How do you feel when you are all alone and away from the pc screen?
I mean for a guy who googles another member in order to "own"him and is spending his whole day using the net then he lies and talks shit just to get attention it must be awful.
But dont worry there are others like you(nuyork143 etc).One step at a time and you'll be better,just try to spend time away from the computer and make some real friends.