It's all an act.
Check the times when the fire is on and he is close to being put in timeout. The naive, bodybuilder maniacal fan buffoon character goes away and the real angry guy behind the keyboard facing a permanent ban comes out and fights for a day or 2. If you look closely you can see subtle little changes like that. Kiwiol used to be really really good at pointing them out when he used to post here.
Yeah, he s probably only dreaming about things he d would love to do but never act on them. He probably didnt cheat on her, probably only looked for other women but from a distance, probably has no real links with his father, and probably reassured himself telling himself he could still cheat on his wife later if done discretly. He probably didnt flirt with anyone, all of this is just embelished childish bullshit to impress fellow losers on getbig.
But dude has no real life guidance and is genuinely confused between many choices, options, opportunities, and genuinely seek advices from people where he can find them. This, is for real.
The part where he says he feels belittled by his woman who s older canot be faked, Im sure he feels small compared to her. And i also doubt he s the bread winner, she s probably the one working while he sits at home all day long wondering what to do; his post count on here is a clear evidence. I think that now we pretty nailed the character once and for all. At the end of the day he still has to be a family man and quit his teenage desires and grow up for the sake of everyone else and not just his.
Maybe he thinks nobody respects him cause his woman is older, maybe he doesnt feel like a "man", but he s probably badly influenced by people on here who destroyed families and pretend they got away with it just fine. Listen little anabolic homo.
Nobody gives a fuck about your life, stop caring about what strangers think about you. And stop forcefeeding yourself with crap influences. Again, read the Bible if you really want some quality food for thought. If mankind is still around, it's probably in a big part because of what is written in this book.
Getbig probably acts as a kind of bunch of virtual loser friends all telling him what it is to be a man, while most of them failed. Better not listen to them if you dont want to end like them. You either grow up/choose the family man path or crash and burn just like countless others. It is also obvious to me he s unsatisfied both sexually and psychologically by his woman and should tell her and not us what he thinks in her face. It would probably do a lot more good than telling a bunch of strangers who only use the message board to badly advice or laugh at others problems while pretending to be at the same time "benevolent" friends. Fact is they all want to see you fail to laugh at you and feel better about themselves. They also probably want you to join them so they can feel a little less lonely in their misery.
You wanted guidance, you got it, now it's up to you, and as you can see you re not the only one who has to deal with all of these difficulties. But never forget that if you re smart/spiritual/balanced enough, you can find everything you need and want in what you already have. Those who ruined it all were just too dumb, weak, to get what they wanted; they were NOT controlling shit. Talk about "real men". One thing is sure, it's tougher to deal with reality than flee it. There are so called and often self proclaimed "real men" and ...real "real men". Not sure if it's a good idea to listen to those who failed even if they scream the louder. And when you re old, really old, if you get there, you dont care much about what "friends" said decades ago about what it is, what it takes, to be a "real man", all you care about is...your family if you have one. Fact is those who have to stick with friends are those who have no or a shitty family.
Oh and also, if you really want to blame someone, dont blame society or others, but blame your parents for not having told you anything simply because they were too dumb and weak minded to figure it out before giving birth to you.