First and foremost of all, I apologize if this doesn't belong here. There is a section for teenagers and for people over 35. I am 31, so I get I'm SOL.
I have a problem of motivation. This is not your typical lazy beer drinking pizza eating loser whining how he can't get his ass up to complete simple goals, even those that have jack shit to do with bodybuilding.
I have a problem of burning out. I have periods when I constantly attend a gym and if circumstances don't allow me, I can set up my own minigym in my apartment ( I have a pilates ball and two 25lbs dumbbells ). But sometimes I stop working out altogether. It really has nothing to do with lazyness. I am simply burned out of the routine.
I have asked people before what to do about beating boredom. I have received an advice on trying different exercizes, which, of course, not only is good for breaking up the boredom, it is also healthy for the body, as it adjusts quickly to the same strain it is subjected to and constant variety of exercizes constantly puts the body in the unusual and uncomfortable (in a good way) circumstances. It worked.
But sometimes I just feel burned out of exercizing altoghether. Sometimes I wonder if people like Jay Cutler or Markus Ruhl ever wake up one day and go: "If I see another dumbbell or cross cable machine or anything having anything to do with a physical exercise, I will shoot myself". That is how I feel sometimes and believe you me, I have ways and ways to go before my physique looks even remotely like that of either of those two.
I don't need to be told that I am just lazy and my fat ass (5'10", 220 lbs) needs to get its act together. I already know that
. I just want some kind of a pep talk or some kind of a mental therapy (as much mental therapy can be possible using typed words on the internet). I heavily suspect that this may not even be a problem, but a symptom of another problem.
I know that bodybuilding is not the end, but merely means to the end. Most bodybuilders I personally know told me that if I pump muscles to pump muscles, then I have problems. Having 25" arms shouldn't be my sole meaning of life. It is a merely a decoration of sorts, kind of like a tie for men, or earrings for women. And I am currently at crossroads in my life, doing a lot of soul searching. And while I don't know yet who I am and what I want to do, I know I want to build my body to look, as the saying goes, "jacked". Not for someone else's seal of approval, and not for the ladies (Ok, may be a little
), but for my own self improvement.
So, I hope some one can relate and be my personal Tony Robbins.