
Why are you getting so many infections? I've been using ten plus years never one infection. I get sore but never infection. Something isn't right man.
I don't know what you mean by "so many". I've had to infections in my 17 years of using "stuff".

(3 if you include the massive swelling I got from putting an ampule or two of Mexican Testoprim-D in my delt back in 2000)

My glute was caused by Deca that was produced by a well-known and popular UGL.

And this infection which was caused by injectable vitamin B12 (water-based), of which I put about 50 ccs (had to Finnish up a 50cc bottle I brought back from Cancun a couple years back ) spread between both delts and both biceps, however this dealt is the only one that got infected.

Even back when I was using heroin I never got infections, even when Iowa's muscling my shots the last 6 months of my use because my veins were all gone.

Using sterile technique every time wiping the area with an alcohol swab and using new PIN because I can pick him up at the pharmacy right down the road no questions asked.
He has no self respect, hes dirty, unkempt, uses filthy homemade bathtub steroids, hes an alcoholic, a opiate abuser.

Fuck me read some of his posts mate...

"Bathtub steroids"... please enlighten us all how you would make steroids in a f****** bathtub you moron. All my products are made under hood flow, and filtered first through a .45 micron bottle top vacuum sterile filter period then again sterile filtered through a .22 micron bottle top sterile filter.

 Not one customer has ever ever ever had an infection from any of my products, myself included ( read above. I know you're autistic and all so you may need to reread what I write a good 3 or 4 times and then maybe pass it on to somebody else who is not autistic to explain it to you)


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on February 28, 2018, 12:19:17 PM
I don't know what you mean by "so many". I've had to infections in my 17 years of using "stuff".

(3 if you include the massive swelling I got from putting an ampule or two of Mexican Testoprim-D in my delt back in 2000)

My glute was caused by Deca that was produced by a well-known and popular UGL.

And this infection which was caused by injectable vitamin B12 (water-based), of which I put about 50 ccs (had to Finnish up a 50cc bottle I brought back from Cancun a couple years back ) spread between both delts and both biceps, however this dealt is the only one that got infected.

Even back when I was using heroin I never got infections, even when Iowa's muscling my shots the last 6 months of my use because my veins were all gone.

Using sterile technique every time wiping the area with an alcohol swab and using new PIN because I can pick him up at the pharmacy right down the road no questions asked.
"Bathtub steroids"... please enlighten us all how you would make steroids in a f****** bathtub you moron. All my products are made under hood flow, and filtered first through a .45 micron bottle top vacuum sterile filter period then again sterile filtered through a .22 micron bottle top sterile filter.

 Not one customer has ever ever ever had an infection from any of my products, myself included ( read above. I know you're autistic and all so you may need to reread what I write a good 3 or 4 times and then maybe pass it on to somebody else who is not autistic to explain it to you)
That wasn't from MY steroids buddy.

That was from a bottle of either Axxio Deca or a black widow spider bite, as I have a nest (2 actuallly) on my patio... It wasn't a progressive thing, it was all of a sudden. Ill tape more when I have a laptop and not typing on my phone using voice text.

I'm looking at maybe another surgery or two and being in the hospital for another week or so but after that week I'm looking at having to go to a nursing Senator or assisted Nursing Center whatever you call it for a sterile environment because I can't go home because I have animals and pets. I've made antibiotics for nearly seven years now and I have never had one person including myself goodnight an infection from any of them including this one. The only anabolics I've been using over the past few months now have been testosterone cypionate and HR two doses maybe 300 milligrams every three or four weeks that's been going in my shoulder nothing's been going in my hips or glutes

Fuck me, guy makes thousands of vials of gear (allegedly) yet uses half empty vials he gets from a buddy who says its no good.

Face it you are just a bum who has no money , no means of income, only a fucking moron would use a half empty vial from someone else, let alone a guy with access to his own supply of hundreds of vials

Get the fuck off this forum you idiotic waste of fucking space.,


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: CalvinH on February 28, 2018, 12:20:11 PM
Zzzzzz


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on February 28, 2018, 12:20:55 PM
Zzzzzz
agreed, he should just buzz the fuck off


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 01, 2018, 12:05:58 AM
agreed, he should just buzz the fuck off

Ironic you should say that... Again. Since every thread you started asking people to "back you" and have me "leave" has ended up blowing up in your face and with you stating that you're" just going to leave me alone and ignore me", only to have you do exactly what I say  you'd do, which is slink away with your tail between your legs and hide for a couple weeks hoping people would forget you were exposed as a 54 year old autistic man hose life revolves around getbig and who's learning disability prevents you from understanding why nobody likes you.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 01, 2018, 12:07:03 AM
Your BS Levels > Your CK Levels.

And it never fails that you are sure to follow every one of Jeffrey's lame attempts at drawing and every thread involving me


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Mitch on March 01, 2018, 12:15:55 AM
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Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 01, 2018, 12:25:37 AM
Ironic you should say that... Again. Since every thread you started asking people to "back you" and have me "leave" has ended up blowing up in your face and with you stating that you're" just going to leave me alone and ignore me", only to have you do exactly what I say  you'd do, which is slink away with your tail between your legs and hide for a couple weeks hoping people would forget you were exposed as a 54 year old autistic man hose life revolves around getbig and who's learning disability prevents you from understanding why nobody likes you.

you have never been right about anything in your life

Do you have any more selfies of you in front of a fatal road crash?

Tell me, why would a 37 year old man believe thats an acceptable or adult thing to do?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 01, 2018, 12:31:43 AM
In summer 2014 I went into renal(kidney) failure

the weeks before first I pissed blood for a couple hours, looked it up on Google and it said passing a stone. Ognored it. It was high BP and over 4-6 weeks(cant remember) I lost like 40lbs. Stared pissing blood again, went to the hospital and BP was 260/160. I was down to 159lbs and just short of dying. Looking back it is scary how fast the weight dropped that fast without dieting.

Just since christmas have I been able to train hard without losing energy en masse. Literally took 3 and a half years to fully recover.

Lesson. watch your BP guys, reason they call it silent killer it creeps up, kinda like revving a car until the engine blows.

ES was not BP related from he said, but renal failure is not a fun thing. I am ok today but I still see a nephrologist(sic) twice a year. Even the blood vessels behind my eyes exploded(from the BP0

pay attention if you use any drugs that are preworkouts, ephedrine, clen, high bodyweight, or rec drugs that raise bp like coke products or speed. alcohol, high sodium processed foods(high salt is not bad but processed is there is a difference)

Odd part was that I have been off all anabolics except for a couple maybe 3? Testosterone injections since September. I think I am forgetting a British. When I was back in the gym for a few workouts after my surgery back around October. But no supplements this time, no pre workouts and I didn't even drink any coffee.... only thing I can think of is the past whole maybe month or so few weeks at least I guess I've been going through quite a few Rockstar Energy drinks per day.

In the infection in my shoulder has been something that's been ongoing since I was in the hospital for the hip surgery last August because my home health care nurse had check my vitals when she came over one morning to do a wound dressing change and my blood pressure was 160 over 115 or something like that with a resting heart rate at about 1 15, at which point she called my primary care physician and recommended I go to the ER and get checked out (and drive myself no less by the way LOL) by the time I got to the ER and explain to them why I was sent over my blood pressure was back around normal however I did mention that I still had a couple lumps in both shoulders, the one in my right shoulder had been there since they gave me an IM shot of Dilaudid since my midline and gotten infected and they couldn't start another IV, so they gave me an IM shot of Dilaudid a few minutes before they did a wound vac dressing change. So the doctor  decided he wanted to do MRIs on my shoulders  to check  the lumps....That was the time when the MRI Tech have brought me into the MRI room with my IV and IV pole still attached and it got sucked into the MRI machine after already waiting for 13+ hours ( got there at noon, and they finally got me into the MRI at 1 a.m.) they weren't really painful or anything I had just noticed they were there. So I said f*** it I'm not going to come back because the MRI machine was going to be down and out of service for at least 12 to 14 hours for repairs. Since then, like I said earlier, the only thing that's going into my shoulders and biceps has been fellows B12 injections. B12 being water-based I should have known better, knowing that water-based drugs like when straw contest a suspension were notorious for causing infections, but until recently neither shoulder or biceps felt like they had infections.

Fuck me, guy makes thousands of vials of gear (allegedly) yet uses half empty vials he gets from a buddy who says its no good.

Face it you are just a bum who has no money , no means of income, only a fucking moron would use a half empty vial from someone else, let alone a guy with access to his own supply of hundreds of vials

Get the fuck off this forum you idiotic waste of fucking space.,

And maybe you missed it, mr. Autistic, but the buddy of mine had mentioned he picked up I believe it was 5 bottles of that deca and he wasn't sure if he was noticing any games from it and if I would do him a favor and try out one of his bottles and see what I thought about it. So I did. Seeing as you don't have any friends and doing favors for people is something you know nothing about because you have nobody to ever ask you to do favors for them much less anybody who values your opinion, I can understand why something like that won't make any sense to you.

Btw, it was Sciroxx deca. And that buddy was a customer who I hadn't scene for quite a while because he had moved out of the area for a short while and he had mentioned the DECA when placing an order with me when he got back into town, and I got the DECA the same time he picked up his order from me.

Duck, I don't know why I even bother explaining this s*** to some autistic 54 year old man on the internet trying to argue every little point I make.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 01, 2018, 12:41:33 AM
you have never been right about anything in your life

Do you have any more selfies of you in front of a fatal road crash?

Tell me, why would a 37 year old man believe thats an acceptable or adult thing to do?

Selfies in front of a fatal Road crash that happened directly in front of me while we were leaving  a  exotic car rally meet on a Sunday evening and witch I was holding a dying man's head in my arms trying to get a response out of him and check his pupils to see if they constrict etc etc

You're pathetic ass wants to take things out of context and make it seem as if I just decided to take a selfie in front of a road crash.

F****** pathetic. Absolutely f****** pathetic nevermind the fact that later on I eventually was put in contact with that Man's parents and let them know that he did not die alone and did not die in pain. You stupid pathetic piece of s***. How does it feel, knowing that at your age you're just an internet f****** troll who wood not dare run your mouth to anybody in person the way you do on these message boards because you're a f****** coward. You're a born f****** coward. You claim you're married? What kind of wife, what kind of woman would marry and autistic know-it-all mouthy collared like you who lives in a f****** s*** hole and  cakes  pictures in the nicest room in your home with peeling pea green paint with fluorescent lighting with s*** strewn all about.... what kind of dumb ass woman would it take to Mary some piece of s*** coward like you? Even if you are married, which I seriously doubt you are I find it very hard to believe that wife of yours would actually let you f*** her more than once every maybe 6 months and would rather spend her time stuffing her Harry rotten snatch with whatever she could find around the house, then subject herself to letting some autistic anorexic coward climb on top of her and penetrator with his little 5 in needle dick for 2 minutes


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 01, 2018, 12:42:43 AM

Duck, I don't know why I even bother explaining this s*** to some autistic 54 year old man on the internet trying to argue every little point I make.


me neither, its all made up bullshit anyway.

I couldnt give a fuck about your lies.

In reality you are a broken down social outcast bum with no money or prospects.
This is why you are always ill and run down.

Quote
Selfies in front of a fatal Road crash that happened directly in front of me while we were leaving  a  exotic car rally meet on a Sunday evening and witch I was holding a dying man's head in my arms trying to get a response out of him and check his pupils to see if they constrict etc etc

You're pathetic ass wants to take things out of context and make it seem as if I just decided to take a selfie in front of a road crash.

the first part of your post is what a normal person would do, you likely made that bit up, its the selfie bit thats you all over.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 01, 2018, 12:46:02 AM
Selfies in front of a fatal Road crash that happened directly in front of me while we were leaving  a  exotic car rally meet on a Sunday evening and witch I was holding a dying man's head in my arms trying to get a response out of him and check his pupils to see if they constrict etc etc

You're pathetic ass wants to take things out of context and make it seem as if I just decided to take a selfie in front of a road crash.

F****** pathetic. Absolutely f****** pathetic nevermind the fact that later on I eventually was put in contact with that Man's parents and let them know that he did not die alone and did not die in pain. You stupid pathetic piece of s***. How does it feel, knowing that at your age you're just an internet f****** troll who wood not dare run your mouth to anybody in person the way you do on these message boards because you're a f****** coward. You're a born f****** coward. You claim you're married? What kind of wife, what kind of woman would marry and autistic know-it-all mouthy collared like you who lives in a f****** s*** hole and  cakes  pictures in the nicest room in your home with peeling pea green paint with fluorescent lighting with s*** strewn all about.... what kind of dumb ass woman would it take to Mary some piece of s*** coward like you? Even if you are married, which I seriously doubt you are I find it very hard to believe that wife of yours would actually let you f*** her more than once every maybe 6 months and would rather spend her time stuffing her Harry rotten snatch with whatever she could find around the house, then subject herself to letting some autistic anorexic coward climb on top of her and penetrator with his little 5 in needle dick for 2 minutes

I have never given you that much thought, I thought it was meant to be me thats obsessed with you

Oh and by the way, I could kick your broken dumbass with one arm behind my back, you are a fucking mess,


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 01, 2018, 08:57:31 AM
me neither, its all made up bullshit anyway.

I couldnt give a fuck about your lies.

In reality you are a broken down social outcast bum with no money or prospects.
This is why you are always ill and run down.

the first part of your post is what a normal person would do, you likely made that bit up, its the selfie bit thats you all over.

Like i said, you autistic dimwit, you love to take everything I write or post out of context to fit your own little pathetic narrative of how you wish my life is. I posted quite a few videos of myself at that crash scene until my memory ran out on my phone oh, hell you even acknowledged the videos at multiple points on this forum stating I was "crying". You pathetic crosseyed dimwit... however that doesn't seem to fit your narrative in this particular threat. Does it? You f****** idiot, you think people don't see exactly what you are? You should see how many f****** private messages I have from respected members here making fun of you and saying I should possibly just ignore you and see what kind of nervous breakdown you have.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 01, 2018, 10:35:56 AM
Like i said, you autistic dimwit, you love to take everything I write or post out of context to fit your own little pathetic narrative of how you wish my life is. I posted quite a few videos of myself at that crash scene until my memory ran out on my phone oh, hell you even acknowledged the videos at multiple points on this forum stating I was "crying". You pathetic crosseyed dimwit... however that doesn't seem to fit your narrative in this particular threat. Does it? You f****** idiot, you think people don't see exactly what you are? You should see how many f****** private messages I have from respected members here making fun of you and saying I should possibly just ignore you and see what kind of nervous breakdown you have.

try and make a few posts when you are not under a haze of opiates, people might take you seriously.

Have you noticed no one really gives a fuck about you, people soon tire of self harmers.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: WalterWhite on March 01, 2018, 10:40:58 AM
try and make a few posts when you are not under a haze of opiates, people might take you seriously.

