Lol at the replies...

I guess this was my way of telling you guys that I have been 6 weeks without a drink. Although it was ruining my health and my life, I am still having a hard time considering myself an alcoholic.
It's not that I don't recognize that I am one, it's that I feel like I am missing out on something, or that I'm depriving myself in some way.
Crazy talk, coming from a guy who just watched his mother wither away and die from alcoholism just a few short months ago.
Not going to lie and say I don't miss drinking. The drinking itself is fun, it's all of the side effects it has on your life, and the ones around you.
The problem is, I'm not sure I want to quit.