Be honest Taylor.
deep down you sometimes dream that if you keep doing this , you will wake up one day and be black 
LOL
i have been in a relationship with three different black girls
in each of them, i have been the black person (culturally/behaviorally)
i dont want to be black though, im grateful for my whiteness, i dont need any more challenges than i already have. being black would only make my life harder. plus, being a big guy, women already expect me to have a big dick. being black on top of that would only raise their expectations. i dont like dissapointing people.
