his mind rapes his own ability for true happiness.
dude could be a happy, cool dude but comes across as preferring the depressed hopeless intellectual personna. maybe his only pleasure in life is believing he is more intelligent than some of the rest of us goombas. miserable way to live if you ask me. to each their own.
As I said, nothing exceptional about me, neither brains nor brawn and I know countless others who outstrip in both areas. As for the depression, mch of that had to do with my former job in Korea. I am reasonably content where I am now.