What happened to WhitWidow?
Im still around bro. Your chicago bears are looking good this year! Ive had a pretty shitty year had to deal with alot of drama. I lost alot of friends this year some busted wich put heat on me and made me very paranoid, some dead due to cancer and drug overdoses. I myself got in some trouble not related to gear ive also had some recent drug problems that I am still recovering from. I had some stretched back discs that were giving me problems so I went to a pain clinic and was put on 240mg of oxycontin daily along with a nice script of 30mg oxycodone for quicker pain relief so some days I was using around 400mg of oxycontin/oxycodone daily. I also had dabbled with nubain and after a few months I turned to high grade heroin. I abused all these drugs due to depression my back was bad but not an excuse to use the amounts of drugs I was using. you have to remember I lost 2 local friends one to cancer and one to a heroin overdose. I also lost a online friend im sure most of the mods know due to an intentional drug overdose all because of a witchhunt related to gear. I also had to deal with personal friends getting hooked on heroin. where I live there is a pretty bad heroin epidemic alot of my friends turned to it including myslef. amazingly I continued to train with all the drama and drugs I was using. I cant say I have made any gains in the last year but ive maintained the physique I had acquired after 12 years of training and 4 cycles of steroids. You wouldnt know by looking at me that I had these drug problems but then again alot of pro BB have drug problems and they look amazing. I wouldnt put my physique in that category but all im saying is its hard to know what people are using alot of you guys would be surprised of what some top notch amateurs and pros use daily. I hope I can be a lesson to some of you guys on here if you get yourself deep in the steroid game dealing and using you see that it can ruin your life and even your whole familys lives. My advice is its alright to use gear but never get to involved or tell people your using it soon as you tell your buddys your using they will want to use it too. Ive seen it so many times! Ive seen guys turn into to fulltime steroid dealers because they brag about the gear they use to their friends and training partners. ive experienced it myslef I used to brag but I learned my lesson the hard way also stay away from oxycontin/oxycodone its a horrible drug and if you have an addicitive personality like I do your bound to get hooked. I admit I took the pussy route and started using the painkillers voluntarily they were not forced on me I requested them! I still have mad respect for rimbaud,arnold jr,division,4thad,udeluz, delta9mda, ,overload,luv2hurt,bigjohnbluesfan who would make some of the funniest threads- I will never forget you guys no matter if I ever sign on again. you guys are very smart and I admire the lengths you go to help people out. this is a small steroid forum but one of the best moderated forums on the net you guys listen to these mods they know their shit and have been in the game along time. much respect to everyone!