this! (and i truly like Howie!)
Ya know Mike you are 100% right to point out my waffling over the past 10 plus yrs.
I last competed at a drug tested show in Texas in 1995.
In all modesty I got shredded and the most ripped look, I ever had on stage.
After the show, one judge told me , I looked like I was going to explode when I hit my most muscular pose.
To get like THAT,( without any drugs) I had to suffer thru some serious diet and contest prep.
Ok, this will sound odd, but right after the finals and looking at my trophy, I felt something "break" deep inside me.
No, nothing physical broke, it was something emotional or spritual or whatever?
After 17 yrs and over 40 shows, this last contest prep broke me. I knew ,deep inside, I couldn't suffer thru any more contest prep.
I simply wanted to train and ENJOY bodybuilding as a fun hobby.
Since that last show, I have judged , trained, attended shows and posted on various forums.
It has been fun, but sometimes I miss the feeling of being ripped on stage.
I start thinking of doing a contest, but I just can't bring myself to stay the course and quickly abort .
Now, at 53 and several years removed from that last show, I am at a different place.
I am nearly recovered from my achilles heel tendon surgery from last June and am training hard again.
Who knows what the future will hold for the Howardbeast.
Hey Big Mike, how's your training and life after Laura.