Have you noticed no one really gives a fuck about you, people soon tire of self harmers.

I thought you weren't going to do this any longer. Why get so worked up over someone on a message board?



Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: werewolf operative on March 01, 2018, 11:02:33 AM
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Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 01, 2018, 11:03:39 AM
I thought you weren't going to do this any longer. Why get so worked up over someone on a message board?



Im not worked up, Im bored in contest prep...wifes away on holiday, just killing time..


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: WalterWhite on March 01, 2018, 11:06:48 AM
Im not worked up, Im bored in contest prep...wifes away on holiday, just killing time..

Do a prep thread all-inclusive. We haven't had a good one on here in years.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 01, 2018, 11:09:50 AM
Do a prep thread all-inclusive. We haven't had a good one on here in years.

http://www.getbig.com/boards/index.php?topic=642239.0


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: dj181 on March 01, 2018, 11:31:24 AM
Im not worked up, Im bored in contest prep...wifes away on holiday, just killing time..

Hopefully she is getting a proper fucking by some black d!ck

Coz you sure as hell couldnt satisfy her


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 01, 2018, 11:40:48 AM
but could she stand up to a Hearns body shot.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: AbrahamG on March 01, 2018, 03:41:09 PM
Hopefully she is getting a proper fucking by some black d!ck

Coz you sure as hell couldnt satisfy her

:)


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 02, 2018, 04:02:57 AM
try and make a few posts when you are not under a haze of opiates, people might take you seriously.

Have you noticed no one really gives a fuck about you, people soon tire of self harmers.

Lol@"haze of opiates".  Aside from the two 2mg morphine injections (which if you had any clue what you're talking about, you would know how many school and pointless 2 mg of morphine is to somebody like me) & the single Percocet tab ( again if you knew anything, you would know how pointless 5 mg of oxycodone is to me as well, which is why I declined II Percocet when it was offered to me).

... furthermore when the nurse came in to do my dressing change Andre pack the little 1.5 mm incision in my shoulder she also brought with her 2 vials of Dilaudid to be given to me prior to her repacking the incision.( I guess autism really affects your reading reading comprehension skills) I could have just as easily taken the Dilaudid injections letter repack the wound and then checked out AMA, however I did not. I signed the form, put my shoes on, grabbed my bag, and went on my way. No take home prescriptions for antibiotics and certainly no take home prescriptions for painkillers.

Once again making up your own little fantasy version of what you wish my life was, to fit your own little narrative to make yourself feel better.

I don't need to spread lies about you, because everything I say about you is accurate , such as you being autistic and unable to comprehend even the most basic social interactions among adults, as well as your pathetic of session with me and my life


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 02, 2018, 06:39:03 AM
Lol@"haze of opiates".  Aside from the two 2mg morphine injections (which if you had any clue what you're talking about, you would know how many school and pointless 2 mg of morphine is to somebody like me) & the single Percocet tab ( again if you knew anything, you would know how pointless 5 mg of oxycodone is to me as well, which is why I declined II Percocet when it was offered to me).

... furthermore when the nurse came in to do my dressing change Andre pack the little 1.5 mm incision in my shoulder she also brought with her 2 vials of Dilaudid to be given to me prior to her repacking the incision.( I guess autism really affects your reading reading comprehension skills) I could have just as easily taken the Dilaudid injections letter repack the wound and then checked out AMA, however I did not. I signed the form, put my shoes on, grabbed my bag, and went on my way. No take home prescriptions for antibiotics and certainly no take home prescriptions for painkillers.

Once again making up your own little fantasy version of what you wish my life was, to fit your own little narrative to make yourself feel better.

I don't need to spread lies about you, because everything I say about you is accurate , such as you being autistic and unable to comprehend even the most basic social interactions among adults, as well as your pathetic of session with me and my life

why do you keep telling me all this shit, I couldn't give a flying fuck how you live your seedy freeloading thieving shitty fucking life.

You are the shit on peoples shoes, a fucking hinderance and liability to anyone you come into contact with...

A self harming hopeless addict lurching from one disaster to the next...

no one fucking cares...


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 02, 2018, 07:01:18 AM
why do you keep telling me all this shit, I couldn't give a flying fuck how you live your seedy freeloading thieving shitty fucking life.

You are the shit on peoples shoes, a fucking hinderance and liability to anyone you come into contact with...

A self harming hopeless addict lurching from one disaster to the next...

no one fucking cares...

Says the 54yr old autistic boy who went from riding the short bus to school 2 become the driver of the short bus for the past 30+ years. Never once getting a " promotion". No wonder you can't afford to move out of that s******* you live in.

And your "wife" is on "vacation" by herself. Hahaha even she can't stand to be around you in front of her friends. LoL... it all makes perfect sense


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 02, 2018, 07:40:24 AM
Says the 54yr old autistic boy who went from riding the short bus to school 2 become the driver of the short bus for the past 30+ years. Never once getting a " promotion". No wonder you can't afford to move out of that s******* you live in.

And your "wife" is on "vacation" by herself. Hahaha even she can't stand to be around you in front of her friends. LoL... it all makes perfect sense

My wife is on a cruise of the Far East, she phoned me last night from Thailand asking me who Eric Scott is, she said every single Thai girl weighing less than 72lb was asking about you...


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: dj181 on March 02, 2018, 08:41:27 AM
My wife is on a cruise of the Far East, she phoned me last night from Thailand asking me who Eric Scott is, she said every single Thai girl weighing less than 72lb was asking about you...

Even worse, she is getting nailed by tiny asain c0ck


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 02, 2018, 09:38:38 AM
Even worse, she is getting nailed by tiny asain c0ck

that I can handle... ;D


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: dj181 on March 02, 2018, 09:41:13 AM
that I can handle... ;D

 ;D


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: AbrahamG on March 02, 2018, 07:41:06 PM
The far east is the birthplace of bukake.  I'd have some concerns about activities like this being in the mix.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 03, 2018, 04:45:12 AM
My wife is on a cruise of the Far East, she phoned me last night from Thailand asking me who Eric Scott is, she said every single Thai girl weighing less than 72lb was asking about you...

There's more of your autism shining through with your obsession with me supposedly dating 72 pound Asian girls.

Once again I'll tell you to post the quote where I had ever ever mentioned dating 72 lb or 84 lb or whatever the f*** your story changes to Asian girls.

Spoiler alert: you'll never do it because number one they don't exist,& number two it's just another lie of fabricated by your little autistic pea-brain to try to paint my life into some narrative you would love to be true.

Btw, whose "wife" goes on a cruise, much less a vacation. By themselves, leaving the impotent cuck "husband" at home? ( another spoiler alert, your wife doesn't exist.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Wiggs on March 03, 2018, 04:48:14 AM
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Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 03, 2018, 05:57:25 AM
There's more of your autism shining through with your obsession with me supposedly dating 72 pound Asian girls.

Once again I'll tell you to post the quote where I had ever ever mentioned dating 72 lb or 84 lb or whatever the f*** your story changes to Asian girls.

Spoiler alert: you'll never do it because number one they don't exist,& number two it's just another lie of fabricated by your little autistic pea-brain to try to paint my life into some narrative you would love to be true.

Btw, whose "wife" goes on a cruise, much less a vacation. By themselves, leaving the impotent cuck "husband" at home? ( another spoiler alert, your wife doesn't exist.
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Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 03, 2018, 05:17:42 PM
Update:

 Wednesday morning woke up at about 3 a.m. to pee (started taking .5mg Bumex & 25mg Aldactone 2x a day Tuesday because my lower legs started to swell a lil and also to try to flush out as much of the CK from my bloodstream as possible)& when I went to get back into bed I noticed their lives some pus leakage on my pillow as well as my bed sheet from the area where my shoulder was bandaged up..

So, bout 4am decided to head to the bathroom and remove the bandages and video tape it and noticed that just putting a little bit of pressure on the bandage pus Woodstream out about as thick as a number 2 pencil and run down my tricep. So by the time I got down to the very last bandage that was covering the packing strip that was packed inside the incision hole, when I took that bandage off it also took with it the packing strip that was inside the hole.

And just by putting a little bit of pressure against the area around the whole with my phone since I was taking the bandage off with one hand and holding my phone with the other I use the phone to put pressure on the area and the amount of pus that poured out was surprising to say the least. I then had to put down the phone and use my fingers to put pressure around the hole and as many areas as I could and it squeeze out as much pus as I could which turned out to be quite a bit. I'm about two or three shot glasses worth. When I figured I had gotten as much pus as was going to come out irie bandage the thing up and went back to bed for another hour or so, debating when I woke up if I should go back to the ER and have them repack the hole or if I should just leave it be. Obviously, I just let it be.

Fast forward to last night (Friday night, bout 7pm) I took the bandages off again expecting to see more pus being drained out however there was none.... Or at least close to none, along with the incision hole was pretty much healed over.

Now, I've been dealing with excessive swelling in my lower legs much like what I dealt with after my hip surgery in August despite me bumping my diuretic doses two three times per day now half milligram bumex and 25 mg aldactone 3 times a day along with about a gallon and a half to two gallons of water per day. Yesterday and kind of slacked off on the water and only took in maybe a half gallon or so, but also took in 64 oz of Powerade (it WAS on sale for like $.62. I usually prefer Gatorade because they actually use dextrose and sugar or was it sucrose? I forget. anyways...), in addition to 44oz Gatorade... and my pee has been essentially clear if not a pale yellow. However my ankles/shins are still super-swollen (BTW, they had no swelling whatsoever on the Sunday and Monday I was admitted in the hospital), & the body aches and pains are essentially gaughan especially in my knees and thighs hamstrings glutes ET C... My lower back hurt yesterday because I was bent over mopping the hardwood floors in my kitchen, bathroom, and front entrance way but that went away pretty quick. The only thing that remains is still in my neck and my left trap.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 05, 2018, 01:37:48 AM
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Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: muscleman-2017 on March 05, 2018, 06:01:17 AM
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Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 05, 2018, 07:39:14 AM
2018 deadpool candidate of peace...


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: B R on March 05, 2018, 08:21:22 AM
2018 deadpool candidate of peace...

IF this particular tale is true.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Sokolsky on March 05, 2018, 08:30:07 AM
IF this particular tale is true.

Let's hope its quick


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Go 4 It on March 05, 2018, 08:35:37 AM
You should of filmed it Valentino style, like when he drained his bicep.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: werewolf operative on March 05, 2018, 08:37:39 AM
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Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 05, 2018, 09:51:47 AM
You should of filmed it Valentino style, like when he drained his bicep.

I did.

Dr in the ER said he only got about 10cc out. About 3-4wks earlier I was in for a needle- aspiration in the Anterior part of the delt and the Dr (med student Dr) only got a 10cc syringe full out (dunno why he didn't try for any more).

& when I squeezed the puss out at home a couple days after I checked out, I got about 1 1/2 shot.glasses worth out... No more would come out.

When I had the black-widow bite on my right hip (no where near anywhere where I'd inject, besides I rarely injected glutes anyways... And that was when I was still using MLG's undersized garbage as well as a local supplier (who now sells my shit because everybody stopped buying his shit.. Also happens to be a cop), the Dr lady squeezed out about a coke-can & a half of puss.

The s*** that came out of my Delt was pinkish-colored, not the red color of the b12. Like I said, I've been can near completely "off" since last March when I injured my neck. In Oct I did a couple 2xxx test/1cc tren injections, and then a couple 2cc test injections last month... All in my right glute.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 05, 2018, 09:59:08 AM
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Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 05, 2018, 10:11:16 AM
2018 deadpool candidate of peace...

How so? An infection in my delt? You dumb fuck.

How bout your little fantasy theory about how I go to the hospital for free f****** pain meds and when the nurse comes in with two vials of Dilaudid 2 give me before she changes the bandage in my shoulder I decline and sign out against medical advice. Kind of blows your little fantasy Theory out of the water doesn't it you dumb fucken autistic train conductor  who is wife goes on vacation by herself to get railed by as many men as she can before she has to come back home to your pathetic anorexic autistic ass.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 05, 2018, 10:33:08 AM
How so? An infection in my delt? You dumb fuck.

How bout your little fantasy theory about how I go to the hospital for free f****** pain meds and when the nurse comes in with two vials of Dilaudid 2 give me before she changes the bandage in my shoulder I decline and sign out against medical advice. Kind of blows your little fantasy Theory out of the water doesn't it you dumb fucken autistic train conductor  who is wife goes on vacation by herself to get railed by as many men as she can before she has to come back home to your pathetic anorexic autistic ass.

you are filthy , unkempt, you use unsanitary products because you have no money to pay for a decent quality product, you are an alcoholic (hence your ankle tag) you are an opiate addict.

Not conducive to longevity.

They say Krocodil is a nice hit, you may want to have a go at that, after all , nothing really affects you does it?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Dave D on March 05, 2018, 10:50:34 AM
you are filthy , unkempt, you use unsanitary products because you have no money to pay for a decent quality product, you are an alcoholic (hence your ankle tag) you are an opiate addict.

Not conducive to longevity.

They say Krocodil is a nice hit, you may want to have a go at that, after all , nothing really affects you does it?

Yikes......


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Taffin on March 05, 2018, 12:18:08 PM


Fucks sake.  Do you have to go this far to try to prove your point?  


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 05, 2018, 12:19:16 PM
Fucks sake.  Do you have to go this far to try to prove your point? 

Prove a point?
Im not trying to prove anything, Im just fucking with him as per.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Taffin on March 05, 2018, 12:22:49 PM
Prove a point?
Im not trying to prove anything, Im just fucking with him as per.

I get that, but do you have to fuck with all of us when you do it?  When I click on a thread I might expect people going for each others throats, and unfortunately occasionally a Tom Prince dick pic - but do you really have to resort to posting actual suicide gifs to fuck with people?  And if you say yes, go fuck myself, that's fair enough, but how can I guess from now on when you might decide to post murder/suicide pics just to fuck with someone?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: WalterWhite on March 05, 2018, 09:30:56 PM
I get that, but do you have to fuck with all of us when you do it?  When I click on a thread I might expect people going for each others throats, and unfortunately occasionally a Tom Prince dick pic - but do you really have to resort to posting actual suicide gifs to fuck with people?  And if you say yes, go fuck myself, that's fair enough, but how can I guess from now on when you might decide to post murder/suicide pics just to fuck with someone?

He should have stayed on his break from this place. All it shows is his own mental issues with the way he goes after ES. I knew it would take a turn as soon as he entered the thread and the suicide gif sums it all up.



Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 05, 2018, 10:07:20 PM
jeez...it aint that serious.... ::)


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 06, 2018, 01:37:57 AM
you are filthy , unkempt, you use unsanitary products because you have no money to pay for a decent quality product, you are an alcoholic (hence your ankle tag) you are an opiate addict.

Not conducive to longevity.

They say Krocodil is a nice hit, you may want to have a go at that, after all , nothing really affects you does it?

