Without getting too mushy, there's been a lot of negative energy in bb in the last year or so.. it had a toll... but for some reasons I have a feel that it's lifting away. Seem like everywhere I go I see more enthousiam about it.
I ain't quitting anymore.
Well, to be honest with you, thats one of the reasons why it took me almost 20 years to come back and compete again and even when I was training for it, I was torn on wether it was a good idea or not....don't get me wrong, I still gave it 100%, trained hard and did exactly what I was told. I had alot on my mind at that time, some of the things were my wedding which was one week after the show, my stepson having the kidney tumor and was I doing enough to compete by todays standards. The Excalibur was only the third show I have attended literally since I stopped competing in 90'. I kind of had an idea of what I was up against but not totally.
But as I look around, it's a chemical game, the guys that I talked too back stage were on so much gear, it was hard for me to even comprehend....it was ridiculous.....to me, besides the judging standards, is the biggest turn off from competing.
