You are the last person i would expect to write something like that, i will just leave thinking that i misunderstood you.
hah, everyday is full of new surprises, i suppose.
anyways, in what regard? i was earnestly shocked by the severity and rate at which i lost muscle mass, since before that point (even though i still had tren technically in my blood) my calorie levels were abysmal, maybe 1500 calories a day, some days under 1,000 calories and i still managed to retain most of my muscle and strength. then, upping my calories by at least 3 times what i was previously eating (but with junk food) the muscle just seemed to instantly melt away. it was counter-intuitive and also just surprising at how rapidly it happened, but i guess it makes sense as i gave it a lot of thought on why it would occur.
and yeah, i knew it was dumb doing it, but i don't/didn't care. with muscle memory it comes back in a couple weeks, since it's mostly just glycogen and water, what i care most about is the fact i didn't lose very much fat since that's my only concern at the moment.