An alcoholic who's drank once since April 17th 2016 and who last used heroin April 14th 2016. Hell, I even had l had oxy 30mg tabs in my cupboard ffs,& if I'm such an opiate addict, why. Exactly, you say I'm an opiate addict when I refused the two vials of Dilaudid the nurse had brought in for me and I had asked for the Forum to check out with instead? Doesn't make a whole lot of sense now does it? I know Common Sense isn't your strong suit but that doesn't make a whole lot of sense now does it with your own little Narrative of me being and after of opiate addict. If I was what you so desperately wish I was, I would have gotten those Ivy ampules injected and then checked out of the hospital, now wouldn't I? You fuxking crosseyed autistic dunce.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 06, 2018, 02:26:07 AM
An alcoholic who's drank once since April 17th 2016 and who last used heroin April 14th 2016. Hell, I even had l had oxy 30mg tabs in my cupboard ffs,& if I'm such an opiate addict, why. Exactly, you say I'm an opiate addict when I refused the two vials of Dilaudid the nurse had brought in for me and I had asked for the Forum to check out with instead? Doesn't make a whole lot of sense now does it? I know Common Sense isn't your strong suit but that doesn't make a whole lot of sense now does it with your own little Narrative of me being and after of opiate addict. If I was what you so desperately wish I was, I would have gotten those Ivy ampules injected and then checked out of the hospital, now wouldn't I? You fuxking crosseyed autistic dunce.

alcoholics and drug addicts tend to not tell the truth...


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 06, 2018, 07:30:53 AM
alcoholics and drug addicts tend to not tell the truth...

Then why would I ever have disclosed I was a heroin addict or an alcoholic on this board in the first place? Why would I have ever disclose any of my injuries on this board in the first place? I have talked about just just as many of my mistakes and failures as I have my successes on this board, and have done so for nearly 20 years now. People like you claim I lie yet it's been nearly 20 years and you have yet to catch me "Slippin", even when I tell you I beg you to find the post where you make some sort of claim that I supposedly made to fit your little narrative about me.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 06, 2018, 07:58:42 AM
Then why would I ever have disclosed I was a heroin addict or an alcoholic on this board in the first place? Why would I have ever disclose any of my injuries on this board in the first place? I have talked about just just as many of my mistakes and failures as I have my successes on this board, and have done so for nearly 20 years now. People like you claim I lie yet it's been nearly 20 years and you have yet to catch me "Slippin", even when I tell you I beg you to find the post where you make some sort of claim that I supposedly made to fit your little narrative about me.
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Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Taffin on March 06, 2018, 11:50:24 AM
jeez...it aint that serious.... ::)

To you maybe these images are meaningless, but making me accidentally see a real suicide gif in a thread where I had no way of knowing in advance what you posted is not serious?  And don't try to say look away or whatever because we both know it takes a couple of seconds before you process what you're looking at and by then the damage is done.

But let me try to understand your position:  if posting pictures/gifs/videos of death is not serious what is?

And let me repeat my question - how do I enter a thread about something completely pointless/harmless like this without knowing you've chosen to post a death pic/vid?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Taffin on March 06, 2018, 11:51:39 AM
alcoholics and drug addicts tend to not tell the truth...

I thought you didn't associate with people like that?  Where's your evidence?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 06, 2018, 11:53:19 AM
To you maybe these images are meaningless, but making me accidentally see a real suicide gif in a thread where I had no way of knowing in advance what you posted is not serious?  And don't try to say look away or whatever because we both know it takes a couple of seconds before you process what you're looking at and by then the damage is done.

But let me try to understand your position:  if posting pictures/gifs/videos of death is not serious what is?

And let me repeat my question - how do I enter a thread about something completely pointless/harmless like this without knowing you've chosen to post a death pic/vid?

So upset you quoted it allowing it to be displayed twice?

hoping to get me a ban where you?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 06, 2018, 11:56:22 AM
I thought you didn't associate with people like that?  Where's your evidence?

http://www.rehabcenter.net/lying-through-addiction-how-to-tell-when-someone-is-on-drugs/
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Something to remember when considering whether or not someone you care about has a drug problem, is that people whose minds are being affected by drugs often lie. Dishonesty is something you can usually count on experiencing when you’re attempting to help someone get into a treatment program or even when first asking them if they have a problem. Depending on the drug, many people will cover up what they’re doing or act as if nothing is wrong with what they are doing. Be aware of which drug could be in use, as many are easily concealed or lied about when a prescription has been written.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Taffin on March 06, 2018, 11:56:36 AM
So upset you quoted it allowing it to be displayed twice?

hoping to get me a ban where you?

Fair point - corrected, but hoping to get you a ban?  Really?  You know me, do I play these forum games?

Care to respond to my other questions please?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Taffin on March 06, 2018, 11:58:24 AM
http://www.rehabcenter.net/lying-through-addiction-how-to-tell-when-someone-is-on-drugs/

OK, so a quick Google found you a link that supported your position - have you ever found that risible in other posters?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 06, 2018, 12:05:04 PM
Fair point - corrected, but hoping to get you a ban?  Really?  You know me, do I play these forum games?

Care to respond to my other questions please?

I have replaced the gif to suit your taste.

How do you know what you are going to see?
Fuck me mate, someone posted a pic of guy with a cock up his arse last week FFS

Nothings safe on here.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Dave D on March 06, 2018, 12:06:25 PM
To you maybe these images are meaningless, but making me accidentally see a real suicide gif in a thread where I had no way of knowing in advance what you posted is not serious?  And don't try to say look away or whatever because we both know it takes a couple of seconds before you process what you're looking at and by then the damage is done.

But let me try to understand your position:  if posting pictures/gifs/videos of death is not serious what is?

And let me repeat my question - how do I enter a thread about something completely pointless/harmless like this without knowing you've chosen to post a death pic/vid?

Do you think that's a real suicide?

I didn't even notice the gif until you said something and after looking at I'm not sure if it's real or just a goof....


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: B R on March 06, 2018, 12:09:14 PM
To you maybe these images are meaningless, but making me accidentally see a real suicide gif in a thread where I had no way of knowing in advance what you posted is not serious?  And don't try to say look away or whatever because we both know it takes a couple of seconds before you process what you're looking at and by then the damage is done.

But let me try to understand your position:  if posting pictures/gifs/videos of death is not serious what is?

And let me repeat my question - how do I enter a thread about something completely pointless/harmless like this without knowing you've chosen to post a death pic/vid?

Calm down Gloria,it is getbig after all.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 06, 2018, 12:25:15 PM
Do you think that's a real suicide?

I didn't even notice the gif until you said something and after looking at I'm not sure if it's real or just a goof....
Its the guy who stalked Bjork...


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: werewolf operative on March 06, 2018, 12:33:05 PM
To you maybe these images are meaningless, but making me accidentally see a real suicide gif in a thread where I had no way of knowing in advance what you posted is not serious?  And don't try to say look away or whatever because we both know it takes a couple of seconds before you process what you're looking at and by then the damage is done.

But let me try to understand your position:  if posting pictures/gifs/videos of death is not serious what is?

And let me repeat my question - how do I enter a thread about something completely pointless/harmless like this without knowing you've chosen to post a death pic/vid?

I'm going to assume you haven't seen one of the more recent vids from mexico with the son of a cop who was flayed alive and had his still beating heart ripped out of his chest...





Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Dave D on March 06, 2018, 01:00:56 PM
Its the guy who stalked Bjork...

Oh.

Well at least he was ahead of the game recording everything. He was a real innovator.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 06, 2018, 01:01:20 PM
I'm going to assume you haven't seen one of the more recent vids from mexico with the son of a cop who was flayed alive and had his still beating heart ripped out of his chest...




link?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Taffin on March 06, 2018, 01:36:18 PM
I have replaced the gif to suit your taste.

How do you know what you are going to see?
Fuck me mate, someone posted a pic of guy with a cock up his arse last week FFS

Nothings safe on here.

Much better.  Thank you.  8)


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 06, 2018, 02:05:13 PM
Once again, Jeffrey the autistic adult, fucks up another thread.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: The Wizard of Truth on March 06, 2018, 02:11:04 PM
You'd wanna mind yourself man, all this health shit is gonna take a permanent toll sooner rather than later.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: oldtimer1 on March 06, 2018, 08:18:53 PM
If I was you I would cut out absolutely all drugs including prescription drugs out. I would never look back on bodybuilding. Take up running/biking/swimming and do some body weight exercises. At this rate you will be dead in a few short years. Think about your life choices before you self implode.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 06, 2018, 09:17:03 PM
Once again, Jeffrey the autistic adult, fucks up another thread.

a thread about a self harming deadbeat piece of shit cant be fucked up any more than it already is.

If you want to see your kids grow up and be a grandparent then wise the fuck up , drugs are not for you.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 07, 2018, 02:03:11 AM
a thread about a self harming deadbeat piece of shit cant be fucked up any more than it already is.

If you want to see your kids grow up and be a grandparent then wise the fuck up , drugs are not for you.

There you go with the "self harming" bullshit. So injecting B12 is self harm now? Seems whatever fits your narrative about me.considering I've been "off" for well over a year, barely even z couple HRT shots... But that doesn't fit your little lies and misquotes of me.
. and you're too dumb to realize people can see straight through it.

Pathetic little autistic boy.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 07, 2018, 02:14:02 AM
There you go with the "self harming" bullshit. So injecting B12 is self harm now? Seems whatever fits your narrative about me.considering I've been "off" for well over a year, barely even z couple HRT shots... But that doesn't fit your little lies and misquotes of me.
. and you're too dumb to realize people can see straight through it.

Pathetic little autistic boy.

drink driving conviction November 2017, the latest of many...

Stop telling lies.....


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: calfzilla on March 07, 2018, 02:39:58 AM
drink driving conviction November 2017, the latest of many...

Stop telling lies.....

I don't see how they gave him a DUI from only doing two shots. He would certainly be under the legal limit of .08.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 07, 2018, 03:30:55 AM
I don't see how they gave him a DUI from only doing two shots. He would certainly be under the legal limit of .08.
not if it was his own bathtub brew.... ;D

Guy wears an ankle tag to detect alcohol, would he be wearing one of those if he could be trusted.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 07, 2018, 07:10:13 AM
I don't see how they gave him a DUI from only doing two shots. He would certainly be under the legal limit of .08.

I was in the car at a stoplight, so obviously I had no way of.measuring.. But it was the smallest bottle they had (like $3.68 or something) & I waited and was contemplating even drinking it, but rationalized it thinking vodka would be a bastard I later and work in conjunction with the aspirin.. obviously wasn't exactly thinking clearly and was in a panic thinking I was having a heart attack.. But about 10mins from the hospital I unscrewed the cap a d chug chug chug with chasers of water in between. The aspirin I took a handful of in the parking lot of CVS before I even left, the booze I waited... And was almost 1.5hrs till they did a PBT. I said "I'd rather not" do the pbt to the officer when he asked on the side of the road, knowing id JUST drank the vodka maybe 2mins earlier and would likely blow hot from residual in my mouth. So after 1.5hrs all the vodka had had time to absorb.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 07, 2018, 07:11:52 AM
not if it was his own bathtub brew.... ;D

Guy wears an ankle tag to detect alcohol, would he be wearing one of those if he could be trusted.

There you go talkin about things you know absolutely nothing about... Again. EVERYBODY gets an ankle monitor now, even for first time DUIs. You autistic dunce. Not a day goes by you don't comment and make statements about things you know absolutely nothing about.

DUI's are a cash-cow for the county/city/state. Little old lady in front of me at one of my court dates was convicted of her first DUI at .09 and ordered to have the bracelet for 6 months. And the daily fee schedule is on a sliding scale, so she was going to be likely paying the maximum 52 or $56 per day to have the bracelet on for those 6 months, plus an initial $240 r"egistration fee", plus a $15 twice weekly fee to travel to the probation office to upload data, + 18 months of alcohol education class (this is a lady in her 60s mind you) with $170 registration fee plus bi- weekly classes that cost $31 each.

This was a lady in her 60s who got pulled over after having wine with her "girlfriends" at noon brunch at The River.



Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: calfzilla on March 07, 2018, 07:15:35 AM
I was in the car at a stoplight, so obviously I had no way of.measuring.. But it was the smallest bottle they had (like $3.68 or something) & I waited and was contemplating even drinking it, but rationalized it thinking vodka would be a bastard I later and work in conjunction with the aspirin.. obviously wasn't exactly thinking clearly and was in a panic thinking I was having a heart attack.. But about 10mins from the hospital I unscrewed the cap a d chug chug chug with chasers of water in between. The aspirin I took a handful of in the parking lot of CVS before I even left, the booze I waited... And was almost 1.5hrs till they did a PBT. I said "I'd rather not" do the pbt to the officer when he asked on the side of the road, knowing id JUST drank the vodka maybe 2mins earlier and would likely blow hot from residual in my mouth. So after 1.5hrs all the vodka had had time to absorb.

Why were you drinking in the midst of the panic attack?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 07, 2018, 07:18:43 AM
There you go talkin about things you know absolutely nothing about... Again. EVERYBODY gets an ankle monitor now, even for first time DUIs. You autistic dunce. Not a day goes by you don't comment and make statements about things you know absolutely nothing about.

You sure about that?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 07, 2018, 07:20:41 AM
I was in the car at a stoplight, so obviously I had no way of.measuring.. But it was the smallest bottle they had (like $3.68 or something) & I waited and was contemplating even drinking it, but rationalized it thinking vodka would be a bastard I later and work in conjunction with the aspirin.. obviously wasn't exactly thinking clearly and was in a panic thinking I was having a heart attack.. But about 10mins from the hospital I unscrewed the cap a d chug chug chug with chasers of water in between. The aspirin I took a handful of in the parking lot of CVS before I even left, the booze I waited... And was almost 1.5hrs till they did a PBT. I said "I'd rather not" do the pbt to the officer when he asked on the side of the road, knowing id JUST drank the vodka maybe 2mins earlier and would likely blow hot from residual in my mouth. So after 1.5hrs all the vodka had had time to absorb.

and he tries to even rationalise this fucking idiotic behaviour as something a normal person would do?


You are an irresponsible piece of shit.

Fucks sake, you are going to end up killing someone before yourself.

Fucking disgraceful...


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 07, 2018, 07:27:44 AM
and he tries to even rationalise this fucking idiotic behaviour as something a normal person would do?


You are an irresponsible piece of shit.

Fucks sake, you are going to end up killing someone before yourself.

Fucking disgraceful...

Once again, post where I said that.

You're too dumb to realize people see right through your misquoted of me to fit your agenda.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 07, 2018, 08:34:49 AM
Quote
rationalize
ˈ
1.attempt to explain or justify (behaviour or an attitude) with logical reasons, even if these are not appropriate.

jeez, put the crack pipe down for 5 minutes..


