Is that why you do coke and smoke weed? I find it humerous that you will even try meth yet steroids are some huge evil for you. Using simple logic would lead us to the conslusion that if you are willing to do meth then steroids aren't so bad. I suspect you have already dabbled in some minor substances. Perhaps some orals or light test.
i dont see steroids as an evil. they are a tool for whom will wish to learn a new experience in life from it, key word is learn. not necessarily meaning to 'gain' something from the use of steroids. the gain/greed principle ends with hard lessons and trials of life because you are chasing something that promotes only self enlightenment and not a wordly enlightenment , until you get it right, you will have less confrontations till you have defeated the mystery on how to act upon the gain/greed principle my son.
if you feel like you have something to learn from steroids, go ahead my son do your experimentations AT LEAST in the light/wisdom of LEARNING and not through any desire through greed and only self enlightenment.
why would the law of the land and nature allow you as an angry greedy manipulative force of man to benefit from dominance from the steroid. It may be shortlived perhaps as a winning streak for a losing team. good luck my son i believe you have what it takes!