Kid reminds me of myself...
"mattogus: Recently I've been posting more about the change in consciousness I've been going through and how I've evaluated my life and what I believe and what I'm living for.
First of all I'd like to apologize if anyone thinks I am pretending to be an expert on the subject of purpose/spirituality/life/etc. I'm not. I didn't invent anything here, and quite a bit of the wording or terms I've been writing or saying, I am repeating, from people who are more educated than I. I'm learning just like everyone else. And what I'm intending to share with everyone is what I've been learning and experiencing for myself that has benefitted me and increased my consciousness, and that I think can also benefit you.
Another thing I want to address is suffering. No, I did not grow up in an underserved household/community. I had college handed to me. I've never been without a home, food, safety, or healthcare. But that does not mean I, or any other person who was fortunate to grow up this way, am without suffering, pain, or misfortune.
I have been lazy. I have been greedy. I have been rude. I have allowed my anxiety for the future to get in my way of working for long periods of time. I have spoken and made decisions without thinking of the consequences and caused others, Megan for example to suffer horribly. I am selfish. And this personality flaw has played into me not treating others and my job as I should have. This is not the same type of suffering associated with poverty. But it has hurt me and it has hurt others that I impact.
I don't want to be selfish anymore. I don't want to be anxious anymore. I don't want to be lazy anymore. I want to work for those I get to impact and help. I want to live for others. And I needed to discover and understand what I've been sharing with you all to help me get out of my my own way.
Thank you for journeying with me fam. Let's keep pushing forward to be the best we can be. Let's go live our lives for the enjoyment and betterment of others and this world."