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: chess315 on March 07, 2018, 08:40:05 AM
I do agree with efs the dui charges are currently fucking ridiculous I've had about 5-6 in the last 22 yrs never really got anything that serious I can remember


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 07, 2018, 08:46:05 AM
I do agree with efs the dui charges are currently fucking ridiculous I've had about 5-6 in the last 22 yrs never really got anything that serious I can remember

thats because the drink has fucked your brain...


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: deadz on March 07, 2018, 11:50:12 AM
I'll try to make this brief as I'm a little pressed for time at the moment.

Friday at noon was feeling fine then, maybe within a couple hours after started feeling a little loopy and dozed off sitting lengthwise on my couch and caught myself dozing off with my head going back so caught myself and my head Snapback forward, however that didn't quite wake me up in off and it happened again. So when I went to stand up off the couch I noticed my legs and my knees or super freaking sore. Unusually sore like I have been doing a hundred freaking sets of hip thrusts with 315 on my waist or something. Not to mention my neck was super freaking sore from the base of my skull down through my shoulders, which is still super freaking sore for whatever reason and that progressively got worse and moves down throughout my entire spine and that got progressively worse and move throughout my entire body especially my glutes hams and my lower back is specially using voice text here so some s*** doesn't make sense I'm too lazy to go back and fix it at the moment.

Then like I said whole body was sore so I went to pee and sat down like a freaking woman and when I got up I noticed my pee was the color of freaking Folgers coffee so I thought that's strange well maybe I didn't check before I sat down and maybe the toilet didn't flush right last time I went and there was already p in there and it was already dark or something or whatever... I don't know. So the next time I went to pee I sat down like a f****** woman again, got up and seen God damn thing P was the color of folders f****** coffee and I was a little concerned so started to Google and what not and realized holy f*** I likely have rhabdomyolysis. I've been dealing with an infection in my shoulder which about three weeks prior maybe four weeks I really wasn't keeping track, which I had been to the ER already and they did a needle aspiration Andrew out about 10 cc's of pus and gave me a script for 7 days worth of clindamycin at my request after telling them clindamycin usually clear it up infections like that for me in the past period and went on my way...


 Well starting Saturday maybe around 6 or 8 p.m. I started taking pictures of my pee as well as pudding notes next to it on the toilet bowl stating the time and how much water I had guzzle down varying from 1L, up to 3L, up 2 a gallon up to a gallon and a half as of I believe the last picture was at 5 a.m. Sunday morning when the P was gradually getting lighter, however still dark however my body aches were not really improving and everybody urging me to go to the ER so finally Sunday I go to the ER and tell them I likely have Rhabdomyolysis as well as an infection in my shoulder.

*€* keep in mind, I have been off anabolics since I was released from the hospital back in September except for to testerone injections, which both went into my right glute. Everything else that has gone into my biceps and delts has been vitamin B12 shots because, well I won't get into the reason but I had to get rid of the B12( which I'd gotten in Cancun on vacation a while back), and for reasons I won't quite get into here was cleaning house of everything labeled, even empty bottles. Legal or not) so needless to say I had about 50 ccs of B12 water-based mind you, that went into my delts and biceps and only that one delt got and infection for whatever reason.

Anyways, I know I'm jumping around a little bit here, as I'm working on very little sleep still. Some people here know the situation and have been aware of the situation since the whole thing started back maybe around Sunday or Saturday or whenever it was, I just hadn't posted it on the boards here.

So they admitted me, and I was afraid I had the same type of infection in my delt that I had in my glute and they were going to have to slice open my Delta the same way they did my glute. However that was not the case all they did was make a little Maybe 3 mm incision and squeeze out maybe 10 mL of pus and pack it the same way they packed my spider bite on my hip from years ago. No big deal. However yesterday I finally talk to the doctor and who tells me they wanted to keep me for another two or three more days, which I said was not an option because I have obligations to take care of namely Court obligations stemming from my DUI and stuff I have to take care of because of that, especially that particular day yesterday Monday, and it was like pulling freaking teeth to get him to tell me what my CK levels were down to below 10,000 and that my kidneys were now functioning fine, and that when I first came in I was in early stage renal failure, however like I said now they are functioning fine however my BUN levels were still a little high and he said he would check in tomorrow(today, Tuesday) to see how things we're progressing. Wtf? Seeing a Dr once a day? Not acceptable as far as I was concerned.

 No onto the "new" nurse, yesterday Maureen who was getting all pissy because I hadn't filled a urine cup she had left for me which I was not aware of and I kept feeling there giant urine collector thing with a handle not knowing that urine cup was there. So she kept coming into the room every 10 to 15 minutes to give me s*** about not feeling the urine cup she had left and I kept telling her yeah sure I'll fill it you know what the fuc? So finally I feel it and she still continues to give me attitude and s*** complaining that I was eating the food that I had brought with me instead of their f****** absolute garbage breakfast and lunch they had brought me. I did eat the eggs for breakfast, however I couldn't move the bed up or even scoop my self up to a position where I could eat comfortably. I couldn't push my heels into the bed to lift my ass up to scoop myself up because it felt like there was 400 f****** pounds of plates sitting on my hips because of the rhabdo, so eating the eggs had given me a really shity case of indigestion. So I was getting bored as f*** just laying there in bed so it took every f****** ounce of strength in me 2 scoop myself up and get on my feet to go walk around carrying my IV pole like I did last time I was in the hospital. Walked once I got around to walking on my feet I was okay but getting up was the hard part obviously. Now the unit at the hospital this was a different hospital this time as I had an issue at the last hospital I was at I'll get into that at a different time,. And the floor at this particular hospital was extremely small so I decided 2 get in the elevator and go explore a little bityeah, and even go out side, which was never an issue when I was at this particular Hospital a few years back. So I come back to the floor about maybe 30 minutes later or less and the nurse comes to the room to check on me and starts talking to me about some random s*** I forget what it was and mentions if I want to go look around the hospital that's fine but let them know first however if I leave the floor that's considered leaving the hospital and that I would need to come back through the ER entrance again. Even if I were to go down to the cafeteria. Mind you I was fully clothed in street clothes still despite having only the IV pole hooked up to me, which I had done previously when I was at this hospital a couple years prior like I mentioned. I said oh oh oh okay fine
.

Oh I should also mention that when I was in the ER speaking with the doctor in the ER they had approved me for some painkillers namely morphine. A whopping 2 million mg dose of morphine which I as well as Percocet. Every 4 hours. And the ER doc happened to be a bodybuilder and was mentioning to me that he had competed back in the day and one show and had bought a bottle of Sustanon and paid like $375 for it and I laugh my ass off at the price and told him what I did and at Sustanon should cost about 60 bucks. Anyways so we had a pretty good rapport and I asked him if he could mention to the doctor I I had a pretty extremely high tolerance to opiates still and mention to him the doses I was taking when I had my surgery back in August and told him that I would gladly" Exchange"  the morphine and Percocet every 4 hours 418 mg dose of dilaudid every 6 hours and he mentioned he said he would mention it to the doctor and the doctor would likely approve it. So when it came time for my morphine dose I asked him if that was the 2 milligram dose, and he said well the vile comes in formula mg, so the other two milligrams wer'e "supposed to throw away... and I know your tolerance is pretty high, so you can take that however you like" ( kind of wink wink), so I'm pretty sure he gave me the full form of mg even though that still did pretty much nothing for me..

Anyways so I mentioned that to the Night Nurse and she said the doctor still hasn't changed anything regarding the Dilaudid yet and gave me a 2 milligram dose of morphine which like I said obviously did absolutely nothing. Fast forward to the new b***** nurse in the morning and I mention the same thing about what what the doctor was going to change about the Dilaudid and she said there's been no change at all so the morphine is what I get and I can get a Percocet if I wanted it so I said no thanks I'm 5 mg Percocet will do absolutely nothing for me.... I know I'm jumping around a little bit so when the doctor actually came in I mention to him while the nurse was actually in the room about the Dilaudid change he said yeah he had approved me for dilaudid in addition to the morphine and I said thanks but the order hadn't gone through or something I guess in the computer system. So the next time the nurse came into the room she brought in packing material to repack my shoulder and I could see the vials of Dilaudid and I told her I'm just going to have to check out because this is taking too long and I have obligations I need to take care of today and she said I thought so I have the paperwork right here. So instead of getting the Dilaudid which I had a feeling she was planning on bribing me with because she already knew I was thinking about checking out AMA... and set the bottle of"Curad packing strip" on the table. And I asked her so what do I do about my shoulder because the hole is packed. Do I come back for that or what. She says I don't care what you do.you can do whatever you want with it. you're checking out AMA so its your problem". LOL what the fuck? Haha whatever I guess I'll just Google it or something I had the same thing with the spider bite on my hip and they told me just to cut off the strips as they pushed out as it healed from the inside out. Or I'll just Google it or something I guess whatever. The dumb b****. I was f****** amazed at how rude she was since I was nothing but f****** polite to all these nurses since they were all extremely nice to me from the start when I first came in. I was surprised since I had been going to the other Hospital for the past few years because that was the hospital where all my wealthy clients went, as well as we're all the famous people went when they were in town including ex-presidents who were visiting or had retired here... but I was surprised at the great service I was receiving at this particular Hospital and was kind of disappointed I hadn't been coming to this hospital all along even though it wasn't as nice, and the food was kind of garbage compared to the other place but that's another story.

Anyways I got s*** to do I'll come back to this later
Youre a weirdo.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 07, 2018, 12:10:30 PM
Youre a weirdo.

How so, moron? I mAke a post about having rhabdo? & a few people with the.emotional maturity of a 12yr old inbred Dindilu like yourself decide to mAke it 5 pages of trolling..
 And *I'm* the "weirdo"?

Look in the mirror,idiot.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 07, 2018, 12:24:34 PM
How so, moron? I mAke a post about having rhabdo? & a few people with the.emotional maturity of a 12yr old inbred Dindilu like yourself decide to mAke it 5 pages of trolling..
 And *I'm* the "weirdo"?

Look in the mirror,idiot.

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Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: deadz on March 07, 2018, 01:20:11 PM
How so, moron? I mAke a post about having rhabdo? & a few people with the.emotional maturity of a 12yr old inbred Dindilu like yourself decide to mAke it 5 pages of trolling..
 And *I'm* the "weirdo"?

Look in the mirror,idiot.
With all the problems you’ve exposed about yourself on here, can you tell me what charity keeps a roof over your head? I think I read you’re a PT, I know that doesn’t keep you a float. Amazes me that people like you who hit so many roadblocks in life exist. Good on you for your perseverance but I’d imagine the stress will greatly shorten your life.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 07, 2018, 01:40:29 PM
With all the problems you’ve exposed about yourself on here, can you tell me what charity keeps a roof over your head? I think I read you’re a PT, I know that doesn’t keep you a float. Amazes me that people like you who hit so many roadblocks in life exist. Good on you for your perseverance but I’d imagine the stress will greatly shorten your life.

20k a month should keep him afloat...


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 07, 2018, 02:09:59 PM
20k a month should keep him afloat...

Actually at my highest it was 8-12k a month.

Thanks for trying.

280/day x30 = 8,400/month
Rent, health insurance, car I insurance, car.payment, food, gas, electric etc...about another 1800
So out of pocket was about 10,200-10,500. The rest was savings.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 07, 2018, 02:10:49 PM
With all the problems you’ve exposed about yourself on here, can you tell me what charity keeps a roof over your head? I think I read you’re a PT, I know that doesn’t keep you a float. Amazes me that people like you who hit so many roadblocks in life exist. Good on you for your perseverance but I’d imagine the stress will greatly shorten your life.

What.roadblocks? You adapt and make due.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: B R on March 08, 2018, 04:26:59 AM
What.roadblocks? You adapt and make due.

The main roadblock is that you’re really fucking stupid.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 08, 2018, 04:36:56 AM
There you go talkin about things you know absolutely nothing about... Again. EVERYBODY gets an ankle monitor now, even for first time DUIs. You autistic dunce. Not a day goes by you don't comment and make statements about things you know absolutely nothing about.

DUI's are a cash-cow for the county/city/state. Little old lady in front of me at one of my court dates was convicted of her first DUI at .09 and ordered to have the bracelet for 6 months. And the daily fee schedule is on a sliding scale, so she was going to be likely paying the maximum 52 or $56 per day to have the bracelet on for those 6 months, plus an initial $240 r"egistration fee", plus a $15 twice weekly fee to travel to the probation office to upload data, + 18 months of alcohol education class (this is a lady in her 60s mind you) with $170 registration fee plus bi- weekly classes that cost $31 each.

This was a lady in her 60s who got pulled over after having wine with her "girlfriends" at noon brunch at The River.



you do know there is a way of avoiding getting a DUI don't you.....?

If you need the answer and are not sure , just ask....


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 08, 2018, 04:38:02 AM
The main roadblock is that you’re really fucking stupid.
that will go over his head....


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 08, 2018, 11:15:14 AM
Far as the dui's, you ever hear me "bragging" about them? No, you don't. I.don't even like alcohol. I drank it to self-medicate. If and when I had access to Brazos, I never drank. I never drank in high school, ever. I had the same 6-pack of Sam Adams in my fridge in Korea Town for nearly a year and the same 750ml bottle of Absolute vodka on top of the fridge for nearly the same time that we (my Ex & I) got because some of her friends came over to watch a couple movies (oh, and an unopened bottle of silver jose quervo we won at a fundraising gala for an asthma foundation). I didn't drink that first beer till I was about 2 weeks into kicking Nubain the first time and was using 1,4 BD and GBL for anxiety during the day and insomnia at night,& when those sources were harder to come by, I remembered people saying GBL was like alcohol, so I started drinking a beer at night to sleep... And despite not liking the taste, it produced the desired effect,& I could actually get through the day... Then fast forward to the 2nd time trying to kick Nubain (actually Torbugesic, but most have no clue what that was), using my method of using Temgesic (same chemical as Suboxone, except a much much lower dose) for 15days, followed by 40-45 days of an Ultram taper with a 10mg valium at night along with 50mg IV benedryl, at about day 30 of the Ultram taper, instill couldn't sleep and had insane anxiety during the day so I remembered the beer..& started drinking 2 beers at night and 1 at lunch and once again, could function during the day. So it wasn't till I was 21/22 that I even started drinking, much less drinkingbeveey day, being completely ignorant of the possibility of alcohol addiction or alcohol withdrawal, because like i said, I never drank or partied in h.s. and had no clue what a "hangover" felt like... Then I didn't drink again till attempting to come off heroin in 2015, but never drank during the day because I still had obligations during the day. I was drinking to self-medicate, and was unaware that unlike with benzos, where I've never developed a tolerance (1mg klonopin affects me now the same way it did 18yrs ago.)& my alcohol tolerance quickly went up to 2L per day & nobody knew I drank until I quit drinking the first time after developing pancreatitis and being hospitalized for 10 days.

At the time of the last DUI in Aug '17, I hadn't drank since Nov '16 when I went back to rehab after a short 4 month relapse (got 2 DUI within a few days of each other Aug '16) at the beginning of the relapse.

