Thanks getbiggers. I'm reading back in this thread and this shit all seemed like it happened a year ago. For a while I felt guilty for posting this stuff online. However in doing so you guys really helped me. It was the simple advice that helped and in the end it was the simple advice that mattered.
Being told by a group in environment where their is no filter, no pleasantries or any of that other horseshit that gets passed around when people "die" wouldn't help, in the way you guys did.
This was a suicide, where the details were not normal, even compared to your average suicide. In times like this feel good advice like tell your friend your sorry simply wouldn't cut it.
The people involved as you can guess are not normal, were a group of friends and family, that have no idea how to act even in the best of times. The simple advice just be around your friends, isn't something we as a group would come to on our own.
The simple idea of simply just being there in person actually worked, it really did, and it was a social pressure that forced my cousin(ground zero) to start dealing with shit.
I really cannot explain this significance of this one action, and how without your advice the process of us contnecting as a group would not happen.
Anyhows cheers byes, and have a good christmas.