Before you read this: Please donít judge meÖ Iím just sharing my story because people askedÖ
WowÖ okay, I wasnít sure if I was ever going to tell anyone about this, but itís late and Iím sleep deprived so i guess Iíll just write it now and regret it in the morning :/
First of all, - just for some background: My mom died right when I was born, (she was actually really, really hot- but this isnít about her. I guess thatís fucked up to say, but whatever.) I actually grew up with my dadís family, because my dad has all sorts of emotional issues and he bailed before I was born. So you can see, my childhood was really kind of messed up.
Anyways, growing up I feel like there was always a lot of distance between me and my sister. When I was about 17 or 18 I first noticed that my sister was a hottie.
I donít want to go into to many details about it, but basically what happened is that I accidentally found a video that she made of herself. I knew she didnít make it for me- but I thought she was so damned beautiful that I watched it twice. I probably would have watched it a hell of a lot more, except that like right around the time I found the video, all this crazy shit went down and I had to leave home. (My dadís family who I was staying with got in bad trouble with the law. I never talk about it).
SoooÖ I was totally lusting after my sister at that point. She was also having bad trouble with the law. She was actually in custody when I left home.
My friend and I went to go pick her up. When I saw her that day, after seeing the video, I have to be honest, I just wanted to fuck her brains out. Looking back on it now, itís pretty messed up- but I think she had feelings for me too. She actually kissed me right after we came to get herÖ and it wasnít a sisterly kiss, you know? I mean, it wasnít like ridiculously sexual or anything, but it definitely wasnít sisterly.
After we left, we all went to crash with my Sisterís friends. On the trip there, my friend sort of implied that he wanted to get with my Sister, and I got a little jealous. Heís a good looking guy- and even though she was my sister- I just felt like he was competition. Not much else happened between us for a while except some maybe-sexy hugging.
Pretty much everyone in my life at that point was wanted by the government, so we all moved around a lot. Iím not saying that Iím proud of it or anything, but it was kind of an awesome time.
My friend and my sister never hooked up I donít think- but I thought there was some serious sexual tension going on between them. It was around that time that I got really badly hurt in an accident. It was fucked up. I almost died. But when I was in recovery my sister came to see me, and out of the clear blue sky she started gives me this awesome, slow, passionate kiss on the lips.
Sadly (although, I guess for the best) nothing ever came of it. We spent some time apartÖ and I started to get really religious, so I tried not to think of her that way. It was actually going well for a long time- like I was totally over her. But I have to say, like a year or so after all that stuff went down, we were out sailing (not like a date or anything romantic like that), and she was wearing like the hottest bikini Iíve ever fucking seen and it brought back all the old feelings. Sigh.
A little while later she actually wound up with my friend from before (the sexual tension guy). I canít say I was surprised.
But even after she was shacking up with my friend, there was one time we were at a partyÖ my friend was inside, and my sister and I were outside alone. It was a really intimate moment. I think something might have happened, except that I killed the mood when I told her that Darth Vader was our father and that I had to go face him.