bluto seems to be quite the pillow biting cry-baby with nothing else to live for then this message-board on getbig. I sincerely hope that you're happy in your little universe, because that might keep you from actually committing suicide.
Therefor I found this nice song for you, to cheer you up a bit, but remember, suicide is not really painless.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i-g0aBYVCgE