Hey Deicide,
You ever heard of the author Eckhart Tolle? I think he might help you out, seriously.
He wrote a book called "The New Earth" which could be beneficial to you. It was featured on Oprah's book club, but don't let that turn you off of it.
I seriously believe it could help you with some of your suffering.
Just a thought, something you might want to look into.
From what I've seen you write on here, there is one part which always reminds me of your posts. It goes something like...' if this something had/ had not happened my life would be OK now'.
The book is about 12 bucks, so why not give it a try? He is a bit of a Jesus freak, although even that is well explained. His take on religions is not so structured as to be insane.
What have you got to lose?
2nd that, i mentioned this long time ago and he didnt take heed.
Sometimes people dont want to be helped because they think they can do it themselves.