So given the choice of a benzo or booze, ill take the benzo without question. In fact, I've had the same handful of valium and ativan in my cabinet for nearly a year now and occasionally will take 1/2 a valium or something, but can't remember the last time I took one... Actually, I take that back, I believe I took a full tab before I went to court last November.

So all these "drunk/alcoholic/can't stay away from booze" comments are laughable. With the exception of Aug -Nov '16, I only used it to deal with painkiller withdrawal. And far as the "junkie" comments? I'm subject to random testing at any time... And the "drug seeking" comments? Explain why I choose to check out of the hospital when I could've waited just 3-5mins and gotten a 2mg iv dose of Diluadid. "Drug seeking" lol.


And back to the original reason for the post, the rhabdomyolysis I'm not entirely sure it's gone because every morning for the past few days, display my pee being much much clearer after a few days of bumex and aldactone twice a day, every morning when I get out of bed, my feet my knees and my neck hurt like f****** hell, which according to Google are still symptoms of rhabdo and kidneys still dealing with some damage from the rhabdomyolysis. My lower legs are still swollen like f***, however they're down a little bit today but my hands and face aren't swollen at all. Same thing in self with when I had my hip surgery, when Drs were concerned with A-Fib, however my heart tests have always come back perfect (to my surprise, even when on full blast cycles at 235-240lbs when my test levels were 9k+). Even been slacking on.my baclofen and gabapentin doses which are supposed to be 20mg/800mg 3x\day.. I've only been taking a single dose at night. (Both prescribed, & both have zero "recreational value" btw).


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Rascal full on March 08, 2018, 11:58:12 AM
Far as the dui's, you ever hear me "bragging" about them? No, you don't. I.don't even like alcohol. I drank it to self-medicate. If and when I had access to Brazos, I never drank. I never drank in high school, ever. I had the same 6-pack of Sam Adams in my fridge in Korea Town for nearly a year and the same 750ml bottle of Absolute vodka on top of the fridge for nearly the same time that we (my Ex & I) got because some of her friends came over to watch a couple movies. I didn't drink that first beer till

That may be the case but better to just make a decision in your mind that if you do ever drink again you will not drive. Under any circumstances. Have you said that to yourself?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 08, 2018, 12:02:34 PM
That may be the case but better to just make a decision in your mind that if you do ever drink again you will not drive. Under any circumstances. Have you said that to yourself?

No, actually, because in dont see drinking as an option for me, ever.

Every "bad" thing in my life has been a result of alcohol. More so than even the painkillers or heroin... And I do mean *every*.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Rascal full on March 08, 2018, 12:07:29 PM
No, actually, because in dont see drinking as an option for me, ever.

Every "bad" thing in my life has been a result of alcohol. More so than even the painkillers or heroin... And I do mean *every*.

At least you realise that and know how dangerous alcohol is to you and your life. I don't touch alcohol either, had a habit of breaking out in hand cuffs!


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Dave D on March 08, 2018, 01:50:45 PM
No, actually, because in dont see drinking as an option for me, ever.

Every "bad" thing in my life has been a result of alcohol. More so than even the painkillers or heroin... And I do mean *every*.

ESF if alcohol isn't an option for you why even have it in your home? Having it around isn't good for you bro.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 08, 2018, 01:55:19 PM
ESF if alcohol isn't an option for you why even have it in your home? Having it around isn't good for you bro.

Come on, you need to ask, hes a lying alcoholic/ painkiller addict.

His life is a fucking mess, he needs to sort himself out, guy has kids FFS, the way hes going his chances of being a grandad are zero.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Dave D on March 08, 2018, 02:00:14 PM
Come on, you need to ask, hes a lying alcoholic/ painkiller addict.

His life is a fucking mess, he needs to sort himself out, guy has kids FFS, the way hes going his chances of being a grandad are zero.


Every time there's a break in his posting I assume something horrible has happened to him. Realistically the human body isn't designed to withstand the damage he's been through. If he keeps up the pace he's on it's unlikely he will see 40.

It's similar to watching the demise of Derrick Anthony....


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 08, 2018, 02:04:49 PM

Every time there's a break in his posting I assume something horrible has happened to him. Realistically the human body isn't designed to withstand the damage he's been through. If he keeps up the pace he's on it's unlikely he will see 40.

It's similar to watching the demise of Derrick Anthony....

I love how he counters arguments with a simple statement that he thinks people have to accept as facts

And he gives himself away with comments like this

Quote
So all these "drunk/alcoholic/can't stay away from booze" comments are laughable. With the exception of Aug -Nov '16, I only used it to deal with painkiller withdrawal. And far as the "junkie" comments? I'm subject to random testing at any time... And the "drug seeking" comments? Explain why I choose to check out of the hospital when I could've waited just 3-5mins and gotten a 2mg iv dose of Diluadid. "Drug seeking" lol.

he then says hes not a regular user, they dont set people up for regular testing unless its someone who is an habitual user.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Dave D on March 08, 2018, 02:16:39 PM
I love how he counters arguments with a simple statement that he thinks people have to accept as facts

And he gives himself away with comments like this

he then says hes not a regular user, they dont set people up for regular testing unless its someone who is an habitual user.


Denial.

If you admit and discuss your issues they aren't really  a problem that's over taking your life.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Notomorrow on March 08, 2018, 04:08:50 PM
You sure it wasn't 1575?..I had mine checked and doctor called it "off the charts" at 1350...15,000?  Maybe another part if the test?..My ck test was called Creatine Phosphokinase but didn't include any other test and was full blood panel....sure it was 15,000? Anyway, I had same scare recently...good post for board like this...


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 08, 2018, 05:56:56 PM
ESF if alcohol isn't an option for you why even have it in your home? Having it around isn't good for you bro.

Where did I say I have it in my home? I don't. But even back when I wasn't drinking (before even using painkillers) id usually have wine or some sorta trendy flavored vodka or rum if I had company. Into out to clubs/lounges and alcohol is offered to me all the time but I've never had it. Always drinking my free cokes and tipping the waitress a buck or two.

So once again, who says I even have it in my home?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 08, 2018, 06:17:35 PM
You sure it wasn't 1575?..I had mine checked and doctor called it "off the charts" at 1350...15,000?  Maybe another part if the test?..My ck test was called Creatine Phosphokinase but didn't include any other test and was full blood panel....sure it was 15,000? Anyway, I had same scare recently...good post for board like this...

No, because at first the ER doc said 15k. I said i was relieved because when in had hip surgery my ck was 33k+. Next morning after they admitted me the Dr on the floor said it was "15,575"& when I asked what it was the last lab draw (was like pulling teeth to get him to tell me) he clarified it was "actually 15,575... But now its below 10,000" & he wanted for "a few more days" to keep me when I asked why I've only had 2 bags of saline, when i was in the ER a month before my first show in 2000 they put at least 4 (I believe 5) bags in me in much less time. He said he doubted I'd be able to drink enough water to flush the CK out without an IV.

Back in 2012 when what I believed was T4 was actually 200much T3 and dropped 60lbs over 9months despite running test, them, drol,& winstrol and taking in 5k+ kcal & woke up paralyzed from the chest down twice in a week. My CK levels were 1200 (found out over the phone from the Dr the Thursday afternoon(after me calling him 3x when he/they were supposed to.call me that morning) after I was in the 1st time Wednesday morning and checking out (not AMA) after they put 2 bags IV in me and drew 14 vials of blood. Drs advice was to "hyper hydrate" to flush the ck out and saying my t4 and tsh was "negative zero", whatever "negative" zero means... Apparently hyperhydrating also flushed what little potassium was in me (the 200mcg t3 had "ate up" most the potassium),& that's what caused the paralysis. So 1200 is no problem far as I'm concerned, since a simple 3cc test shot can nump CK by 500-1000 for a day.

*and before any of the usual trolls say "see self harmed blah blah blah", I believed I was using 50mcg t4/day. My prescribed hypo-thyroid dose for the past 2-3yrs at the time. As if any liberal socialist autistic adults opinions matter.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Dave D on March 08, 2018, 06:22:42 PM
Far as the dui's, you ever hear me "bragging" about them? No, you don't. I.don't even like alcohol. I drank it to self-medicate. If and when I had access to Brazos, I never drank. I never drank in high school, ever. I had the same 6-pack of Sam Adams in my fridge in Korea Town for nearly a year and the same 750ml bottle of Absolute vodka on top of the fridge for nearly the same time that we (my Ex & I) got because some of her friends came over to watch a couple movies (oh, and an unopened bottle of silver jose quervo we won at a fundraising gala for an asthma foundation). I didn't drink that first beer till I was about 2 weeks into kicking Nubain the first time and was using 1,4 BD and GBL for anxiety during the day and insomnia at night,& when those sources were harder to come by, I remembered people saying GBL was like alcohol, so I started drinking a beer at night to sleep... And despite not liking the taste, it produced the desired effect,& I could actually get through the day... Then fast forward to the 2nd time trying to kick Nubain (actually Torbugesic, but most have no clue what that was), using my method of using Temgesic (same chemical as Suboxone, except a much much lower dose) for 15days, followed by 40-45 days of an Ultram taper with a 10mg valium at night along with 50mg IV benedryl, at about day 30 of the Ultram taper, instill couldn't sleep and had insane anxiety during the day so I remembered the beer..& started drinking 2 beers at night and 1 at lunch and once again, could function during the day. So it wasn't till I was 21/22 that I even started drinking, much less drinkingbeveey day, being completely ignorant of the possibility of alcohol addiction or alcohol withdrawal, because like i said, I never drank or partied in h.s. and had no clue what a "hangover" felt like... Then I didn't drink again till attempting to come off heroin in 2015, but never drank during the day because I still had obligations during the day. I was drinking to self-medicate, and was unaware that unlike with benzos, where I've never developed a tolerance (1mg klonopin affects me now the same way it did 18yrs ago.)& my alcohol tolerance quickly went up to 2L per day & nobody knew I drank until I quit drinking the first time after developing pancreatitis and being hospitalized for 10 days.

At the time of the last DUI in Aug '17, I hadn't drank since Nov '16 when I went back to rehab after a short 4 month relapse (got 2 DUI within a few days of each other Aug '16) at the beginning of the relapse.

So given the choice of a benzo or booze, ill take the benzo without question. In fact, I've had the same handful of valium and ativan in my cabinet for nearly a year now and occasionally will take 1/2 a valium or something, but can't remember the last time I took one... Actually, I take that back, I believe I took a full tab before I went to court last November.

So all these "drunk/alcoholic/can't stay away from booze" comments are laughable. With the exception of Aug -Nov '16, I only used it to deal with painkiller withdrawal. And far as the "junkie" comments? I'm subject to random testing at any time... And the "drug seeking" comments? Explain why I choose to check out of the hospital when I could've waited just 3-5mins and gotten a 2mg iv dose of Diluadid. "Drug seeking" lol.


And back to the original reason for the post, the rhabdomyolysis I'm not entirely sure it's gone because every morning for the past few days, display my pee being much much clearer after a few days of bumex and aldactone twice a day, every morning when I get out of bed, my feet my knees and my neck hurt like f****** hell, which according to Google are still symptoms of rhabdo and kidneys still dealing with some damage from the rhabdomyolysis. My lower legs are still swollen like f***, however they're down a little bit today but my hands and face aren't swollen at all. Same thing in self with when I had my hip surgery, when Drs were concerned with A-Fib, however my heart tests have always come back perfect (to my surprise, even when on full blast cycles at 235-240lbs when my test levels were 9k+). Even been slacking on.my baclofen and gabapentin doses which are supposed to be 20mg/800mg 3x\day.. I've only been taking a single dose at night. (Both prescribed, & both have zero "recreational value" btw).

Where did I say I have it in my home? I don't. But even back when I wasn't drinking (before even using painkillers) id usually have wine or some sorta trendy flavored vodka or rum if I had company. Into out to clubs/lounges and alcohol is offered to me all the time but I've never had it. Always drinking my free cokes and tipping the waitress a buck or two.

So once again, who says I even have it in my home?

My bad bro, I misread what you wrote. I wrongly assumed you still had the alcohol in your home.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 08, 2018, 06:26:41 PM
I love how he counters arguments with a simple statement that he thinks people have to accept as facts

And he gives himself away with comments like this

he then says hes not a regular user, they dont set people up for regular testing unless its someone who is an habitual user.


And you're speaking from experience? First hand knowledge? Or just talking out of your ads again, making up "facts" to suit your narrative of my life?

This is California, you autistic fucking fool. EVERYBODY gets an ankle monitor now and everybody is subject to random testing.

And tell me, tell us all, why they would believe I'm. "Habitual user" or drugs? I've never been arrested for drugs or tested positive. Fuck, your life must really really suck to spend your entire day following ME around here and making up your little stories, obsessing about me all day, every day... It's no wonder you have no friends and nobody wants to associate with you. Never invited to dinners, bbq's, or get togethers whatsoever with any of your peers. Pathetic. Hell, even your supposed "wife" (who likely doesn't exist) goes on minthong vacations without you. Lol fucking loser.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 08, 2018, 06:35:26 PM
Come on, you need to ask, hes a lying alcoholic/ painkiller addict.

His life is a fucking mess, he needs to sort himself out, guy has kids FFS, the way hes going his chances of being a grandad are zero.

A lying alcoholic/painkiller addict... And these "lies" coming from what? Your constant misquoting me to suit your wishes? Lol.. Fuxking pathetic... And your 50+ fucking years old ffs.

You contribute absolutely nothing here. Your training and nutrition "knowledge" is a joke. Mr. "All you need is pushdowns and bench dips for triceps"& starving yourself with laxatives to diet. Lol...taking pics in the same pathetic room in your shitty "flat" with junk and your prized CD collection from 1993 because its the best room in your home. And you have no reason to not disclose what or where you live because its not like you're in the same business as me. You're just a fuxking autistic loser with zero social skills, unable to relate to or associate with other human-beings.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 08, 2018, 09:21:32 PM
A lying alcoholic/painkiller addict... And these "lies" coming from what? Your constant misquoting me to suit your wishes? Lol.. Fuxking pathetic... And your 50+ fucking years old ffs.

You contribute absolutely nothing here. Your training and nutrition "knowledge" is a joke. Mr. "All you need is pushdowns and bench dips for triceps"& starving yourself with laxatives to diet. Lol...taking pics in the same pathetic room in your shitty "flat" with junk and your prized CD collection from 1993 because its the best room in your home. And you have no reason to not disclose what or where you live because its not like you're in the same business as me. You're just a fuxking autistic loser with zero social skills, unable to relate to or associate with other human-beings.

you are not in any business, thats why you post shit on instagram about pretending to be a steroid dealer, if you were a dealer you wouldnt be posting it on Instagram with your real name you stupid twat.

