Maybe all the stuff I saw while working as a Probation Officer. Low pay, tough workload, and got to see some of the lowest of the low that weren't actually incarcerated. I came to realize that the criminal justice system is nothing more than a manufacturing mill for others to make money. Back in the day, towns and cities would beg off any state or county government that sought to build a prison or jail near them.....nowadays, they clamor for it. The "police state" is already here. Nowadays, I paint cars and repair dents. Its not highly lucrative, but I make enough, and its an honest living and have never been happier.
Also I like to question stuff. If I have an opposing view, I try to completely understand and rationalize that opposing view without putting emotion into it. Definitely hard to do and something I've yet to master.
Any, 3333, I can really see where you are coming from. Your perspective is insightful.