Yes, that's right... I'm less than one week out from my first show in more than 7 years. I'll be in Jacksonville at Dexter's show, covering the show, collecting gossip, and taking pictures... but this time, I will also be getting on stage!
Many people have asked me what are my expectations. My answer is just to have fun, and hopefully show that I can not only talk-the-talk, but also walk-the-walk! I started out a 278lbs. I originally thought that was a mostly solid 278lbs, but as I started dieting, I was admittedly disappointed to discover I was holding more fat and water than I anticipated. I'm currently weighing in at 220lbs and will most likely step on stage at 215ish. If you would’ve asked me 3 months ago how I would feel getting on stage at 215lbs, I would have told you I wouldn't do it. I would have told you, I would wait till I was at least 225. The dieting process has changed all of that, and although I'm not where I would like to be, I am where I am, and I accept that.
When I step on stage in less than a week, I'll be proud of the just that... Stepping on stage. If I think back just a few years, and put myself back into the place I was in then, even getting back on stage at all would see incomprehensible. My journey from then to now is nothing short of amazing to me. If I think back, it's even surprising that I'm alive... or not in prison somewhere. So regardless of how I place, or even how I look, I feel like I've accomplished something significant, and learned a lot about what I'm capable of.
Interview on HMR about my insane past:
http://www.rxmuscle.com/radio/HeavyMuscle03-29-10.mp3(The two bottom pics are as close as I could get pose for pose... 278 vs 224, 2 weeks out)
