quite possibly
have only felt it not seen it
scared
is possibly "fixable" from an esthetic point with surgery tho
And hair covers all of this?
When my hair was thinning i sought out options and at the end of the day shaved it off since the alternatives were either too much of a pain in the ass, too expensive, or just not worth the side effects considering I was only 28 at the time.
There is one thing that is sort of like a Super Wig to where you can shower with it, go under water, and it stays on for like 3 months at a time. I knew a guy with on and to be honest it looked great. I think it was called lace lines or some shit.
You had to go evry three months for a replacement but it was not like a normal wig.
IMHO - shave it off and come up w a good story about the horror show on the back of your head.