johnny your father didnt earn the right to be disappointed in you , but I think working to have a relationship may be worth it. I would keep your distance from him most definitely but I woudn't burn the bridge...You may find a common bond in the future and it will feel worth it then.
considereing your background you should be vigilant about your need to find a family and to feel completely unconditionaly loved, those of us that grew up with it are very very lucky. YOu should be very suspicious and careful of drug people and sex driven lifestyles. They mimick family but they are not.
You have to constantly remind yourself that a family is created by you, you cannot find it outside of you. Family and love does not exist outside of yourself. It is hard to really get that though if not grown up with it.
