so you admit you look nothing special even on drugs
In comparison to pro bodybuilders, yes. I don't look too special. In comparison to the fat, skinny or the elusive SKINNY-FAT slobs which comprise our normal society I believe that I look very good. I know I look better than AXA, that's for sure.
One thing to note too is that I began lifting at a scrawny 100lbs. I believe that my transformation is pretty exceptional, drugs or not. It's not like AAS are miracle drugs either. You're only "leasing" muscle while on cycle. When you come off, your body fights to return to homeostasis where it's happy. I've retained nothing, NOTHING from my first two cycles. I got so sick I lost 20lbs and gained much more fat than when I began. But that's part of the game. I learned my lesson. Low dose, short durations, proper ancillaries are always used, I don't get cocky and over train on cycle and I make sure that I recover appropriately.
If I completely abused drugs year-round like most competitive bodybuilders I'd be a lot bigger, no doubt. But I chose my health above all. I'm muscled on and off cycle and in great health. I can't complain. If I was carrying 40lbs of lean muscle on my frame right now I would die from cardiovascular problems. I'm doing things slow and steady... when I doubled my size, it was not good on my heart. I'm staying below 200lbs for at least another few years, that's for sure. And I have no problem with that. I'd rather be a little smaller, more proportioned and conditioned than bloated with epic fatceps and delusional self perception. Hope this helps.