Oh, and just for you, heres where my lack of knowledge is getting me



Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 08, 2018, 09:31:25 PM
No, because at first the ER doc said 15k. I said i was relieved because when in had hip surgery my ck was 33k+. Next morning after they admitted me the Dr on the floor said it was "15,575"& when I asked what it was the last lab draw (was like pulling teeth to get him to tell me) he clarified it was "actually 15,575... But now its below 10,000" & he wanted for "a few more days" to keep me when I asked why I've only had 2 bags of saline, when i was in the ER a month before my first show in 2000 they put at least 4 (I believe 5) bags in me in much less time. He said he doubted I'd be able to drink enough water to flush the CK out without an IV.

Back in 2012 when what I believed was T4 was actually 200much T3 and dropped 60lbs over 9months despite running test, them, drol,& winstrol and taking in 5k+ kcal & woke up paralyzed from the chest down twice in a week. My CK levels were 1200 (found out over the phone from the Dr the Thursday afternoon(after me calling him 3x when he/they were supposed to.call me that morning) after I was in the 1st time Wednesday morning and checking out (not AMA) after they put 2 bags IV in me and drew 14 vials of blood. Drs advice was to "hyper hydrate" to flush the ck out and saying my t4 and tsh was "negative zero", whatever "negative" zero means... Apparently hyperhydrating also flushed what little potassium was in me (the 200mcg t3 had "ate up" most the potassium),& that's what caused the paralysis. So 1200 is no problem far as I'm concerned, since a simple 3cc test shot can nump CK by 500-1000 for a day.

*and before any of the usual trolls say "see self harmed blah blah blah", I believed I was using 50mcg t4/day. My prescribed hypo-thyroid dose for the past 2-3yrs at the time. As if any liberal socialist autistic adults opinions matter.

again you demonstrate that you are the annoying fuckwit who everybody gives shitty gear to , the gym joke.

A supposed steroid manufacturer and big time dealer who is always falling foul of dodgy gear. ::)

I bet you are always hanging around asking if anyone has any half empty vials they don't want.

fucking bum...


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 09, 2018, 11:15:28 AM
again you demonstrate that you are the annoying fuckwit who everybody gives shitty gear to , the gym joke.

A supposed steroid manufacturer and big time dealer who is always falling foul of dodgy gear. ::)

I bet you are always hanging around asking if anyone has any half empty vials they don't want.

fucking bum...

You cluless autistic dunce. The t4(t3) I was getting came from a reputable peptide site I and dozens of others (that inwas aware of) had used for over a year with zero problems or complaints about his products.

Nobody GIVES me anything. Aside from the fella who has purchased 5-6 vials of Sciroxx deca and was noticing nothing from it gave me about a 1/2vial for me to try and give my feedback and if I noticed anything or if it were just bunk. I didn't ASK for anything. Dude ASKED ME for my help and opinion since I have 19yrs now(18 yrs at the time) of using anabolics.

You ducking dunce. You sit at your computer all day following my every post just waiting to troll and make up stories and misquote me thinking ANYBODY will believe you is pathetic.  I just saw a YouTube video about medical mj helping people like you with autism. Maybe you should look into it. May help a little with your mental defects.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 09, 2018, 12:10:02 PM
You cluless autistic dunce. The t4(t3) I was getting came from a reputable peptide site I and dozens of others (that inwas aware of) had used for over a year with zero problems or complaints about his products.

Nobody GIVES me anything. Aside from the fella who has purchased 5-6 vials of Sciroxx deca and was noticing nothing from it gave me about a 1/2vial for me to try and give my feedback and if I noticed anything or if it were just bunk. I didn't ASK for anything. Dude ASKED ME for my help and opinion since I have 19yrs now(18 yrs at the time) of using anabolics.

You ducking dunce. You sit at your computer all day following my every post just waiting to troll and make up stories and misquote me thinking ANYBODY will believe you is pathetic.  I just saw a YouTube video about medical mj helping people like you with autism. Maybe you should look into it. May help a little with your mental defects.

I am a personal trainer, I train 8 clients a day,they pay me £200 an hour, not a bad little income.

Testimonials?

No, they are all high profile clients and Hollywood stars, I cant betray a confidence, you just have to believe me.

So, there you go Eric, we have both demonstrated to the same level of proof that we are both personal trainers.

Isnt make believe great, you can be anything you want on getbig and the internet.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: The Keto Kid on March 09, 2018, 01:09:23 PM
ES, if you can go back would you have still made these decisions to do drugs? It seems it primarily began with steroids,  then progressed in to various other things. But from reading your posts, i dont think you ever competed, i know you are a personal trainer, but i know to make money as a trainer you dont need 6 grams of gear, if anything just a hrt dose of test and a healthy diet, can probably get you just as many clients. Did you have aspirations to compete? It seems like most your hospital visits were due to steroid injections? Just curious if you regret taking gear for so many years.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 09, 2018, 01:15:07 PM
ES, if you can go back would you have still made these decisions to do drugs? It seems it primarily began with steroids,  then progressed in to various other things. But from reading your posts, i dont think you ever competed, i know you are a personal trainer, but i know to make money as a trainer you dont need 6 grams of gear, if anything just a hrt dose of test and a healthy diet, can probably get you just as many clients. Did you have aspirations to compete? It seems like most your hospital visits were due to steroid injections? Just curious if you regret taking gear for so many years.

Really, how do you know that?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: The Keto Kid on March 09, 2018, 01:23:09 PM
Really, how do you know that?
He said its his job, as well as his side gig of selling "supplements."


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 09, 2018, 07:15:19 PM
I am a personal trainer, I train 8 clients a day,they pay me £200 an hour, not a bad little income.

Testimonials?

No, they are all high profile clients and Hollywood stars, I cant betray a confidence, you just have to believe me.

So, there you go Eric, we have both demonstrated to the same level of proof that we are both personal trainers.

Isnt make believe great, you can be anything you want on getbig and the internet.


You think I only have 1 IG? 1 FB? LoL that I'm going to expose or connect my clients to them having a trainer that also has a side busines? Especially to fucking mentally ill (legitimately mentally ill) scumbags like yourself? Bwahajaha.... You ducking dunce. Never fails with you.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 09, 2018, 11:51:51 PM
I regret taking the Sciroxx Deca, since I have plenty of my own, but its a well-known company, so I thought it would be sterile, since I've been using anabolic since Jan '99 (if you dont cpunt the "andro" shit since what? '96?'97?)...and I've had no abscess or infections, minus the 2ml? Inj of Testoprim-D in Mexico in my right delt.

That shit hurt and swelled for about 10days & was red,swollen & hot to the touch. Made it very hard to shift and turn my steering wheel since I removed the power steering at the Fri & $at night street racing. Believe that was before I was introduced to nubain by Scott Markey, so I was stuck taking a hand full of Advil 3-4x a day because, again, Scott swore by it because Tom prince swore by it.

The abscess last week was due to pumping the remains of a US-made B-12 into both delts and both biceps (for reasons I won't get into... Cleaning house of all labeled products, including Lantus and a cpl other "hard to get" insulins)

So, no. i dont regret using anabolics. I have access to as much as I want so "wtf".

The painkillers? Obviously I regret that. Especially since I *quit* Nubian on a Wednesday, giving a fairly full bottle of Astra 'Bain (the "good shit", not including the DuPont amps), had a big argument with my Ex, came back to the GNC and asked if he still had that bottle and was an Indian-giver, got it back said "fuck it.. Fuck that **** (won't call her that here)", and blasted a full ML I.V. & was back on... Then sometime after 9/11 I actually Quit-Quit & was off painkillers till I fucked my neck and (believe I've said this many times here), doctor suggested use Percocet as a painkiller I refused saying I wanted nothing addictive.  Then he suggested Vicodin, which I again refused. Then it was down to Tylenol-3 (with codeine), which I said no again. Then he brought up Ultram or Tramadol what he called it, the same stuff I had used to taper off nubain and was supposed to be "not addictive". Well, that was horribly incorrect as well as Nubain supposing to be "non-addictive". So I went with all tram, and he first took prescribed 8 tablets per day (2 tabs 4x per day), which is the maximum suggested daily dose. Just under this seizure threshold.

I didn't care for the "side effects", or how it made me feel *or especially* after researching it, finding out it works on 9-11 (or more) areas of the brain [supposedly] plus it's effects on serotonin (I am absolutely against ssri's), so I went down to just 3 tablets per day over the course of about 4 to 6 weeks. Going from 8 down to 6 down to 5 down to 3 was no problem... But I *could not* get below 3 tabs without withdrawal.. Even 2.5tabs... Made absolutely no sense to me. Withdrawaling from opiates, especially opiate agonist/antagonist (like Nubian, Temgesic[Suboxone], & Torbugesic), so i couldnt "figure" it out.....


.... And like ive said many, many times here, they 'scheduled' ultra and you get a refill you needed to go to the doctor and I actually have an appointment and see him in person. So I went to the doctor, and he wrote the script for three tablets a day because I told him I drove by those down even though still having neck pain, and he wrote the prescription for about 25 or 26 days and my next doctor's appointment wasn't for another 30 or 31 days. So I was going to have a good 3, 4, 5, whatever days of complete opioid withdrawal & still having obligations at the gym. I take pride in being the "last man standing", & always showing up for clients and work managing the gym as well (& receiving 2 separate paychecks to skirt overtime laws.. I really didn't care).... and like I've said here many times before a customer of mine gave me a call and said his crackhead girlfriend had stolen some of these Hydromorphone tablets, about a thousand of them and did I know anybody who would be interested in them. I thought for a second and I said no I can't think of anybody, but I'll think about it some more and give you a call or something in the next day or two or something. While I was calling and calling and calling both the pharmacy and the doctor to get an appointment or a refill for the Ultram. Well the guy called back the next day and asked again if I had found anybody and, like I've said many times you before I said how much are they? He said I have no idea what they're worth. I said well I guess I'll take 40 bucks worth is that cool? So I went over and gave the girl 40 bucks and she poured a f****** handful two hands actually and over the course of about a month after doing my research and what not, & remembering the Pulp Fiction scene, I quickly found these things worked great and no more withdrawal.

.... Ill cut the story short there, because there's more, but painkillers? O absolutely regret using,& starting again after I'd quit the 1st & 2nd times... And then the Ultram caught me off guard with the addictive properties..... And using the diluadid was stupid as well. As well as going to Cancun for about 2wks and only bringing 6-8(stuffed in my belt.. I was unfamiliar with smuggling INTO Mexico),& by the time the plane landed in Cancun & we got the rental car I was already sweating and nose running, cold clay skin and FINALLY found the first resort and soon and we got into the room all 6 or 8 went up my nose (since I didn't bring a syringe)... & I got through withdrawal there by sipping pina coladas ALL day (but they're weak son I never got drunk).....

... But when we got home, first thing I did was load up a 3c.f. syrimge with about 12-14, (leaving 10 for the mornimg, b4 we went to pick up more) & shoot about 2cms of about 24-28mg diluadid.

Next morning we go over (she just sat in the car.? She never used any of this stuff of any kind, or even drink more than half a beer because it upset her stomach)..anyways... I find out all.she has left is 14 or 24 or something... And that was it. I'd used all 1k of thosentabs in about 6 wks. After that like I've said many times here before like a broken record, she suggested I buy some MS Contin (morphine sulfate), which I knew were garbage and where on I.V.-able, but she said her heroine friends love these things when they can't find any heroin. So using my panicking withdrawal logic, said well why don't you just give me some heroin then? Thinking I could use much less and it'd be much much stronger so I would say a lot of money.............

............and we know how the story ended.

Tired of correcting voice text,& I'm gonna go play with my cats with the laser-pointers... Not to mention, the pretty girl here is giving me the evil-eye. Lol
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Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: IRON CROSS on March 10, 2018, 12:03:48 AM
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 ;D ;D


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 10, 2018, 01:39:00 AM
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Again, misquoting me to fit your little autistic Narrative of my life you little bitch.

Where the f*** do I say it's not my fault it's not my fault? With the Ultram? Something that was developed and marketed specifically to patients with prior painkiller addictions or issues. You fucking dunce. Much less I was prescribed the max dose from the start and tapered down ON MY OWN... You mother fucking dunce.

Your obsession with me reeks of jealousy and insecurity. Searching and searching for that gif, or maybe you've had it saved for 2years for me for just that right moment!

Checks out. ✔

And oh look what I found!

http://wrongplanet.net/forums/viewtopic.php?t=267233
... Fits you to a tee

..and oh look! Another one! Feeling suicidal lately?
https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.autismforums.com/threads/issues-with-jealousy.4692/%3famp=1

..and again!
https://www.quora.com/Do-people-with-Aspergers-experience-jealousy

Seems "it's not your fault! It's not your fault!"

... And finally! Told you many times before, your insecurity and obsession with me is probably due to you're horrible experience all through grade school and middle school and high school, because you associate me with the guy you wished you could be like. I was popular, you were an outcast... eating lunch by yourself.

 I was the the athlete and race car driver (3x nat'l SCCA champions... I've posted pics of me leading the pack down the straightaway, in full color on the front page of the Sunday Union Tribune, verifiable sucker, ppl have seen it on my FB.)... And had delta, tris, bis, abs, & a back in h.s. and was voted "best body" my junior and senior year... You were a crosseyed think who couldn't throw a baseball more than 40mph, much less throw it anywhere near the plate.

Last but not least, I had two girlfriends. Dozens and dozens of girlfriends, because unlike you, I'm attractive. Tall, had blonde hair blue eyes, good cheekbones, good jawline, & and a voice like James Earl Jones.... not to mention I had social skills ( which you lack completely do to your mental disability) and I could talk to any girl I wanted... And I did. Running joke Monday mornings my senior year was "who did Eric sleep with Friday or Saturday night?" Not to mention I had a man-sized 8in dick it's thicker than most of the girls wrists, & the Asian girls all wanted to try it, with no shame.... YOU likely didn't have sex until you were in your late 20s or early thirties, ashamed of your tiny retard penis, likely with some other AUTISTIC dunce dumb ass broad who never called you back again and probably didn't have sex again with any woman until you met your supposed "wife".

I am the guy you wished you could've been like growing up. I've said it before, and it all checks out below.

Here we go
https://autismcanada.org/about-autism/characteristics/impairment-in-social-relationships/


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 10, 2018, 01:45:28 AM
Again, misquoting me to fit your little autistic Narrative of my life you little bitch.

Where the f*** do I say it's not my fault it's not my fault? With the Ultram? Something that was developed and marketed specifically to patients with prior painkiller addictions or issues. You fucking dunce. Much less I was prescribed the max dose from the start and tapered down ON MY OWN... You mother fucking dunce.

Your obsession with me reeks of jealousy and insecurity. Searching and searching for that gif, or maybe you've had it saved for 2years for me for just that right moment!

