I never bought a smart phone.............got a PC and a laptop.
I`m old I dont understand those fucking I phones. LOL 
I'm older and not that bright. If I can figure out a smart phone, you certainly can. Took me a long time to decide to get one. Now I'd hate to not have it. Everything is in place. Email, calendar, shopping list, internet, Apps up the wazoo that literally do everything you can think of.
One comment, those folks who came to your door, were there because you said things that would make most people think you desperately and urgently needed help. Many if not most suicides are a cry for help. When a person succeeds in committing suicide, it is often an accident. Unfortunately, there are no do-overs in that game.
It makes sense that you are stressed out. Who wouldn't be? But man, you need to figure out a way to deal with the stress. Stress will literally ruin your health more and could even kill you sooner rather than later. Not only that, you'll make those closest to you miserable. Try to stay positive. Do like OneMoreRep suggested and do something that makes you laugh and do it as often as you can.
