Wassup Jay,
It's cool that you're posting here. Try to ignore the "haters", you'll find a lot of sincere people here with decent questions.
I'm wondering, how does your wife feel about your bb career? Would she rather see you in another career considering the health risks? How does she feel about your body, tell the truth, wouldnt she like it better if you were a lean 200 pds?
Hope it's not too personal. Take care.