Checks out. ✔

And oh look what I found!

http://wrongplanet.net/forums/viewtopic.php?t=267233
... Fits you to a tee

..and oh look! Another one! Feeling suicidal lately?
https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.autismforums.com/threads/issues-with-jealousy.4692/%3famp=1

..and again!
https://www.quora.com/Do-people-with-Aspergers-experience-jealousy

Seems "it's not your fault! It's not your fault!"

... And finally! Told you many times before, your insecurity and obsession with me is probably due to you're horrible experience all through grade school and middle school and high school, because you associate me with the guy you wished you could be like. I was popular, you were an outcast... eating lunch by yourself.

 I was the the athlete and race car driver (3x nat'l SCCA champions... I've posted pics of me leading the pack down the straightaway, in full color on the front page of the Sunday Union Tribune, verifiable sucker, ppl have seen it on my FB.)... And had delta, tris, bis, abs, & a back in h.s. and was voted "best body" my junior and senior year... You were a crosseyed think who couldn't throw a baseball more than 40mph, much less throw it anywhere near the plate.

Last but not least, I had two girlfriends. Dozens and dozens of girlfriends, because unlike you, I'm attractive. Tall, had blonde hair blue eyes, good cheekbones, good jawline, & and a voice like James Earl Jones.... not to mention I had social skills ( which you lack completely do to your mental disability) and I could talk to any girl I wanted... And I did. Running joke Monday mornings my senior year was "who did Eric sleep with Friday or Saturday night?" Not to mention I had a man-sized 8in dick it's thicker than most of the girls wrists, & the Asian girls all wanted to try it, with no shame.... YOU likely didn't have sex until you were in your late 20s or early thirties, ashamed of your tiny retard penis, likely with some other AUTISTIC dunce dumb ass broad who never called you back again and probably didn't have sex again with any woman until you met your supposed "wife".

I am the guy you wished you could've been like growing up. I've said it before, and it all checks out below.

Here we go
https://autismcanada.org/about-autism/characteristics/impairment-in-social-relationships/


he said it, its all true guys, Erics words are facts......


You really are the stupidest person I have ever had the pleasure to troll, I really used to think you were trolling everyone here, me included, but its just that you are so incredibly stupid.

You seem to think that countering an accusation about you is rectified by telling a bigger , more unbelievable story.

Reality is , you have been the "runt" in every group of people you have ever associated with, you just drift from one disaster to the next, Im getting to the point where Im starting to feel sorry for you...


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: muscleman-2017 on March 10, 2018, 02:11:46 AM
... And finally! Told you many times before, your insecurity and obsession with me is probably due to you're horrible experience all through grade school and middle school and high school, because you associate me with the guy you wished you could be like. I was popular, you were an outcast... eating lunch by yourself.

 I was the the athlete and race car driver (3x nat'l SCCA champions... I've posted pics of me leading the pack down the straightaway, in full color on the front page of the Sunday Union Tribune, verifiable sucker, ppl have seen it on my FB.)... And had delta, tris, bis, abs, & a back in h.s. and was voted "best body" my junior and senior year... You were a crosseyed think who couldn't throw a baseball more than 40mph, much less throw it anywhere near the plate.

Last but not least, I had two girlfriends. Dozens and dozens of girlfriends, because unlike you, I'm attractive. Tall, had blonde hair blue eyes, good cheekbones, good jawline, & and a voice like James Earl Jones.... not to mention I had social skills ( which you lack completely do to your mental disability) and I could talk to any girl I wanted... And I did. Running joke Monday mornings my senior year was "who did Eric sleep with Friday or Saturday night?" Not to mention I had a man-sized 8in dick it's thicker than most of the girls wrists, & the Asian girls all wanted to try it, with no shame.... YOU likely didn't have sex until you were in your late 20s or early thirties, ashamed of your tiny retard penis, likely with some other AUTISTIC dunce dumb ass broad who never called you back again and probably didn't have sex again with any woman until you met your supposed "wife".

I am the guy you wished you could've been like growing up. I've said it before, and it all checks out below.




OMG we have an intellectually challenged man with the mind of a 14 year old boy posting here on getbig.

Yeah buddy you are SOO COOL wowzers you are the coolest kid in skool.

Saddest thing is even if you were popular in HS you are THAT GUY that became a huge loser as a man.

Truth is though, that you weren't even cool in school, you were just a mentally inbalanced loser WAITING to go off the rails once mommy and daddy weren't there to support you anymore.




Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 10, 2018, 02:33:11 AM
OMG we have an intellectually challenged man with the mind of a 14 year old boy posting here on getbig.

Yeah buddy you are SOO COOL wowzers you are the coolest kid in skool.

Saddest thing is even if you were popular in HS you are THAT GUY that became a huge loser as a man.

Truth is though, that you weren't even cool in school, you were just a mentally inbalanced loser WAITING to go off the rails once mommy and daddy weren't there to support you anymore.




Nice try, but explains jeffy's obsession with me to a tee.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 10, 2018, 02:41:50 AM
he said it, its all true guys, Erics words are facts......


You really are the stupidest person I have ever had the pleasure to troll, I really used to think you were trolling everyone here, me included, but its just that you are so incredibly stupid.

You seem to think that countering an accusation about you is rectified by telling a bigger , more unbelievable story.

Reality is , you have been the "runt" in every group of people you have ever associated with, you just drift from one disaster to the next, im getting to the point where Im starting to feel sorry for you...

Here it comes, I point out lil jeffy's illness and he's about a day and a half from ANOTHER "I'm just gonna stop with you", then you'll probably disappear for a few days and she'll back up with a new handle, hoping nobody will notice.

And "runt"? Hahaha. More fantasy lies you tell yourself about me to make yourself feel better.

And for fucks sake, you're 54yrs old and spend your every waking hour trolling and following me from thread to thread.... Yea, normal behavior for a man your age. Sad part is, your problem is you were born with a mental handicap that prevented you entirely from developing the normal social skills most people have,& you'll live a lonely, isolated life until you die. Likely from prostate or rectal cancer from all the laxatives you chug and spend 1/2 your day on the toilet... Posting on getbig thinking people here care what you say. Fucking autistic crosseyed, brillo-haired dunce.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: SF1900 on March 10, 2018, 03:07:47 AM
At first I though Be There was simply trolling ESFITNESS. But it really seems like Be There is obsessed with ESFITNESS and his lies.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 10, 2018, 06:02:55 AM
At first I though Be There was simply trolling ESFITNESS. But it really seems like Be There is obsessed with ESFITNESS and his lies.

started out trolling him and fucking with him, I dont think its esfitness that my obsession is with, its the fact that there are people here who actually fall for all his fucking stupid stories.
No one else seems to think its strange that we have this superhero in our midst who could (if he put his mind to it) singlehandedly save humanity.

Im not sure whats worse, esfitness the idiot or the idiots who seem to be taken in by his bullshit


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: SF1900 on March 10, 2018, 07:51:15 AM
started out trolling him and fucking with him, I dont think its esfitness that my obsession is with, its the fact that there are people here who actually fall for all his fucking stupid stories.
No one else seems to think its strange that we have this superhero in our midst who could (if he put his mind to it) singlehandedly save humanity.

Im not sure whats worse, esfitness the idiot or the idiots who seem to be taken in by his bullshit

I think 99.9% of what he says is false, but I just leave him alone.

Let him believe his lies.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 10, 2018, 08:10:18 AM
started out trolling him and fucking with him, I dont think its esfitness that my obsession is with, its the fact that there are people here who actually fall for all his fucking stupid stories.
No one else seems to think its strange that we have this superhero in our midst who could (if he put his mind to it) singlehandedly save humanity.

Im not sure whats worse, esfitness the idiot or the idiots who seem to be taken in by his bullshit

Then explain why you & only you follow me to EVERY comment I make and derail every fucken thread? EVERY thread you post in gets ruined.

You're a bitch. Bottom line. An autistic bitch.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 10, 2018, 08:31:40 AM
Then explain why you & only you follow me to EVERY comment I make and derail every fucken thread? EVERY thread you post in gets ruined.

You're a bitch. Bottom line. An autistic bitch.

if I dont pull you up on your shit you will start pushing the envelope of bullshit and who knows where it will end, at least me fucking with you keeps you at zero believability, without me you would be breeding Unicorns.

The only threads you post in are just you trying to top times 10 everyone elses stories in the thread.

You are lifes biggest loser and feel the need to compensate by making up fantastic stories of how you want your life to have been, in reality its been one disaster to another, and long will that trend continue because you really believe lifes great.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: B R on March 10, 2018, 11:25:50 AM
I regret taking the Sciroxx Deca, since I have plenty of my own, but its a well-known company, so I thought it would be sterile, since I've been using anabolic since Jan '99 (if you dont cpunt the "andro" shit since what? '96?'97?)...and I've had no abscess or infections, minus the 2ml? Inj of Testoprim-D in Mexico in my right delt.

That shit hurt and swelled for about 10days & was red,swollen & hot to the touch. Made it very hard to shift and turn my steering wheel since I removed the power steering at the Fri & $at night street racing. Believe that was before I was introduced to nubain by Scott Markey, so I was stuck taking a hand full of Advil 3-4x a day because, again, Scott swore by it because Tom prince swore by it.

The abscess last week was due to pumping the remains of a US-made B-12 into both delts and both biceps (for reasons I won't get into... Cleaning house of all labeled products, including Lantus and a cpl other "hard to get" insulins)

So, no. i dont regret using anabolics. I have access to as much as I want so "wtf".

The painkillers? Obviously I regret that. Especially since I *quit* Nubian on a Wednesday, giving a fairly full bottle of Astra 'Bain (the "good shit", not including the DuPont amps), had a big argument with my Ex, came back to the GNC and asked if he still had that bottle and was an Indian-giver, got it back said "fuck it.. Fuck that **** (won't call her that here)", and blasted a full ML I.V. & was back on... Then sometime after 9/11 I actually Quit-Quit & was off painkillers till I fucked my neck and (believe I've said this many times here), doctor suggested use Percocet as a painkiller I refused saying I wanted nothing addictive.  Then he suggested Vicodin, which I again refused. Then it was down to Tylenol-3 (with codeine), which I said no again. Then he brought up Ultram or Tramadol what he called it, the same stuff I had used to taper off nubain and was supposed to be "not addictive". Well, that was horribly incorrect as well as Nubain supposing to be "non-addictive". So I went with all tram, and he first took prescribed 8 tablets per day (2 tabs 4x per day), which is the maximum suggested daily dose. Just under this seizure threshold.

I didn't care for the "side effects", or how it made me feel *or especially* after researching it, finding out it works on 9-11 (or more) areas of the brain [supposedly] plus it's effects on serotonin (I am absolutely against ssri's), so I went down to just 3 tablets per day over the course of about 4 to 6 weeks. Going from 8 down to 6 down to 5 down to 3 was no problem... But I *could not* get below 3 tabs without withdrawal.. Even 2.5tabs... Made absolutely no sense to me. Withdrawaling from opiates, especially opiate agonist/antagonist (like Nubian, Temgesic[Suboxone], & Torbugesic), so i couldnt "figure" it out.....


.... And like ive said many, many times here, they 'scheduled' ultra and you get a refill you needed to go to the doctor and I actually have an appointment and see him in person. So I went to the doctor, and he wrote the script for three tablets a day because I told him I drove by those down even though still having neck pain, and he wrote the prescription for about 25 or 26 days and my next doctor's appointment wasn't for another 30 or 31 days. So I was going to have a good 3, 4, 5, whatever days of complete opioid withdrawal & still having obligations at the gym. I take pride in being the "last man standing", & always showing up for clients and work managing the gym as well (& receiving 2 separate paychecks to skirt overtime laws.. I really didn't care).... and like I've said here many times before a customer of mine gave me a call and said his crackhead girlfriend had stolen some of these Hydromorphone tablets, about a thousand of them and did I know anybody who would be interested in them. I thought for a second and I said no I can't think of anybody, but I'll think about it some more and give you a call or something in the next day or two or something. While I was calling and calling and calling both the pharmacy and the doctor to get an appointment or a refill for the Ultram. Well the guy called back the next day and asked again if I had found anybody and, like I've said many times you before I said how much are they? He said I have no idea what they're worth. I said well I guess I'll take 40 bucks worth is that cool? So I went over and gave the girl 40 bucks and she poured a f****** handful two hands actually and over the course of about a month after doing my research and what not, & remembering the Pulp Fiction scene, I quickly found these things worked great and no more withdrawal.

.... Ill cut the story short there, because there's more, but painkillers? O absolutely regret using,& starting again after I'd quit the 1st & 2nd times... And then the Ultram caught me off guard with the addictive properties..... And using the diluadid was stupid as well. As well as going to Cancun for about 2wks and only bringing 6-8(stuffed in my belt.. I was unfamiliar with smuggling INTO Mexico),& by the time the plane landed in Cancun & we got the rental car I was already sweating and nose running, cold clay skin and FINALLY found the first resort and soon and we got into the room all 6 or 8 went up my nose (since I didn't bring a syringe)... & I got through withdrawal there by sipping pina coladas ALL day (but they're weak son I never got drunk).....

... But when we got home, first thing I did was load up a 3c.f. syrimge with about 12-14, (leaving 10 for the mornimg, b4 we went to pick up more) & shoot about 2cms of about 24-28mg diluadid.

Next morning we go over (she just sat in the car.? She never used any of this stuff of any kind, or even drink more than half a beer because it upset her stomach)..anyways... I find out all.she has left is 14 or 24 or something... And that was it. I'd used all 1k of thosentabs in about 6 wks. After that like I've said many times here before like a broken record, she suggested I buy some MS Contin (morphine sulfate), which I knew were garbage and where on I.V.-able, but she said her heroine friends love these things when they can't find any heroin. So using my panicking withdrawal logic, said well why don't you just give me some heroin then? Thinking I could use much less and it'd be much much stronger so I would say a lot of money.............

............and we know how the story ended.

Tired of correcting voice text,& I'm gonna go play with my cats with the laser-pointers... Not to mention, the pretty girl here is giving me the evil-eye. Lol

A simple “yes” or “no” would have been adequate.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 10, 2018, 11:55:01 AM
I went to a home for the elderly today with my mother to see a friend of hers who was suffering from dementia.
I hadn't seen her for around three years, she was unrecognisable sitting in the chair asleep.
I grew up with this woman living next door to us all through my childhood and was saddened to see her like this, I took her hand and spoke to her and she opened her eyes and looked at me, there wasn't any sign of recognition at first but after I spoke to her she seem to light up and she used my name, she then started using incoherent language that was all mixed up, my mum said "she doesnt know anything, its pointless", she then slipped back into oblivion and went back to sleep.

She had a very small window of realisation in a sea of confusion and to me that was worth it.

I think this is maybe why I pull esfitness up on all his irrationality and fantasy, at least while hes responding to me he is back in the land of the living, even for only a short time....


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 10, 2018, 08:54:33 PM
if I dont pull you up on your shit you will start pushing the envelope of bullshit and who knows where it will end, at least me fucking with you keeps you at zero believability, without me you would be breeding Unicorns.

