lol.
but seriously candidate i no you mentioned your issues and your mood disorder and if there is one thing i know decently its psychiatry and taking drugs is asking for problems, i know from experience and research. its obvious you have an obsessive personality often a symptom of anxiety and going into drugs with that mindset is a quick road to being fucked up.
its up to you i have just seen a few go through hell and have seen a few issues triggered by hormonal changes. fuck it though, its your life do what you will but if i would recommend any drug it would be a test ester like cyp, or even prop to mitigate water retention perhaps front loaded with a oral like dbol etc. taking orals alone=no gains and the quick up and down nature3-6 weeks max with most being2-4 are hard on the mind. you get addicted to the strength and bloat and its gone in a couple weeks with you keeping no gains and if proper pct is not there, weight loss.
Agree.
As much as
we all Debussey pick on Candizzle (for valid reasons
), he should not come near any drug, for the reasons you just gave. He'll might fuck himself up long term, for some short term gratification.
After seeing many people going that the juice road, Debussey = yet to see anybody come out of it as an improved person with a better life. Add in Candizzles current problems = very bad prognosis.
hmmmmm yeah i know.... im fucking sick and tired of being small(by bodybuilding standards at least)...i spend 24/7 365 totally emersed in this sport and i just look like i have a muscular athletic build...like a middle linebacker or something... i want to look big and freaky like a fucking alien!
youve been down this road allready with your cocaine shit and stuff. You seriously need somebody to slap some sense into ya, because you aint gonna come out well after doing roids regularly for 5+ years (dont post some bs about only 1 cycle..), especially not with your mood disorder and shit.
Ill stop picking on ya from now on
. Smarten up dude..