Jimmy .. I really apreciate what you and BEEFHEAVY are doing for everyone who likes bodybuilding ...exp[laining how things reaaaaly are ..don't hold back : regarding your terminal ilness : I envy you ...you will be off to a much much better place while we must deal with this shitty life for a while longer ..go here and ask this man whatever you wanttoknow about your life andlife in general ..Sevastase, you are right. I am totally relaxed and looking forward to the next chapter. I will maybe see my parents and grandparents again. I will be posting some mindblowing stuff over the next few weeks while I still have the time.