The only threads you post in are just you trying to top times 10 everyone elses stories in the thread
.

You are lifes biggest loser and feel the need to compensate by making up fantastic stories of how you want your life to have been, in reality its been one disaster to another, and long will that trend continue because you really believe lifes great.

More of your lies about me. I comment in threads in which I have experience. Same can never be said about you. Ever.

Just a short example, SHOW ME where I'm trying to "top times 10" here. You ducking autistic little bitch.

Got 2 caps from a client back in 03 to try thinking it'd be like ephedrine for pre workout... Took it at about 2-3pm, anticipating it kicking in around 4 to train... 4pm comes and goes, nothing.. 5pm nothing.. 6pm train anyways, with no ripped fuel just in case it actually kicked in.. Nothing... Zero appetite and zero "stimulation", however I was laying in bed all night, wide awake till 7am. Exhausted all day the next day.

I've had clients who've used it for years straight however. Usually ladies 50+ who were impossible to work with diet-wise who couldn't understand thyroid down-regulation and thought 2 salads a day would "work", despite making no progress in years.
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I don't know what's more pathetic, you thinking your get Biggs savior and protect her from me, or the fact that you think my stories are fantastic because you just can't relate do to your complete lack of social skills, Anthropophobia/social phobia, that comes from your developmental disability/autism... Being afraid to leave the house like those pathetic fucks you see on t.v. (t.v. btw, being your only window to the outside world as a child.)

There was a kid next door when I was growing up who had autism as well. You would piss the fucking bed till he was 10 and didn't even speak till he was 3-4. Still wore those Velcro shoes till he was 10 as well.

Sound familiar? Did you have the same "issues"?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 10, 2018, 09:47:32 PM
More of your lies about me. I comment in threads in which I have experience. Same can never be said about you. Ever.

Just a short example, SHOW ME where I'm trying to "top times 10" here. You ducking autistic little bitch.




I don't know what's more pathetic, you thinking your get Biggs savior and protect her from me, or the fact that you think my stories are fantastic because you just can't relate do to your complete lack of social skills, Anthropophobia/social phobia, that comes from your developmental disability/autism... Being afraid to leave the house like those pathetic fucks you see on t.v. (t.v. btw, being your only window to the outside world as a child.)

There was a kid next door when I was growing up who had autism as well. You would piss the fucking bed till he was 10 and didn't even speak till he was 3-4. Still wore those Velcro shoes till he was 10 as well.

Sound familiar? Did you have the same "issues"?

great comeback post...

 ::)


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 12, 2018, 12:57:28 AM
Have you been friends with him in the past or is it just a getbig feud?

If you posted on your normal account you wouldn't have to ask that....


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 12, 2018, 01:39:28 PM
Laughable that I "still use narcotics" & that I "still drink". I've drank once since Nov 1st 2016 & got s DUI because of it. And the little texts message? LoL gotta guy coaching a girl who needs nolva tabs. I don't deal with tabs, only liquids. They don't want or trust liquids so helped them out cuz I know a guy (who's a cop even.. Not a customer of mine however) who has tabs. Stopped by his brothers house to pick'em up but dude wasn't home so called the cop buddy cpl times but no answer. Get a text from random # asking if I called, thought it was him. Said "stopped by you bros but he was out. Need 20" reply was " you're using narcotics I knew it!" Or some shit. Hahaha then on here the story becomes "oxy" hahaha

As if I'm #1 gonna be talking about narcotics or recreational drugs with a number I don't know and hasn't identified themselves. #2 what the fuck would oxy do for me? LoL 480+ mgs per day of that shit amd I felt nothing when I had my hip surgery, what the fuck would "20 oxy", even if it were 80 fucking mgs, do for me? Be a complete waste of money.

For fucks sake I was in the hospital and the nurse came in with 2 vials of diluadid to give me IV before she repacked the lol hole in my felt and I easily could've just had the shots, got it repacked THEN left. But I said "nah, I've got obligations. I'm checking out." Asked her what do I do about my shoulder and her reply was "you can do whatever you want with it.not my problem. You're checking out AMA". I could've just as easily went back and had them repack it and gotten a script for painkillers, but again, wtf is oxycodone gonna do for me? Ffs, I could've stayed just 1 extra day getting fluids I.v. and left with a painkiller script.... For ducks sake again, I have "degenerative disc disease" from my c4 up through my c7 and have had a pain management referral for fucking months, but haven't used it. That's a guaranteed prescription for  Oxycontin  if I wanted ,LoL idiots... But gabapentin and baclofen have been doing the job done so why would I bother?. .. Btw, As people saw, I unwrapped my shoulder and repacked it myself at home. Can't even tell where the little 1.5mm incision was now.

And its pretty easy to see what hospital I was in for my hip surgery from YT and IG. Which is supposed to be the best hospital in the valley. Its where all my clients go and where all the "famous" people go, so people think i got some sort of "special treatment" with my meals bwahahaha... The lady goes to every room 3x a day and asks "can I take your order for lunch/dinner/breakfast tomorrow" God, peoples brains are just wired wrong and paranoid delusions take over.... As if it was only me who had their meal orders taken or could get all the ice cream cups and sodas and sandwiches I wanted. Fucking clueless.

Funny how people believe they can just "put" somebody on a "sex offender registry". lol unbelievable stupidity.

Also thought it was funny when I get a "threatening txt" saying "stuff i got was garbage. Watch your back you thief" or whatever... #1 from a # finding know and #2 I've never had anybody question, much less call product garbage since 2011. ... Fucking laughable.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 12, 2018, 01:47:38 PM
Laughable that I "still use narcotics" & that I "still drink". I've drank once since Nov 1st 2016 & got s DUI because of it. And the little texts message? LoL gotta guy coaching a girl who needs nolva tabs. I don't deal with tabs, only liquids. They don't want or trust liquids so helped them out cuz I know a guy (who's a cop even.. Not a customer of mine however) who has tabs. Stopped by his brothers house to pick'em up but dude wasn't home so called the cop buddy cpl times but no answer. Get a text from random # asking if I called, thought it was him. Said "stopped by you bros but he was out. Need 20" reply was " you're using narcotics I knew it!" Or some shit. Hahaha then on here the story becomes "oxy" hahaha

As if I'm #1 gonna be talking about narcotics or recreational drugs with a number I don't know and hasn't identified themselves. #2 what the fuck would oxy do for me? LoL 480+ mgs per day of that shit amd I felt nothing when I had my hip surgery, what the fuck would "20 oxy", even if it were 80 fucking mgs, do for me? Be a complete waste of money.

For fucks sake I was in the hospital and the nurse came in with 2 vials of diluadid to give me IV before she repacked the lol hole in my felt and I easily could've just had the shots, got it repacked THEN left. But I said "nah, I've got obligations. I'm checking out." Asked her what do I do about my shoulder and her reply was "you can do whatever you want with it.not my problem. You're checking out AMA". I could've just as easily went back and had them repack it and gotten a script for painkillers, but again, wtf is oxycodone gonna do for me? Ffs, I could've stayed just 1 extra day getting fluids I.v. and left with a painkiller script.... For ducks sake again, I have "degenerative disc disease" from my c4 up through my c7 and have had a pain management referral for fucking months, but haven't used it. That's a guaranteed prescription for  Oxycontin  if I wanted ,LoL idiots... But gabapentin and baclofen have been doing the job done so why would I bother?. .. Btw, As people saw, I unwrapped my shoulder and repacked it myself at home. Can't even tell where the little 1.5mm incision was now.

And its pretty easy to see what hospital I was in for my hip surgery from YT and IG. Which is supposed to be the best hospital in the valley. Its where all my clients go and where all the "famous" people go, so people think i got some sort of "special treatment" with my meals bwahahaha... The lady goes to every room 3x a day and asks "can I take your order for lunch/dinner/breakfast tomorrow" God, peoples brains are just wired wrong and paranoid delusions take over.... As if it was only me who had their meal orders taken or could get all the ice cream cups and sodas and sandwiches I wanted. Fucking clueless.

Funny how people believe they can just "put" somebody on a "sex offender registry". lol unbelievable stupidity.

Also thought it was funny when I get a "threatening txt" saying "stuff i got was garbage. Watch your back you thief" or whatever... #1 from a # finding know and #2 I've never had anybody question, much less call product garbage since 2011. ... Fucking laughable.


no one cares...


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: AusBB on March 12, 2018, 05:11:02 PM
Just out of interest ES, since this seems to be a topic you are well versed on.

What was heroin like compared to high doses of other opiates like oxy etc? Is it a case of a high mg dose of oxy is basically the same thing as H or is H just on a different level?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Nether Animal on March 12, 2018, 05:39:51 PM
Just out of interest ES, since this seems to be a topic you are well versed on.

What was heroin like compared to high doses of other opiates like oxy etc? Is it a case of a high mg dose of oxy is basically the same thing as H or is H just on a different level?

It's the ROA more than the particular opioid itself...


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 12, 2018, 06:17:59 PM
Just out of interest ES, since this seems to be a topic you are well versed on.

What was heroin like compared to high doses of other opiates like oxy etc? Is it a case of a high mg dose of oxy is basically the same thing as H or is H just on a different level?

Heroin actually sucks. Its just more easily available. When you first start (usually coming from a different opiate Pain killer from an injury.. Its "ok" for like the first couple weeks.. Then tolerance goes up, (obviously more for me). And if you relapse (believe i relapsed 1x? Maybe 2x ) it only "feels good", like you get that "ahhh" feeling after a shot that lasts maybe 5mins, the rest is just pain relief and using it not to get sick.

Oxy has to be tAken by mouth (maybe rectal? Never tried Nd don't know the BA of that ROA since I only used oxy in the hospital and for a few weeks after released)... Oxy for me was like nothing. Like I said, 480mg. Day total of IR and CR did nothing.

Morphine sulphate (reg morphine the shoot u IV and MS Contin orally) is a complete waste for me. Even before heroin 90mg MS did zero to take away withdrawal.. Likewise, when I couldn't get hold of a H supplier, 160mg oxy did zero to take me out of withdrawal.

Far as opiates go, the only one that actually has the sustained "ahhhhh.... Ok, lets get shit done" feeling is a substantial dose of Diluadid IV. That lasts 45-60min and when walking it was like somebody pulling my e-break when it wore off and was difficult to walk... Which is why I was getting it every 2hrs in the hospital.

If you're new to opiates, you'll feel even just 5mg oxy, but tolerance quickly goes up and stays up... Since I'd been clean over a year at the time of my surgery and was still needing 480+ oxy & 24mg diluadid per day. That's enough to stop quite a few grown men from breathing, but I'm u lucky enough to either "have" and enzyme or "lack" an enzyme in my liver that metabolized opiates and other things differently than most.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 12, 2018, 09:07:09 PM
Heroin actually sucks. Its just more easily available. When you first start (usually coming from a different opiate Pain killer from an injury.. Its "ok" for like the first couple weeks.. Then tolerance goes up, (obviously more for me). And if you relapse (believe i relapsed 1x? Maybe 2x ) it only "feels good", like you get that "ahhh" feeling after a shot that lasts maybe 5mins, the rest is just pain relief and using it not to get sick.

Oxy has to be tAken by mouth (maybe rectal? Never tried Nd don't know the BA of that ROA since I only used oxy in the hospital and for a few weeks after released)... Oxy for me was like nothing. Like I said, 480mg. Day total of IR and CR did nothing.

Morphine sulphate (reg morphine the shoot u IV and MS Contin orally) is a complete waste for me. Even before heroin 90mg MS did zero to take away withdrawal.. Likewise, when I couldn't get hold of a H supplier, 160mg oxy did zero to take me out of withdrawal.

Far as opiates go, the only one that actually has the sustained "ahhhhh.... Ok, lets get shit done" feeling is a substantial dose of Diluadid IV. That lasts 45-60min and when walking it was like somebody pulling my e-break when it wore off and was difficult to walk... Which is why I was getting it every 2hrs in the hospital.

If you're new to opiates, you'll feel even just 5mg oxy, but tolerance quickly goes up and stays up... Since I'd been clean over a year at the time of my surgery and was still needing 480+ oxy & 24mg diluadid per day. That's enough to stop quite a few grown men from breathing, but I'm u lucky enough to either "have" and enzyme or "lack" an enzyme in my liver that metabolized opiates and other things differently than most.

Lucky would be a very low tolerance so a small amount would work you fucking idiot....


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: AbrahamG on March 12, 2018, 10:37:33 PM
Lucky would be a very low tolerance so a small amount would work you fucking idiot....

Dude, it might be time to reinvent yourself.  It really seems as though you are obsessed with ESF. 


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 13, 2018, 12:25:02 AM
Dude, it might be time to reinvent yourself.  It really seems as though you are obsessed with ESF. 

Yes, because its important to me that Im well thought of and respected on here.... ::)


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 13, 2018, 06:00:17 AM
Lucky would be a very low tolerance so a small amount would work you fucking idiot....

Your autism prevents you from noticing sarcasam


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 13, 2018, 06:01:35 AM
Your autism prevents you from noticing sarcasam

your drug induced haze prevents you from knowing what sarcasm actually is...


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: B R on March 13, 2018, 06:04:35 AM
your drug induced haze prevents you from knowing what sarcasm actually is...

Be careful he doesn’t report you.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: ESFitness on March 13, 2018, 06:08:59 AM
your drug induced haze prevents you from knowing what sarcasm actually is...

What drug induced haze in your fantasy world would I be on, at 7am? He'll, any time of the day. Nothing I've ever used, causes a ""drug induced haze", but that doesn't fit your narrative, do it?


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Nether Animal on March 13, 2018, 06:09:45 AM
Dilaudid is the gold standard, IMO. At least IV. I've had the pills before years ago but remember them not being very impressive, but I was used to OG 80s back then.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 13, 2018, 09:28:17 AM
What drug induced haze in your fantasy world would I be on, at 7am? He'll, any time of the day. Nothing I've ever used, causes a ""drug induced haze", but that doesn't fit your narrative, do it?

you dont notice you are in a drug induced haze because you are in a drug induced haze

drugged up people dont realise they are acting oddly..


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Ted SuperSet on March 13, 2018, 01:44:14 PM
OK, so a quick Google found you a link that supported your position - have you ever found that risible in other posters?

First time I have seen my king be back getting owned to pieces.


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: Ted SuperSet on March 13, 2018, 01:46:57 PM
If I was you I would cut out absolutely all drugs including prescription drugs out. I would never look back on bodybuilding. Take up running/biking/swimming and do some body weight exercises. At this rate you will be dead in a few short years. Think about your life choices before you self implode.

Truth. You are on a slippery slope ( it any of this is true).


Title: Re: CK levels Sunday were 15,575!
Post by: be back on March 13, 2018, 11:57:25 PM
First time I have seen my king be back getting owned to pieces.

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