Not sure where this is coming from. Here is a quote during his competitive days in his own words:
It was not Bob Paris - I made it up in about 30 seconds while drinking my coffee and waiting for some data at work.
"I often feel like an empty shell of human, personally trapped in this suit of muscles, with the real me buried so deep behind this false layer of chemical produced perfection that nobody can look past and see the real person inside - a man with the same strengths and weaknesses, aspirations, dreams and fears, like anyone else"
That some deep thoughts right there.
