Ag, what changed your mind if you don't mind sharing?
I think I write a few pages on the transformation, as it was gradual over the course of a couple years but in a nutshell it happened like this;
I was raised Christian from as far back as I can remember. I attended Sunday school weekly as a child, later attending church as a teen. Ironically, my last couple years of High School I was seldom without my Living Bible (still have it, with the marks on it from being jammed under the seat of my pick up. I was even honored with the privilege of giving a sermon during one or two Sunday morning services at our local Baptist Church. As years went by I continued to believe as I always had. I joined the military and broke the habit of attending regular services while overseas, but nonetheless I would have taken a bullet in the head than denounce Christ, I just believed in God, Jesus and the bible, and that was that.
After getting out of the military I joined a police department. Sometime around 1997 I started to realize that while I was a Christian, and I was morally and ethically living my life right, I had fallen away from living my life for Christ so to speak. I thought.. if I really really really believe in the bible, and that God is right there watching my every movement, act, deed, etc etc, then I should really be devoting my efforts more towards spreading the gospel, walking the walk kind of thing. I felt I needed to remotivate myself, get back into studying the word, in a sense, either *** or get off the pot.
I was intrigued to discover that after all my life long studying of the bible, years of reading it, talking about it, even preaching about it, I really had never read it from cover to cover. I mean really read it. Even then, I realized that what I might have read, how close was it to what was really said? It had been translated into English in the 1600's from what sources? What sources did the sources the KJV scholars use to arrive at their end product? I wanted to get as close to the earliest translations as possible. As close to what Jesus really said or meant as I could get. So I read the bible. I was surprised to read some of the things in it from the old testament. Things no preacher ever mentioned in the thousands of services I had attended. So after reading the bible a couple times cover to cover, there were a lot of questions. The Holy Spirit, Jesus and God were silent about the things I had trouble coming to grips with so I turned to the apologetic authors who wrote Evidence that Demands a Verdict, Case for Christ, Summa Theologica, etc etc. By chance I happened upon some writings by Ingersoll, Twain, Barker, and a few others that argued against the bible being true. I had never been exposed to that and had always searched out information either by choice or subconciously that was in line with my personal beliefs.
Soooo... after reading arguments from both sides, comparing what I have/had experienced personally, weighing all the evidence for an against the bible being true, I had to be intellectually honest and reluctantly concede it is likely the bible isnt true. I would like it to be, but the only reason to believe something to be true, is because it likely is, not that I want it to be. So it didnt happen all at once, but over time, and further studying, I eventually had to give up my belief in the bible.
Dan Barker, a former Evangelist who now heads the Freedom From Religion Organization, wrote a book called "Losing Faith in Faith" chronicling his transformation from a bible thumping, missionary evangelist to an atheist. While our journey was slightly different, I certainly saw similarities.
I'll sum it up by saying that this is of course my personal opinion/belief and I don't push my belief or lack of belief on anyone. Someone else reading the same information, subjected to the same experiences I have, may come to a totally opposite conclusion. I enjoy a respectful debate and or discussion of beliefs as I long ago lost any desire to change anyones mind to my beliefs. I've been wrong before, I could be wrong now and if information arose that indicated I was wrong, I could change my belief tomorrow.
I hope that kind of answered your question Stella